One thing I have never told anyone is....[finish this sentence}

I never told anyone that I'd been contemplating ending my life. 😔

How scared I really am of any type of sexual interaction.

That I always wanted a music career-singing in a band or an Opera singer . 😜

My sexual abusement when i was kid by family member.

One thing I have never told anyone is that I don't have the strength for loving myself.

That I've always wanted to start or at least be in a band. I've been pressured back to being normal and having a good degree and normal life but that's what I would like.

I never told anyone that I wear diapers for the pure sake of feeling a kind of safety about my existence. Yeah, now its out there. Start to mock me already

My Dad pinned me up against the wall with his hand on my throat in anger when I was a child. I can't remember what I did or said but scared me a lot. I learned then I should never rock the boat. But its in my nature to ask questions about the status quo.

Last year, when I was only fourteen, I planned and contantly thought about committing suicide in August. Evidently, that didn't happen and I'm fifteen now. I decided against it, I stopped thinking about that kind of thing. But, everything considering my depression, self harm, everything has gotten so much worse... and those kind of thoughts have come back, even though I'm not planning on doing anything of the sort for a long time.

I truely do regret many things in my past, I have second thoughts every day. I may seem indifferent to events in my life but they truely affect me more then anyone knows