Eating Disorder Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel like I'm not thinking enough to be taken seriously. I should have started therapy when I lost a lot more weight. *sighs* my therapist seemed to think I just need to have more compassion and stop dieting. Maybe I don't have a problem...maybe this is all in my head.
@Redheadbaker7206 not thin enough*
@Redheadbaker7206
Nevertoo late friend, take care :)
why im so fat i want to be dead
@clavelermone - Sounds like things are feeling pretty rough right now - if it would help, you are more than welcome to message me and we can talk about it. Take care, lovely
im eating cinna rolls!!!!!!!!!!! :D
I ALSO ATE CAKE AND A SLICE OF PIZZA yesterday.
then boss started yelling after she told me 2...screaming at me for eating on the clock. :(
@alexaners7734 - I'm really sorry to hear that your boss was yelling at you for it, but I am SUPER PROUD of you for eating those things! I know that's been a struggle, and it shows an enormous amount of progress and indicates your strength and determination. Good for you! :)
I feel so ashamed. Both for how I'm handling eating, and for how I'm handling my life in general.
@singercrystalspirit
I'm sorry you feel ashamed. Please know that many people struggle with this challenge. If someone else has overcomed the situation you can too. Perhaps reviewing the situation and taken new steps can help along the way. :)?
@lovingLynx89 :)
@singercrystalspirit I'm sorry you're facing this situation but you're not on your own and we're here for you. Hope you can overcome the feeling someday. Keep us updated :D
I pressured my therapist today....and I found out that she has no experience in treating alexithymia.. or eating issues in general. I feel so hopeless and alone. She stated that she has never seem such an extreme emotional disconnect. It's hard to take in...because I really thought she could help me. I'm so sad right now. I want to cry...so bad...no tears are coming. I just feel like a wave of sadness is all around me and I'm suffocating from the weight of it all. I want to just give in and not worry about life anymore. I'm sick of not feeling ...and feeling so emotionally numb... it's like someone has put an ice cube on my emotions.
@Redheadbaker7206
I'm so sorry to hear about your therapist, especially since you thought they could really help you! I know it's hard having to find a new one, but it's possible, and you may just find an amazing one! When I was first starting therapy my friend told me "finding a therapist is finding a pair of jeans. Sure, there are a ton in your size, but there's only one pair that are absolutely perfect for you." So don't give up, you'll find someone who is able to help you to the greatest extent!
I feel scared, and empty and sad, and a little longing and yearning. Definitely empty, in a sort of way that is... it's not like I'm "missing" anything, it's just like there is this emptiness that I don't know if anything could or would ever fill. I do not even know if I would want it to. Although it feels uncomfortable. It feels kind of like that's just the way life is. I want to eat but I know that won't solve it, so I'm going to work on distracting myself with other activities. Next, I'm going to go on a run outside.
Basically I don't want to eat today. There's too much other more fun things to do. (sigh) Why? I even made breakfast - an hour later I've only eaten 1/2 of it. I don't know who to tell this to, so I guess first I'm telling you guys. ................ Signed, Sad Platy
Feeling anxiety for my situation, feeling extremely large and shortness of breath at times. Not sure if it is due to being so overweight or from anxiety? The winter gives me a lot of anxiety since I ride my bicycle for transportation since I don't own a car. I miss sunny Southrn California, where I live now feels so foreign and strange. I feel so alone right now. I wish I had a nutritionist to help work with me and educate me on the healthiest way to live. I have not even gotten out of bed today I feel so low.
@bgdave - First of all, big *HUG* to you - it sounds like you're struggling a lot right now with the anxiety of winter coming, feeling alone, and trying to figure out health stuff without the resources you need. None of that is easy, but I am glad you reached out because I think that getting some extra support can make all of it feel more manageable.
Given that your bike is your main form of transport, what are your options for the winter? Is there public transport in your area? Or an ability to carpool with others? Or are things close enough to walk if it's too icy for biking?
With regards to wanting a nutritionist to help you figure things out, is that something that's possible for you to find? If not, what resources might help instead? It's hard to filter through online to find things that are medically accurate vs. a bunch of people's opinions, but if you thought first about what a trusted resource might be, could you look online? Would having an accountability partner help?
If you need some extra support or encouragement, feel free to message me anytime. Take care
@Anomalia
Thanks for taking the time to reach out to me I really appreciate you. I will keep striving to find my way and not give up. I am considering the options that will assist me with my issues. I will reach out to you if need be, I thank you for the offer!
I feel like shit. I went to a restaurant with my friends and I didn't want them to suspect anything so I ordered food. I took two bites out of my food and then threw the rest away so they wouldn't notice.
I came home and immediately took laxatives. I usually purge but I feel like my teeth are messing up and so now I've resorted to taking laxatives to give my teeth a break.
I just don't know what to do anymore.
@Mocs123 - Hi lovely, I'm proud of you for posting here. It sounds like things are feeling really out of control and you want something to change, but you aren't sure how. I know it can be really scary to eat and let that food stay with you, but it also sounds like right now, things are pretty bad. Do you think it's time to get help with this?
I feel awful. I eat under [edited by Anomalia to remove calorie specifics / triggers] calories per day, and excerise to burn approx. [edited]calories per day. I exercise excessively and I don't eat enough (according to my girlfriend), but I feel like I have to. I want to lose [edited] lbs by January, but I know this isn't the right way to go. But I have to, don't I? I feel so fat, I feel so awful.
@MercurytheLoner hiya , feel free to chat me! If need. Be
@MercurytheLoner - You said you recognize that this isn't the way to go, but you don't feel like you have other options. Let me ask a couple questions instead.
What will be different in your life if you do lose that weight?
What would be better if you didn't have to focus on your eating and exercising so much?
If you were talking to a friend who said these things, what would you say to them?
If you ever need some extra support, don't hesitate to reach out.
