All of my friends are going up north to hang out for the next week without me
It's been too long since I talked to everyone I know and fear it feeling awkward and that they all will think I've stopped liking them and won't like me anymore.
i'm trying something new today and i'm worried i won't be good at it
I feel alone in a crowd. I think people are noticing me. If I will not find a friend I ll die. By looking around for help everybody seems accomplished and composed in their company. It makes me more nervous. I am not bad at making friends, I have a lot of them nor I have dependent personality trait. But at certain places I loose my trust. Especially new places. These feeling of e makes me feel lacking something n I become more sad.
Anyone feel the same way?
Hae struggled with it?
@darksoul153 me too! I have trust issue so even though Im fine at keeping relations in a very basic level, I just cant/having difficulties to go further so most of the time I feel lonely, moreover when people seems like they share a lot together.
Its devastating and I bet no one likes feeling lonely. At time like this I usually remember those who love me genuinely. And if I can, I will stick to them for some while until my loneliness is healed.
@darksoul153 Yes I often have the same experience as you are describing.
I feel alone in a crowd.
I think people are noticing me.
If I will not find a friend I ll die.
By looking around for help everybody seems accomplished
and composed in their company. It makes me more nervous.
I am not bad at making friends,
I have a lot of them nor I have dependent personality trait
. But at certain places I loose my trust. Especially new places.
These feeling of e makes me feel lacking something n I become more sad.
Anyone feel the same way?
Hae struggled with it?
I like this guy and I am waiting for him to get back to me
Because he's making up reasons for a fight again..
My idol has suicided yesterday.He's Jonghyun from SHINee,he was only 27.
I already miss him so much.
And people around me think it's stupidly to cry for someone who died on the side part of world.
I could've help him,I want to help him.
He wanted help but didn't see it.
Now he's gone and we are all feeling miserable and empty.
That sucks.
I want him back...
@HunHansGirl I totally understand the feeling you're experiencing. It's sad that Jonghyun has left us and it is really poignant that some of the people around us do not sympathize with the depressive feeling we have. I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling down because of Jonghyun's decease 
You're not alone in this. I wish I could give you a robust hug to ease your sadness 
I'll send you a virtual hug instead. Stay strong, my friend I am with you 
my toxic "friend" in school has always told about how I'm an awkward and cringey loner who looks stupid and embarassing, even some of her friends think this way at me. I know she's telling the truth because I see it in myself when I'm at school.
shes such a good "friend" that she starts up nice conversations with me then later on uses me and tells about how I'm a sh*tty person no one in the classroom really cares about a lot, which is why my depression seems to be lowkey getting worse.
I don't want to feel the way I do.