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willingFig5196
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Can't receive any help
Depression Support / by willingFig5196
Last post
 April 1st, 2024
...See more I wrote to some hospitals and psychologists because with all honesty all I need right now is to believe that someone cares and that I can be helped, that I'm not alone. But all I was met with is rejection and coldness and treatment that made me feel an animal and it just reinforces that feeling that I do not deserve any help and that I'm just deluding myself into believing that I should get any help. I feel like I don't belong anywhere, I have no idea who to call and who to ask for any more help because I'm scared to be disappointed again, I don't know how many more disappointments I can endure. All i really wanted is to receive some compassion and gentleness but it seems like this world can't offer me none.. And the fact that I have OCD and i have to keep on checking it or else I feel absolutely distressed makes it even harder. I don't know what to do anymore :'D
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My brother disrespect our parents
Family & Caregivers / by willingFig5196
Last post
 March 11th, 2023
...See more I'm sorry for the long message but I really need to vent. I feel really hurt and I don't know what to do with my feelings. My younger brother is 18 years old and is ending school soon and he also works a part-time job. He behaves like a very spoiled little brat and disrespects our parents and blames them for everything. He locks his door and takes the keys with him whenever he leaves and doesn't allow anyone to go into his room (I understand privacy but that's a bit too much). He demands that our parents pay for everything, but then he also refuses to help them with anything. He also pretends he doesn't know them whenever he is with his friends. My parents see that and are trying to talk to him but he just doesn't want to. He sometimes talks with me, but whenever I try to talk about it, he treats it as a joke and says he doesn't see a problem. He has the mentality of a little kid and I hope he will mature one day, but I feel like my parents will have a lot of problems with him and it just breaks my heart... I really hope it's just a phase, but who knows? I don't know what else I can do. If me or my parents are harsh towards him, he treats it as an attack and just closes himself in his room or goes out to his friends. If we are trying to have a normal, serious conversation, he treats it as a joke because he '' didn't do anything wrong''... The thing is, I can say we are pretty lucky to have very chill and supportive parents and he really doesn't appreciate that at all... They always tried their best to be the best parents possible and give us all they could, even though we didn't have much money. My brother the other day called my mom greedy because she asked him if he could take her to the city because she needs to go to a bank. She even offered to pay him. He insulted her whole family after it and said that she doesn't respect his time etc. My mom and me never had problems to take him to the city whenever he needed something and didn't have license... But now we need to pay and respect his time? My mom was really hurt after it. I got really mad at him and told him to freaking grow up and start thinking about what he says, but it didn't work. He doesn't see a problem. It really hurts me and I don't know what to do anymore :')
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Anxiety Support / by willingFig5196
Last post
 January 15th, 2023
...See more I have a project group and we communicate on messenger. I might have a strong social anxiety, as I noticed.. I'm very anxious about speaking in groups or doing something that can be judged by others, but I wanted to try and overcome my fear. I prepared a draft for the project that took me a lot of time since the topic is pretty complicated. I sent it to group chat after hours of delaying it because I was damn scared. I had only two fears: I would either get criticised or I would be ignored. Well, they completely ignored me, even though we need to present the project pretty soon, and instead, they talked about other stuff that had nothing to do with the project. I'm literally shaking and I can't stop my tears. I feel like both a *** and a loser. I really want to have the project done but no one else seems to care. I also feel humiliated since my work was unnoticed and I guess it didn't matter in the end. I can't relax, I can't control myself right now and I'm just crying and crying... I really tried to fight my anxiety, but in the end it wasn't worth it. It just made it worse.. I don't know what to do with myself really. I wouldn't mind talking with someone right now :'D
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Anxious and stressed
Anxiety Support / by willingFig5196
Last post
 October 26th, 2024
...See more My friend reminded me of some painful past events about people that treated me and my boyfriend like garbage and now I can't stop thinking about this. Soon, me and him are going to my hometown and I can't get over the thought that I might meet those people again.. The things is that the chances of meeting them are low but at the same time I can't stop making the "what if" scenarios in my head 🥲 I'm really anxious about this
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My family doesn't support me
Anxiety Support / by willingFig5196
Last post
 February 27th, 2022
...See more I was a very smart child and my parents, family and friends were expecting me to go to university and get some successful job.. I ended up leaving my country right after high school because I fell in love and I started working here, in Portugal. I kind of started dreaming of a different life than everyone expected me to have. I want to start a family and live in Portugal. I like my job and I don't feel like I need more.. but the pressure from my family and friends make me feel like I failed in life and I'm worthless. They constantly remind me that I have made a mistake and I shouldn't have moved here even tho I'm really happy where I am. I feel constantly judged and that I have failed in life. I don't know what to do with my feelings. I'm obviously not confident at all and It's really hard for me to believe in myself when I get no support from anyone.
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Online friend
Relationship Stress / by willingFig5196
Last post
 November 25th, 2021
...See more Me and my boyfriend have a few friends we play with (online friends) and one of them started behaving really weirdly and cold towards my boyfriend after they had an argument and after (the friend) said that everything is okay between them and that they can talk anytime. My boyfriend right after declared that they can talk and play the next day and the guy just ignored him, sent things to our group chat and refuses to talk personally to him. It could be because he has some worse day or something but I'm worried because It's affecting my boyfriend and making him sad. And when he's sad I'm also sad.. I try to remind him and myself that the guy is not a real friend but just a gaming buddy and he can do whatever he wants. However, after talking everyday for few months It's hard to get used to the new situation. After trying to make our friendship works.. it feels like it's just one-sided and It's a hard pill to swallow.
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Job stress
Anxiety Support / by willingFig5196
Last post
 November 24th, 2021
...See more I started my first job a few days ago and I need to deal with many angry and disrespectful customers. It makes me really anxious and hard to relax at night. I'm overthinking everything and I'm scared to meet the people again. I'm aware that such people can happen in every job but It doesn't change the fact that I can't really deal with the emotions 😭
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Can't move on from my past
Anxiety Support / by willingFig5196
Last post
 November 20th, 2021
...See more All my old friends left me, ghosted me (or we ghosted each other), I'm alone in a different city and they all are really far away from me. I thought that changing my environment will help me feel better since I left all my problems behind me, all my enemies, all my old friends, and my old life! Well, now I'm living in a different place but my mind is constantly focused on the past, or to be more correct, on how the people from my past are living right now. I imagine them talking about me and bad-mouthing me because that's what they were always doing to everyone. I imagine them living a great life and making fun of me like they were sometimes doing in the past as well. Making fun of my skills and how I looked like. No matter what I do, the thoughts don't leave me and I feel stuck...
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