Farewell
Hi everyone who would read this post. I know this might be sudden to you all, but maybe some of you already had the intuition.
I am leaving 7cups, you may no longer see me after 30th March or the first week of April. Its still not decided if I am leaving forever or not, but most probably, in every possibilities, I will leave.
There are reasons, I am not sure how to explain them all here. 7cups has been good to me, from 2021 and mostly 2022 even though I was not here for almost two years in between, but not enough to save me. Save me from myself, and I am also to blame for that either way.
I hurt people, even though I didnt mean to, and I sorry about that, and I dont expect forgiveness at all. Forgiveness is for people who can change. I don't know if I have ever changed for the better since I have been conscious.
This post will in most certainty, most probably, will become my last post here. I will not be able to tag all of the people I would want to, many have already left or I cant find their username.
Thank you for the people who have been kind beyond they should have been and supported me in my tough times.
We laughed, we created chaos in the group chats and forums, we played fun games, we listened and supported each other, We were there to leave cookies and chocolates and hug attack others who reallh needed them and even if they didn't, we still spread positivity for no reason but for positivity's sake itself.
Farewell in advance and in case I don't see you anymore, good morning, good afternoon and good night.
💙
@calmmoon2104
I dont really know you....i am a newbie. But best of luck for the next chapters of your life!!
Wow, isn't it amazing ? I am beginning where you are ending. I have just begun to reach out, and seeing you share a tender leaf with all your close friends here is soo beautiful. It's inspiring. I hope ro have a network like yours someday🥹.
Take care !! Good evening !!
I'm really gonna miss you . We dont know each other that much but you were nice to me. So pls dont leave 💔
Tbh I'm gonna miss you so much we don't know each other that much but still you were nice to me and pls dont leave 💔😭
Why leave though? Just don’t open the app for a while. It seems like you could retain all of these relationships and options and get the best of both worlds out of it.
Hi Ophelia 💙
First, I want to wish you good luck in your life. I know how hard it can get and how powerless it can make you feel. You deserve the bestest in your life, even if you don’t think so. As you’re leaving, you’re taking the life in your own hands and in shaa Allah you will be happy and healthy.
I know we don’t know each other in real life, but you’re truly a great friend. You’re also very smart and encouraging. I really loved those history and belief sessions..you gave me a lot.
I think I'm speaking for more people right now when I say you are a very wonderful and kind person. I loved seeing you in the groups and yapp about random topics together.
I know that goodbye sounds like forever, but we will always be here if you want to come back.
I will pray for you, take care and I hope you will see the blue dawn 🫂💙
Your friend,
Aiko
@calmmoon2104
I don't stray from my little corner often. I am not one to give advice because I am old, and have failed miserably at everything in life. And now, I have lost most of the memories of the past and am constantly losing memories of the recent past and present.
According to my many writings here on 7cups , my biggest failures revolve around not truly wanting and accepting help, choosing to let fear, shame and the overwhelming pressure of depression to bury me deeper into the darkness and hiding from the world. The result created someone who has never truly attempted to live. I did a lot of things throughout the 50 plus years of my breathing but I did so with my true self buried deep and behind the thick walls and thick floors and ceiling that I constantly made thicker and thicker, ensuring that nobody could hurt me, or know my deepest darkest secrets, or even reach me with their false words of truth and love.
I have hidden from the world so long and have looked for every thing that I could to try and prove to myself that I was right for hiding this way , that now I have lost the reality of the complete truth in that reasoning for hiding.
I have had many battles with myself over leaving here because I am who I am. But I chose to stay, I chose to just write down whatever I could that was on my mind. Not necessarily expecting or even wanting anyone to read it or even respond to it, but I now think that I did that because it helps to ease the weight of the anxiety, depression, the guilt and everything else that is pushing down so hard to keep me from seeing any kind of light of hope, to keep me from hearing the true voices of those who are wanting to truly understand and listen, to keep me from feeling the love in the touch of their kindness, or their hugs or even just the touch of their hand on mine to let me know they are there.
I don't know anything about you or what is going on inside of you, but no matter what you decide to do . Don't give up on yourself, don't give up on honestly and completely trying to live. Which has to begin with you.
Even just writing down everything , including those darkest of things can help unburden and maybe even uncover other things that have been hidden from thought. Which then could uncover something else. Maybe even finding that one thing that was the original piece that was buried and possibly with the help of others (or not)...beginning to slowly and carefully... like those people who literally dig up historical artifacts... slowly and carefully brush away the surrounding layers to get to the root of things.
I have rambled and I apologize, hopefully I didn't lose you in the process.
Don't give up on yourself, don't forget there are many people who truly care about you. Especially here on 7cups. By the many responses to your writings here I would say many people are truly concerned about you.
I wish you the best....
@calmmoon2104 I don't know if I'm too late to say an official goodbye yet... I haven't been on cups as of recently...
I'm really sad that you're leaving. You've been a wonderful friend, shared absolutely amazing poems, and definitely been so so kind in chatrooms.
I respect your decision to leave, but if you ever want to come back, I hope I'll be here to welcome you. Good luck in all the things you're going to do in life 💗 I'm sure you would go very far, and may you be able to climb any obstacles in the way.
Me, and I'm sure, other cups friends will be cheering on you. And perhaps when you are sad and things feel unreal, just remember some random person named IKEA will always be thinking how the best poet is doing. I'll miss you :)
IKEA 🫂🫂
