Be Honest 💕
If you had to be honest in this exact moment, no mask, no filter, what word or sentence would describe how you feel?
@Amanda84
Tired, headachy, irritated, generally listless, basically fed up with life.
@slowdecline48
🥺
This combination truly sounds awful.
Sending you my best, truly 💚
@Amanda84
grieving and angry due to the 2 deaths in family and family that not told us important things after the 2 deaths
@stormieandpaws
That's so much to process 💚
@Amanda84
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
@Amanda84
Hey, hi Amanda 🤗 Hru? hope u doing great as always, my heart. 💝
Thank you for checking in on me. ❤️
To be honest, I don’t know what to say. Everything feels heavy right now. I’m alone here, and I feel like I have no one in real life who truly cares. I’m struggling so much, and no one even knows, 😂 kind of ironic, haha. I’m tired of letting it all out. I don’t think I’ll be around on Cups for long. Nothing seems to be helping anymore. It feels like it’s already over, and I’m stuck in a dilemma.
I’m sorry if this is so much or uncomfortable. I just needed to let it out, please don’t mind me 😅🤧
And again, thank you for checking in on me. It really means a lot, truly 💗
Hugs 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Please don't apologise.
I'm glad you can tell me how you are honestly feeling.
With no gloss.
I'm sorry it's so overwhelming.
And it feels hopeless.
And yes, things can be so difficult and they don't change but the one thing I'm certain of, is , we need to hold onto hope, things can pass and we can feel better.
I would be truly sorry if you left cups 💚
You've honesty brought sunshine, laughter, humour, beautifully special insights into my day, and it shows how beautiful your heart is, that despite going through all that you are, you turn up here for other people. I'm sorry that whatever is going on in your life, is so heavy, that you cannot see the special human you are 💚
@Amanda84
Thank you Amanda, for those beautiful words 🌹. Yk... I'm stubborn n who's deep drowning into darkness. no matter what i can't find the peace. my pain already is too deep, so... i often fail to take Ppl's consoling word's within me. But the way you support me, i alway's take it to my heart 💞. you're words have a strength to bring rest to heart. ❤️
I'm drowning till i hear this from u <3, Thank you Amanda. I hope ever in my life i find true peace 😊.
You're doing awesome as always 😊, i love youu 💐.
Hugs 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
not really know you but can relate to things you said our life been full od abuse the darknes can be very heavy like you said we found to heal one seems to have to face the things both ones that have happened and ones happening now we believe in you as ones kind heart and deep honest can be a great gift in every season of ones life we from reading what you posted can se your in what we call the deep pit but letting others walk beside you and just be with you can bring a peace no one has to walk the healing journey alone
we are what some call bullhead and that to can be a gift due to one keeps trying and helping others as one heal
really do hope you stay on 7 cups too
@stormieandpaws 💐
Hey hi Paw,
Those are the most beautiful words I’ve heard today ❤️ Thank you so much for ur kindness and support 😊
I really do agree with what u said. But I still don’t know what holds me back from opening up or letting people see how deep things go for me. I guess I’m more afraid of judgment than anything else.
I’ve been trying to heal for a long time, but nothing really seems to work. Somewhere along the way, I found cups, n I felt personally connected to it. At the same time, I’m scared it might slowly turn into a daily habit and become my main emotional support. I think I’m just afraid of becoming dependent on it. ( but i also have no more kinda support tho )
I’ve heard harsh words n gone through a lot of cruelty from people and situations. Maybe that’s what keeps me distant from others. There’s this fear inside me that I’ve never been able to fully understand or explain.
But I hear you. I truly do. I’m holding on to your words and giving myself time to process the chaos inside me. 💝
Thank you for being so kind and supportive 😊
Hugs 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
wow you remind us of us deep fear of judgment and then there be trust issue but both hard to overcome we really started healing long time ago but the same teo things held us back truth id they still do at times trust is hard we learned to trust little at a time if the person does good with that little amount of trust we will trust them a little more and so on this helps with fear of judgment a lot
we at times have push others away out of fear they will rejected us too we been rejected a lot in our life so we got into the bad habit of rejecting others before they they could rejected us but we doing a lot better with that one
want to tell you that what your dealing with is common and normal for ones who been abused so take it slow 7 cups is a great place to do that as it not face to face others not know were you be unless you tell them we like that about 7 cups as we have a lot of fear of people finding us and hurting us
remember there no time limit of healing it not a race it taking tiny steps at a time learning new coping skills and relationship skill many like us were taught wrong when child so have to learn healthy way to live and think
we know it hard to balance out being on 7 cups but even if it daily can be like not all day but just taking time each day as this can help a lot with healing allowing others to be here for you and giving support to others so we say it ok to come daily
for us we come on most days but take time away other days for self care so we balance it out with our life offline
hope you stay around 7 cups too
we here for you to walk beside you in healing
this mostly our only support we to have no one who really supports us offline
one tiny step at a time you already made one by just posting here
@stormieandpaws 💗
Hi paw ✨
First of al... I'm really grateful for u being supportive rn n explaining things in such a best way possible. I love it n it made me feel grounded for real. Thank u <3
I'm sry to hear that u have been through a similar phase, where ik how deep n hurting it can be.
