One thing I have never told anyone is....[finish this sentence}

i feel very lonely even though i am surrounded by people

One thing I haven't told anyone is that I am REALLY NERVOUS around people. I feel like I don't fit in.

I secretly hope the government is doing some sort of shady conspiracy behind our backs because otherwise life is so boring.

The day after my failed suicide attempt (not a soul knew about it until a couple years ago) I remember telling someone I hoped still cared about me that I'd tried to kill myself the night before but she didn't seem to hear. To this day, a long 4.5 years later, I still wonder if I actually spoke or if I was so desperate to say something and equally desperate never to tell anyone how much I was hurting inside that I just imagined myself speaking. In that case, what I perceived as "rejection" and proof that I wasn't worth notice even when I'd tried to off myself was really just her being normal and not being able to read minds.

I guess I've never even really acknowledged that to myself until now.

One thing I have never told anyone is that...I blame my older sister for using me as a leaning post when thiings were so bad for her. I wish she hadn't leaned on me as much as she did, because I feel like my inability to function is the result of that.

I like my friends girlfriend and that's one of the reasons I'm taking time away from my friends.

My boyfriend thinks I've only slept with one person before meeting him but it was actually 3 before him and that I dated a girl before meeting him. Sometimes I wish I could tell him and not feel like I'm hiding things from him because that stuff didn't mean anything to me and he is the man I want to marry

that I feel suicidal often and dont enjoy life at all.

That I dream every night of the life I really want to live. And I wake up every morning with tears on my pillow when I realize that they're still gone and everything's still broken.

I really prefer to be left alone 90% of the time but only get out because of social standards