One word to describe how I feel right now is......

Heartbroken but determined to embrace change

Contemplative

Hurt

Frustrated and pissed off

Kind of hard to be positive when this happens: warn the ER nurses in the lobby that you are going to pass out then I do pass out for 30 minutes and the person my me said I was out for 30 minutes and all the nurse did was cover me up with a blanket and asked if I was ok. Passed out of course I couldn't respond. He told her that they warned the other nurse and ENT medic that I was about to pass out prior to the 2nd time that I passed out that day.

absolutely 100% feel like i have no control anymore. Their is no hope. Hes gone and no matter what we do he only makes it worse. and he doesnt even realize the damage hes caused us.

Unwanted

Lonely

Tired 💤

Empty

overwhelmed