I feel like a failure (TW: intense emotions, depression)
As some of you know, I am trying to start a business. But I struggle a lot with this. It all has to come from me: the content, the promotion, the website, everything. Some days I can get through loads of work with no problem (yay hyperfocus), but other days I just feel like a lump on a log. I simultaneously have two parts of my mind saying "Just go do it!" and "What are we supposed to do?"
In a traditional job, of course, you know what needs to get done. If there's nothing that needs doing, then at least you're still getting paid! I don't have that luxury anymore. And what's worse is that I need that income to go see my children (not to mention to buy food, wash clothes, etc.)! So that part of my brain saying "Just do it!" also puts an extra urgency into it because the sooner I earn money from this, the sooner I can do the things I want and need to do.
I woke up hyper-sensitive this morning (I think this is the first time I've had that awareness), so I know that's playing into it too. I just feel so dead inside. I'm tired and sad and all sorts of other emotions, but all that just overwhelms and I shut down. Like I am right now.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for from writing this post. Maybe just some encouragement, or positive words? I just don't know how I'm supposed to move on from this...
@HappySpecter
I hear you are overwhelmed. There’s big projects but also huge accomplishments. I understand feeling the pressure to get things done and it is Alot to take in. Then your mind and body just want rest and sleep.
Have you tried writing things down? There’s a great Eisenhower matrix checklist you could look up. It breaks tasks down by importance.
A nice little time out to regroup could be helpful
You sound extremely determined and that makes me know you can do it ❤️ Pace yourself, you are doing great!
@peachThinker662 I've heard about this, but never tried it. Thanks for the idea! I'll check it out!
Its a lot to deal with. A new territory for you plus one your survival is based on. It would be nerve wracking for anyone in your place.
A little planning is good. But its true we cant ever plan it all out. We just have to go do it.. like your inner voice is saying....
You definitely can get this done though. Dont be hard on yourself if there are bumps on the road. You can sail through with perseverance. You will learn and grow and it will be a valuable life altering pursuit.
Best wishes . We are here to hear more from you 💛✨️
@HappySpecter
@Creamyyy TYSM 💖
I am not the best one to give advice since I never had a business but I know when people start a new endeavor, it feels overwhelming and thoughts like “This is too much, can I really do this, what should I do first”, enter the brain. That is totally normal. It might be helpful to relax, take breaths and allow your body and mind to calm down. Then when your mind is clear, create a plan for what needs to be done and do one step at a time with the most important task done first and the rest in order of importance. Take one small step at a time and endorse yourself for every little accomplishment. Take breaks to relax your mind and body. If you do that I am sure you will have success. Dies that make sense?
@azureAcres1605 That makes sense, and it's great advice! I'll try this out, thank you!
You are welcome.❤️
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@Cathy88 Hi! How are you dear?
