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I realized today that I am beginning to cycle into the usual winter depression. I am anxious about it and hope that I can keep myself functioning daily, doing my therapy and socializing some. I tend to isolate and shut out the entire world through the winter.
On a positive note, I have learned some good self care practices to try and I plan to use this site. I really think it will be helpful am thankful to have found 7 cups.
@TeenyTinyAppy I'm feeling the Fall slide into Winter too. Desperately trying to keep myself happy and healthy, but all I want to do is sleep.
I 100% hear you. The next few months will be hard.
Maybe we can do this???
@ladylazarus1971
The past has taught me one thing that I will be using this year to try. I have someone I have to be accountable to everyday to make sure I am doing the little things like hygeine, eating, exercise, and cleaning. If I can just do those everyday then I am doing much better than last year.
I may not be able to do it as well as I want, but if I can just do better, that is an improvement. If you have not so good days, remember "The best you can do today is always good enough." That quote helps me remember to not be too hard on myself. It is a hard medical condition and at the end of the day if we just do the best we can...well then that's that, and tomorrow will be a chance to try to fight through it again.
@TeenyTinyAppy <3
This is some great advice. Thank you. It makes perfect sense.
I honestly feel scared right now, because I feel as if depression has been spreading to my friends and people I care about, while it's been kinda sneaking up on me if it makes sense by screwing up my sleep patterns for the last couple of days
Hello everyone, I am Tiffany I was recently diagnosed with manic bipolar depression anxiety and PTSD. I had an extremely bad break about two months back and has since caused a huge rift in my marriage many harsh words were said because I didn't know how to understand the feelings I was having, I didn't know how to feel my feelings and I didn't know where or how to direct my feelings to the places, things or people that had caused them. We ended up separting for a total of 9 weeks in that time period I attempted suicide and he ended up having relations with another woman. We have been back together for about a month that's now but I have been having a hard time dealing with my feelings about not being good enough, feeling second best and comparing myself to this other woman constantly.
How do I feel today? The truth is I feel like everything came against me today. I couldn't sleep at all last night and I finally made to sleep at about 8:30 this morning. The apartments right behind mine began using this big grinder and jackhammer around 9! I made it back to sleep and woke up at about 3...depression was so strong I felt like I was moving through water. My tooth was hurting when I woke up so I rescheduled my evening social so I could stay home and take care of it so maybe it won't abcess. I developed a headache and a low grade fever and assumed it was the tooth getting worse. About an hour later I took off sneezing and coughing and I can tell by my congestion that I now have a cold on top of it all!
I have been able to function for basic needs but that is it for today. I am about to have some soup, curl up and watch Charmed, and hopefully tomorrow will be a little better.
@TeenyTinyAppy and @Helplessoverthinker
If you'd like daily and consistent interaction with the members of the Bipolar community, I'd highly recommend checking out the Daily Check-In threads. @asthebeesays posts a new thread every other day in the Subcommunity, and it's a great way to stay in constant contact with other people that are dealing with similar issues to yours.
We'd love to have you contribute! We want to get to know you so we can support you!
Here's the latest one...
https://www.7cups.com/forum/BipolarDisordersSupportCommunity_63/DailyCheckInThreads_1279/BipolarDisorderDailyCheckInThreadOct1617th_91987/
Climb aboard and we'll see you there.
@ladylazarus1971
Thank you so much for the information. :) I really appreciate it.
I was already in a depressive episode that was being amplified by a long term relationship ending a month ago when I woke up today, but after I decided to ask a friend out that I was really into and was rejected I've been in a bummed out mood all day. I almost cried in public, and I do not cry. I'm not suicidal or wanting to hurt myself. I just feel like both situations reaffirm that I am a disappointment to the people I care about, and that no matter how hard I try people I love won't be able to look past my faults to see the good. I'm resigned to that thought rather than simply treating it as a passing idea. I don't want to be, but that's the life lesson I've been getting pounded into my skull repeatedly throughout my life. No one has publicly wanted to date me for six years. No one's ever said it, but I feel like it's because they're ashamed of me. I'd touch more on how my mania affects my relationships, but I'm a lot more focused on what I'm having to deal with right now.
@impartialVillage75243 You sound pretty down. I'm really sorry you're feeling rejected and unwanted. That's a terrible place to be in. When we feel so down, it's hard to remember times that it wasn't so. And hard to remember that those times are not 100% of your experience. It's so easy just to tell someone to hang in there and things will get better. But sometimes it takes so much time and effort to pull yourself through. And it's never easy.
That being said, just try to remind yourself of the good times you've had. It might make you feel a little better, even if just to give yourself a break from your current funk just for a few minutes. <3
Today I feel anxious. I'm hosting a small social gathering at my place. This is the first time in probably more than a decade that I've tried to do something this ambitious. I am worried about getting everything finished in preparation for it, and worried that no one will show up. Just a lot of nervous energy floating around in my body.
Wish I could have invited the members of this community! That would make for a great party!
