You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
Space to rant?
This tiredness, fatigue is incapacitating. I'm tired of it! (See the irony?) I'm tired of my mind being influenced by fatigue, coming up with worries and overly cautious approaches because I may not be up to handle what life may throw at me. Ok, I may need to rest a bit more than average lately, but that doesn't make me an invalid. I'll just have to integrate rest constructively in my life and stop being a victim.
Wow, it feels good to rant.
Thank you 😊
Feeling a sudden wave of sadness. At home by myself eating leftovers for dinner. Brother went out since this afternoon, meeting my uncle for lunch then accepting the offer to go to his place for dinner. Parents had lunch with me and were off with their plans with friends too. Probably won't be home until 10pm. I usually feel okay being home alone and eating my own food. But tonight, a sudden wave of sadness had taken over me, and I've lost the appetite to eat. I feel like I'm so close to crying and I just want to hide under my covers. I think I'll go to bed earlier tonight. Better to be in my room if I do start tearing up for no reason~
I did stupid things at work and I made an enemy because I am not willing to let her push me around anymore. The result is that because she is trying to cause me problems and because I stupidly gave her something to complain about to me, I am panicking. I feel like I could be about to lose my job. I'm probably not because everyone does what I did. Seriously and without exaggeration. Even the managers do it. But that is no excuse for me doing it. I have to stand on my own and face whatever comes from my actions. I feel like an ass, but also strong. Now I have to show the inner strength that I keep trying to build within myself. Pray for me if you're into that. Otherwise please send me positive vibes.
Hey, lord, hi. I'm at the worry zone. My heart just thinks tomorrow...seeing the students...and talking over them is making me sad. It will create a unsafe studying environment. So, I need some reassurance. That I can hold myself and carry myself calmly while my students are sitting in front of me. Dear lord. I have finished making my agenda and lesson plan for Monday. Please grant me calmness in this apprehensive state. I got this. Remind me I do. Ty. I'm going to sleep now. Rest will help me too.
Hey all I’m feel like I haven’t achieved much at all . I can’t drive and I’m just finishing college at 24
@Curlyheart
Hi, I finished college at age 26. I found others studying with me older and younger. You are where you need to be. The next is to answer what have you done so far? Like you came to all your classes, you did projects, you worked with others and got here. So keep encouraging yourself and affirm yourself. Then, seek the next thing or mentor/model to help you decide what to do next!
TEAAAASSSHHHHHHHH post.
:c :c :c 😞
I sent my sister a damn email asking an important question and she didn't respond. This is typical of her. She ignores me. She expects me to always be nice but she doesn't think she has to be nice. WTF? I hate that!
Does anybody else lie in bed every night, looking up through pitch blackness at the invisible ceiling and ask yourself and God (but mostly God, because if you could answer yourself, there'd be no point asking the questions):
"WHY?! Just...Why? Why am I here?!"
Also... "What am I doing/supposed to do with my life? Day in, day out. The same masks, the same motions, the same temporary brightness/hope, followed quickly by the same inevitable disappointment. What's my purpose here?!"
Also... "Why did I ruin all the best parts of my life? Why did I hurt the best person in my life? What is wrong with me??!!"
"WHY?! Just...Why? Why am I here?!"
Does anybody else have these nightly rants internally, then externally--out loud into the nothingness? Do you lie in bed waiting--frozen in silence for a response that never comes?
Or is it just me?
@HeartFelt929 i have definitley done this. try not to think to hard about it as it can cause feelings of hopelessness. try to just take everything one day at a time. set goals as simple as 'make it to the weekend' or 'catch up with a friend'. we get to choose why we are here, maybe your here to help peopleor maybe your here to just live a good life.
stay strong :)
I'm constantly getting ghosted by a "friend" who I thought would always be there for me. It's so hard and discouraging because she was someone I looked to so much especially when I struggle and I've always been there for her and now it feels like our friendship is something of the past and she no longer cares or even bothers to reply to my messages.
@intellectualmaya8120 I'm struggling with this too. Its so exhausting having people you care about so that. I'm sorry you are going through this :/ I wouldn't wish that kind of pain on anyone.
i’m having weeks of pure joy and then weeks of feeling worthless and hopeless, i don’t want to be here anymore, i don’t see a point. i’ll die eventually, it’s a lot of effort to live a life, i don’t even want.
the only thing i want is to read and love someone, if i had that i would be content.
@Tiger2635 I'm sorry you are going through that. As someone struggling with depression, I can somewhat relate. No one deserves this pain. I want to just read and find someone to love too. But maybe think of these things that make you happy and are looking forward to doing. You know what, even if it's something that keeps you occupied or eases your mind, focus on that. I know you are in a bad place, and I hope you know that you aren't alone.
i’ve almost finished a crochet project and i’m reading a new book, hopefully it carries on taking my mind off of things, but my school work is very stressful at the moment so it’s hard to do the things i like while doing my work as well, but i don’t really have the motivation to do it at the moment but i know if i don’t do it, i will fail. thank you for your reply, it helps.
my whole life i feel like i have been begging for help and having people just turn their backs. I have fought my way through life, fighting to exist, to live, to survive. I tried to open up to my best friend about what im going through - and i know she is never there for me emotionally, and of course, it turns out she made it all about her and didnt say one dang thing about me.
I have been searching for a therapist for so dang long! over and over and i get the same response every time: they are booked, too many clients, ect. and i get that a lot of ppl need help right now but i mean what the heck - why can i never find help? why do i have to always suffer alone? and im not trying to get help for something that is my fault or anything, im just trying to get help for my dang trauma. im so tired of fighting and getting nothing and being alone.