n yeah... I'm living in an environment ever since I was a kid till now, where ur feelings never matter, where u see nothing more than cruelty. Where u get blamed for every step u move, even tiny things like passing water or doing home chores... u hear them keep yelling at u without sparing a min :) Time to time, it grew as a fear. I carry fear in every single step I take ahead, regardless of how small the thing is.
Exactly paw..!! There was a time I craved for trust, love, companions, a safe place where I can hide behind when things get overwhelmed. A place where I can feel safe n someone who supports me regardless of what I am.
But rn I'm pushing everyone one step away... I leave them or they do themselves. Cus I can't assure myself with them. When I get to be with them, I get this feeling of when they'll leave me or when I will leave them.
The loneliness is not just being alone for me but it's deep... the depth!! Since my childhood or as far as I remember my life... I have never been with someone called a friend, the ppl who support. Especially my parents! No matter what, till now... I can't endure their abusive words n the stuffs they do to me. The judgment n comparison keep me soulless.
Yeah, me too...!! I've no other supportive place than Cups (I've no one in my offline life). Only Cups anchoring me n I spend most of my time here (almost all the time). I hear u.. I completely get it rn... thank u for those words. I will try to let myself out in the coming days... I'll let myself heal better. I can relate to most of what u mentioned, n now I see some light to move further :) Thank u for cherishing me 💗
Sending lots of love n blessings ur way 💞 hugs 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
your very welcome without the online support we had over the years truth is we not be here offline community mental health really not know how to deal with ones that had trauma all their life that only place here that take medicaid for us we got to know a mental health worker their then they leave we get a new one after some time we just stopped trying to even trust them as we know they just up and leave like all the others we do have one online person we known for over 20 years but even with her seem we see things differently
our parents did not talk to us ever it was yelling and then the physical punishment sounds like you can relate to all that too we have found peer to peer support way better then from mental health workers as many times other peers can relate to what we been through some what so it like they get it not like ones who never been deeply abused
so yes here to support you as much as we can yes we spend a lot of time here on chat mostly the 24/7 support room it like other here seem to get it and care you do matter even if others in your life said or acted like you did not matter you matter deserve to be heard and to find joy and happiness too
we wish that no one was ever abused that parents cared and showed love to us all but truth is many times that not the case at all growing up we never heard i love you from parents only kinda hug was a punishment type made us hate hugs even fear them we better now with that but took years to allow anyone to hug us even online
so yes we relate to all this but no one can ever truly understand another deep pain we can relate but not 100% understand as each person feel different or as we was for years emotionally numb it kelp us safe around the abusers
so yes hard to open up trust others but it little at a time then added to that you not have to do it all at one time as healing hard work
you can overcome the fears and live a better life one tiny step at a time and yes you matter deserve support and compassion too
Obliterated. My anxiety is so bad its affecting my blood pressure. Im always tired.
@nicmidnight
I'm so sorry to hear that 💚
Nick midnight oh no! I feel you. I don't know what it is, but I think it's just stress that is affecting my physical health. I don't know. I'm not a doctor, luckily I have help. No mask, no filter. Gosh I don't even know where to start...
@reservedOwl321
@Amanda84 tbh don't know how i fell I feel too much or nothing at all .. I want to feel.normally... I don't even know what is happening me with anymore i am just too confused.. I am just too tired of everything of life .. of meee(not in crisis) .. everything is just too heavy.... I am just lost ... Too lost .. it feels like I am losing my mind... mee... everything... And now even letting out doesn't help much... But still I want tooo say everything out loud.. idk I am just done... Tired... And i m just alone... No one really wants to listen.. no one really cares... They just say but in reality no one cares
@cutegrapes
I care 🩵
And I'm sorry you are feeling this way!
It can be extremely confusing and so overwhelming.
And hard to actually explain to otters.
It's important to be gentle as you navigate these difficult feelings 🩵
@Amanda84
Thank you so much 🥺🫂
@Amanda84
Tonight I feel wrecked after a long week 😔🧡
@Amanda84 I'm so sorry you're feeling this way amanda 🙁 have some rest ❤️
Gudnite 🐾💝❤️
@fossilfellow
Thank you, I'm energised, good rest now. Thank you so much for checking in on me my friend. I hope you are good 😊 💛
@Amanda84 I'm here for you ❤️🤗
@fossilfellow
@Amanda84 💝💝
@Amanda84
