I have my exam the day after & I haven't studied much
... others say me what to do and scare me with there stories like... I am overemotional a bit....
Saw my pdoc and admitted to form of sh and how long i have been doing it, so now feel she will lose respect for me
I had a terrible day yesterday. I feel anticipate that those students will challenge me today. There's a part of me that feels like I made a promise and intend on keeping me. Some part of me though, is wondering why? If I feel like I'm being confronted and challenged often ...beginning to wonder if it's worth the compromise ?
Recently I decided to take a leap of faith.
I have to make huge decisions that will affect the rest of my life and I feel like no matter what I choose, it'll be wrong and that I'll regret it in the future
@maxie123 i feel ya brotha
Social anxiety limits me a lot
I opened up and I am hurt again, when will I learn.
@IamOHhh i feel like regardless of getting hurt we're supposed to continue opening up to people until we eventually find those that are meant to be in our lives but seriously... I think I've given up on people. I dislike being hurt and i can't stand the pain that lingers after. My advice to others is to heal and open up when you can or when you're ready but i can't seem to take advice so I'm not sure if i should tell that to others. I have extremely mixed emotions on this.
@DeathBunny I understand the pain gets to be too much. I can heal the first time and try again but time and time again my heart starts to have a never ending pain that doesn't heal. I too want to tell others not to give up but reality is I am giving up myself.the saddness is over taken my life.
@IamOHhh edit: i can't seem to take my own advice*
My fiance has decided to start going to the gym seven days a week. You're probably wondering why that bothers me. Well it's his obsession that makes me feel vulnerable. Plus the incredibly horrible fear that he will meet some fitness now and cheat on me like my ex did... Several times.
today im vunerable because im bloated so my eating disorder and controling my mind trying to tell me that i always look this chubby and fa and disgusting and im trying to tell myself ill look better in the morning but sometimes i look in the mirror and i do see myself as chubbier and i really dont like it. its hard to tell what i really am to because the scale says im bigger but i dont llook bigger all the time just occasionally and im just really confused
