My Experiences of Loneliness

Thank you for sharing! I too have been struggling with loneliness and so I've been trying to reach out to my siblings and friends more often as well. They help to get moving whenever depression weighs me down to the bed.

You are really amazing for sharing this, I am still struggling to admit out loud to my family that I am lonely and that this loneliness is eating at me every day, I had a bad school experience and since then I lost all my friends and didn't manage to make new ones, is scary, and I can relate to this. When I see that I am getting older and still couldn't change any of this is starting to creep on me this awful feeling, yeah sometimes these things need time and your patience and courage to find the right people, but is not easy, so.. yeah, I wish you all the best and that's my rambling haha🤗

@kdsyahirah

Hi Sya . Thanks for sharing your story . I personally relate with many of the stuff you wrote . I too am an introvert and have difficulty in mixing with people . Right now , I have absolutely no friends in my real life . I feel lonely all the time and wish if I had just one friend to share my stuff with . Anyways , it is what it is .

Once again thanks for sharing your views . Take care .

Thank you so much for sharing your experience it makes me feel like I'm not alone. I've been struggling with loneliness for my whole life but recently it got really bad since I got married. All my friends left me and my sister in law has created a rift in my family separating me from them. I've been trying to find peace with myself and recently have been back receiving help on here and put on anti depressants. I know things will get better with time.

Hey thank you so much for sharing :) you’re not alone and we got ur back XD

After reading your post, I felt a little relief! Thanks for sharing. It's good to know that we are not alone in all this

I’ve been really lonely lately and I relate to your story. I’ve been looking on tinder to try and find someone but I’m beginning to think I’m looking in the wrong place and I am so tired of this shit I don’t know what to do

Hello Sya! Your story sounds so very familiar. I think I know exactly how you feel. I've struggled a lot as a child too, and I don't have many happy memories of it either. I only have an older brother, we're four years apart, but sometimes, I still feel there's a gap between us. I swear, when I was younger, he would purposely make me cry. We immigrated to Canada when I was 5, so both my parents had to work to raise us. I didn't see much of my parents except during breakfast, dinner and weekends. I've had to struggle with traumas by myself and I couldn't share it with my family. As a Chinese family, my parents did not understand what Depression was, so when I was first diagnosed in Grade 5, my family doctor couldn't give me any prescriptions because he said I was too young. I waited until high school before I had medication to help me. By then, I've experienced even more trauma that I kept all to myself. To this day, in my mid-30s now, I still keep my feelings to myself and not share with my family. I think the main reason rooted back to when I was in Grade 9. A psychologist had suggested I tell my family about the struggles and my feelings once. During that time, my mum was fighting off the H. Pylori bacteria and I remember what my brother once told me. We were on our way to meet up with my parents for lunch on a weekend, my brother driving, stopped at the light, he told me, "Mum is like that because of being worried about you." I remember this as if it happened yesterday, remembering the place and time, the expression on his face, his tone.. Ever since then, I haven't said to word to my family about how I feel and what I felt depressed about. Nowadays, sometimes, my mum comes to me and asks, as she can sense that something is bothering me. But, I still won't reveal much and I usually just stay in my computer room with headphones on, listening to music. Or if I don't need to work, I'd just be in bed all day instead. Since I turned 27, the feelings of loneliness gets worse by the year. All my life so far, I've only dated once, and that was more than 12 years ago. The relationship lasted a year, I met him during my first year of university, away from home. When my depression hit me again, I couldn't handle to continue with university for the second year, so I went home. He was 3 years older, and stayed to finish his degree. With the long distance, only chatting on phone, we eventually grew apart. I met up with him when he went home during winter break, and that was it. He had already met someone else at the University, he got married to a Japanese girl the next year, and they've moved back to Japan after he graduated; currently have 2 sons. I tried to keep a friendship with him after our breakup, but his then girlfriend, didn't like it. So, I've stopped talking to him. After this relationship, that was it. That is why, as I'm getting older now, I feel more and more lonely. I just know that I do wish to have a partner/husband sometime in my life. Seeing how things are going now, I'm only afraid that there's no hope for that to ever happen in my life in the future.

Sya, there's one thing with your situation that looks better than mine. At least you have a few close friends. I have absolutely no friends at all. I'm the true loner~

@kdsyahirah

I have experienced loneliness mostly because of my social anxiety. Holding conversation is difficult for me and I am shy, quiet, socially awkward so social situations is just scary for me. I feel more lonely among people than by myself. I always feel like running away from it. When I feel lonely I automatically blame myself for not being an outgoing and confident person. Like it's my fault that I don't have friends. That's a self sabotaging way of thinking, so I'm trying to change that.

I appreciate this as I am suffering with this alot.