I Feel So Messed Up Inside…
I finally spoke up for myself. Finally got up the courage. Men. Boundaries. Fear. Brokenness. Moving towards healing. But it messed me up…
The anxiety led to hours of sleeplessness. Tossing. Turning. Trauma. Pain. Fear. Sleeplessness led to exhaustion, exhaustion and trauma led to depression, depression and exhaustion made me almost… comatose. Tired. Broken. Remembering.
Do men realize how much their mistreatment affects me? Affects other aspects of my life? Makes me afraid, mentally cringe and cower, around every man who walks near me, as if they’ll attack me?
Do they care?
My brokenness… It breaks me daily. Makes me fearful. Wary. Emotionless. Numb. Emotional. Reclusive. Broken.
And they don’t even notice.
When will this cruel war be over? When will I be able to live, function, normally, without having to fake it all the time?
Does anybody hear her?
@Torean
@azurePond
@Amanda84
(Just tagging; post is open to everyone)
@jesusredeemedme2425
Standing up in those moments came at a dear cost 🥺
💜💕
You need rest.
You have created so much fear inside your body that you are always on high alert.
I'm sending you my love, you are not alone here.
I'm sorry that men have made you feel this way.
I know it seems irrational to others but even though all men are not in a million years like this, you cannot always differentiate after a trauma 💜💕
Here for you Kiara 💜💕
I am so, so sorry you are going through that level of exhaustion and the pain that comes with it. I am going through something similar and I don't really know if this will be over, but I wish we can both be happy and live in peace someday. You can always talk with me whenever you want, I will be here to listen. 🫂💕
@jesusredeemedme2425
Sending hugs if ok
Hey
Whatever it was that was going on, I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself.
Whether men don't care or don't notice depends on the person... It might be inexcusable either way though
@jesusredeemedme2425 I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this. It sounds so tough, and it’s totally understandable that you feel this way. You’re heard, you’re not alone, and you’re so loved. You are strong enough to get through this!! Lean on Jesus and His protection, take it easy, and trust that it’ll get better 🫶 sending you love, hugs, and prayers!!!
@jesusredeemedme2425 you did well, establishing boundaries. Rest now. Pause. Look at nature, listen to music, let the walls down. No need to smile or say youre okay when youre not. Put away the masks for a bit and breathe: the world can wait. It owes you that much atleast 🤍
@jesusredeemedme2425 ❤️❤️
I feel you
I'm going through the same thing everyday hoping that the next day would be slightly better but it wasn't
But I didn't give up one day it will get better that I keep telling myself it's been almost 7years but giving up well make it worse just try to find the light, joy ,fun, happiness in very very simple things and you should make it day by day
