PTSD - How do you actually feel today? In this moment?
I feel shaky. I'm worried that something bad will happen or someone will be mean to me. I'm worried that I won't be able to find a new therapist. I'm worried that I will become more suicidal before my medicine starts working. My back hurts.
@Dharmagirl. I'm sorry to hear you are feeling worried and anxious. But I'm glad that you are getting it out in the open. Writing about our worries can often help us find answers. If you need to chat feel free to pm me.
~Angel
I feel distant, like I'm not even real. I feel like I am shaky and trembling and I feel so glitchy like ever time I glitch I'm just send back to my accident.I have vivid dreams and I feel weak and tired and sick of my mind playing tricks in me
@sadme. I understand. I felt much like you do after my car accident in 2012. It's very scary and overwhelming at tines. Feel free to send me a message.
~Angel
I feel hypervigilant and my hands have been shaking non-stop. I've been breathing irregularly for quite some time and I feel an anxious fluttering sensation around my throat area...
I feel numb, closed down and scared. My therapist said I needed to break the barriers but just as I begin to develop some strength to do so. My young child is abused at his sitters, now my whole being has returned to the here and now. Child takes president over my past. But I am afraid that the longer I hold the wall. The more dysfunctional I will become. Plus He gets out in 1yr and 10 months. I must be ready.
I feel really tired, but restless.
that was short post earlier. life has been a rollercoaster ride, but folks here have been soo great in helping hold on to the car. I am learning alot here. through the debri we stammer, but will come out victorious. My head is in a perpetual maze these days. love too eeryone
I'm feeling horrible. Getting flashbacks.
I feel annoyed.. sad.. alone.. i can't sleep that well and everytime night hits, flahbacks are too much to handle for me... i don't know how to deal with this...
I feel like I am so sickand tired ofthis wintr. Too much cold, snow, andice. I am anxious for spring. I am scaired as hell to drive in this winter crap.
I feel like hell, very trapped, suffering from intense self-hatred and loneliness. I hear voices and hate God. My whole life is hell due to this condition. I would say more but I don't trust people not to judge me. Life and people are effing cruel. I basically hate everybody.
I feel lonely, cold, very sad, depressed, I feel like I'm at a dead end in life. I hate how my mind is all over the place with negative thoughts, I hate feeling alone and having no friends that will quite understand me if I talk to them. I feel like vanishing somewhere...I just don't know what I want anymore, I feel like I'm just suffering in my life... 😔
I don't know how many people are here due to sexual trauma but after the silence is a good resource and has helped me. aftersilence.org
Go outside. Take a deep breath and fill yourself with all of the positive things in your life, even if its just being alive and outside, close your eyes, and exhale all of the negativity you built up in your mind. Blow it as far away as you can. It isn't real. The only thing making it real is your own thought that it is. It is so hard to change the way you think, but it is the only way to truly live. Embrace the pain of this moment and learn from it. Take the lessons of yesterday and apply them to today that tomorrow will be what you built, what you want. Baby steps are all it takes. A tiny fraction of movement in the right direction is all it takes to start building a snowball.