Disgusted
I've been going about and dealing with my depression wrongly all these years. I was afraid to face them, so I got into alcohol, porn,hooking up with women, getting into fights. And now when I go through a depression episode, my mind automatically turns those things for comfort. I feel so disgusted with myself!!
We use whatever tools or methods are available to us when we're struggling. The difference is that now you know those things are not helping you as they should be.
You're human, and you're not disgusting for that.
@Scarf427 This time round I feel I'm handling myself a little differently. I'm processing my emotions rather than ignoring them!!
I'm so glad to hear that. Congratulations and good luck to you. 🎉🎉
@eyeofthetigerrr I'm so sorry you're going through so much. Please know that you're not alone in this, and you truly matter 💝 I wish you find the support here 🍀 and things start to feel a little lighter 🤍 Sending lots of love to you ❤️❤️
@fossilfellow Thank you!!
You have good self awareness. Start there. Don’t put yourself down. Just by wanting to make adjustments shows self love. You care enough about yourself to want to make these charges in areas of concern.
Loneliness and anger can lead to these outlets and just wanting to escape reality and the f word . “Feelings”
Look deep inside yourself and recognize things you might have enjoyed when you were younger? Try to slowly incorporate those hobbies back.
And most of all Be gentle with yourself . Healing is a process ❤️
Its normal to have a tendency to turn to unhealthy things you formerly used for coping with depression. Accept your flaws and work on them with gentle compassion. You can turn this around. ❤️
@eyeofthetigerrr
Why? Sounds like you're living the life lol
It's sad to know what you have been going through .. I can understand how difficult it must have been for you .It's okay ..dont feel bad about yourself because you were only trying to get better .. we all fail....we all make mistakes and that's what makes us human..Life is about learning from our mistakes and you realizing the methods you choosed were wrong is enough for you to give yourself another chance so you rebuild yourself all over again and Please love yourself because no one will do that more than yourself 🤗Sending you lots of love and good wishes 😊 Keep fighting💪
You shouldn't be disgusted
@limegreenSugar9416 I've been trying really hard not to. I've decided that from today I'm going to put in everything I got to feel better!!
Wish I could do all those things.
After some deep thought I've realized that the decisions that I made in the past which I thought was bad was not that bad after all. No matter how I went about it, I still would be feeling this way today.
I still feel *** about it though. It will take whole lotta time before I can accept it. But with the right approach I know I surely can. And I will!!
You are courageous ... you chose daring pathways but found wisdom on the way... feeling disgusted with yourself is relatable... ive felt the p r i c k of the conscience... it bites so deep.... you need to show yourself acceptance and compassion... those can be your new buddies and trust me they will give you authentic healing.
@eyeofthetigerrr
