Because when I asked a member to not share the drugs they overdosed on in a SH attempt, another member started acting like a baby and has targeted me for abuse. Every single day as soon as they enter the chat room they start picking on me.
This troll made me leave the site for 2 weeks. Now I mute them, but they still manage to sneak attack me when I'm not on guard.
I have to be on guard ALL THE TIME!
If a 7cups member is causing me anxiety and to consider SH, what''s the point of being here?
...I just got over a throat infection, got sick again and its bronchitis. Ive been working so hard at being active every day this year, and Im still getting sick. And Im also dealing with a horrible anxiety-inducing problem that I dont know if I can fix and I just want things to be good for me.
I'm angry because it seems as if I'm completely invisible. The tears fall and my legs wobble, but no one seems to notice. They always believe me when I say "I'm okay". I'm angry because it seems like every time I'm almost at the peak of the mountain of horror in my head, I slip, I fall, and I have to start all over again. The same things happen over and over and over and I'm so tired of it. I really wish that people (my friends, my family, etc) could notice when my hands shake and how tense and out of breath I am when I'm around people I don't know and trust. I wish they could see my eyes water and hear the quiver in my voice when I tell them that "I'm fine". I wish they could see me.
But, as much as I've reached out, nothing has changed.
@MiaBia. Hello lovely, I am so sorry that you are in the pain you're in right now. I wish so very much that I could hug away the pain and be a friend to you. 
@lovethisgirl (This is a bit long, sorry) I didn't think anyone would reply to this. Thank you for saying what you said. I don't have many friends, so I think it's great that you'd want to be one of mine!
Most of the friendships I've had were either short-lived or toxic. The short-lived ones made me feel unimportant; it was almost like they didn't want me around or didn't care about me anymore. The toxic ones were filled with people who would use me for their benefit. They'd leave then come back and tell me that they've changed. This explains my trust issues.
But, on this website, people seem to really mean what they say. I'm just going to thank you for what you said again because that really made my day! I wish the pain would go away, but it'll take time. I'm already on my way! <3
You want me to tell you why Im angry? Okay. My wife is having a midlife crisis and has decided she wants a divorce. Not only do I love her with all my heart and she had kicked me out, shes trying to stop me from even seeing my daughter. My whole life has been turned upside down because shes having a tantrum since shes not where she wanted to be in life at this age.
@Jing2010
I am so sorry 😢
4 days ago my husband told me if I'm not cured from borderline personality disorder that September 1st we're getting a divorce and he'll be taking my daughter away but yeah I told him the closest psychiatrist for me to go see is 3 hours away.
I'm so sorry I wish I could just hug your pain away!!
(*HUG*)
@Jing2010
That happened to my family 10yrs ago. I haven't got a proper chance to speak to my father (except in social media). As a daughter, i want you to know that your children will always love you. I want to tell you something i wish i could tell my father, don't give up and always take care of yourself. 
I can't keep friends no matter what.. My therapists keep trying to convince me I have likable traits. It's getting harder and harder to believe as more and more people leave.
Also I'm got a job, but can't convince myself to torture myself, so I don't go.
@LittleAardwolf do you know why that maybe is? I mean you may not know but do you know yourself what's happened in the past for this to maybe the issue you still got?
Don't punish yourself by not finding it easy to stick with having friends. I've been in same boat too but I know it's going out and meeting people and being the best person you can be . It will happen and the friends who stick around are the ones for life .
What do you look for in a friend? It's not just you what have to convince people to be your friend . You have the power too but don't be too hard on yourself. We don't have the same friends for life.
I have a book on how to win friends and influence people. I haven't read much of it but someone recommended it to me . Have you thought that maybe seeking some support somewhere might help like reading a book? It's if you like reading that is but there are others self help books out there too .
I hope I have been some help . Please come back if you need anything.
Hugs
@TreaureSeekers3
Everyone I've asked for feedback refused to give any. I've asked every single time mind you. I have a general idea of what I do I guess, but nothing specific enough to know what to do about it. I'm getting tired of asking. It usually just offends them, and the people I've gotten vague answers from where rude about it, so didn't answer any further. I don't like sticking around people who are rude to me. So I'm just going to stop asking I guess. Let them go :\
I'm not "punishing" myself. Going out and meeting people won't solve whatever I'm doing that's driving everyone away. Until I fix it, no one will want to be my friend. That's not me beating up myself or whatever, that's pure fact. Having every friendship crash and burn in it's infancy wears on you. It doesn't matter who you are.
I want a lot of stuff in a friend. It's ridiculous to suggest I'll find someone with them all though. The main thing is someone to work with me, instead of get angry with me and refuse to tell me why. It's going to likely take a few years to find even that.
I've had plenty of advice. It's all silly obvious stuff. Like "Be yourself" or whatnot. Being myself is the problem. :\ I doubt any book will solve any issue of mine. Let alone one I've been struggling with for years.
I stay angry! So much hatred since I was a kid .. I cant let it go! 
@discreetWalker4108 sorry to hear that too . I don't know what it feels like to have so much anger as you had ever since that long ago but your are not alone and can get help. Anger management courses are good or support group is another . Hearing other people experience same thing can maybe make you feel your anger is not gonna be here and you will take control of it.
Again I don't know your situation or childhood but it maybe an idea that you explore that more with someone. Have you tried therapy? Therapy would be really good to let your feelings out and anger. I think that might help alot.
Also there are other things you can do but don't let anger take over you. Remember anger is not the person of you. Anger is just Anger.
Hugs
No matter what I do I cant get my ex out of my head and my heart. Hes everywhere, even with no contact for 6 months hes everywhere. Memories everyday. I imagine bumping into him daily. Im angry because I found him social media and this if course just made it worse. Im angry because I dont see a way out. Im miss him so much and we cant be together and I dont want to be in this pain anymore.
I had to be a good adult and go to work, instead of be a good human and help people on 7cups! 
i am under appreciated, taken advantage of and feeling unimportant.
@ItsMeJessica88 Feeling the same way right now... But, you and I are important, and we must give ourselves that affirmation before anyone else does! I don't know you, but keep doing what you do, whether or not anyone says "thank you," because it's important to someone whether they know it or not <3
@ZeppelinsOverhead thank you for the response :) I really appreciate what you said. I never really thought of it like that, to just keep doing what I'm doing regardless of a thank you... It's soooo accurate
I'm angry today because my mom and I got in a fight and it didn't end well. She doesn't approve of how I spend my life with my boyfriend... I guess I'm also kind of angry at myself heh.
@Emmur
Hey that's ok ,say sorry to her even when it's not uouy mistake. 😇Hope you are doing well here @7 cups.