I hate myself, deservedly

@ConureConnor 

i can tell you’re going through a lot right now but don’t be too harsh on yourself. you’ve got this, i believe in you, but you gotta believe in yourself! hang in there🫂

Just keep trying and learning from your mistakes, who knows your resilience might inspire others 🙂

@ConureConnor

I think you will do much better once you see things in life are not all reflective on you.   

        Whatever you did could not have been so terrible if it was a write up not a firing.  We all have made mistakes that may have caused others extra steps at work etc, That does not make a person horrible. I feel people find out in different ways that attitude and belief in yourself that is the change. 

we cannot place blame on ourselves every time in life things do not go well ... of course we can control our actions but we also cannot blame ourselves for every obstacle that we encounter. 

Oh you're so wrong. Give yourself a little time and a few more chances. Start counting those small wins. You've got this, nothing is too late!

@ConureConnor No one deserve hate... Let's figure this out...

When you tricked yourself, if you can do it again, I think you can then follow some steps e.g. When you feel better for sometime then start figuring out how you can make someone else's day better? As helping other gives alot of known as well as unknown benifits, I believe it wil help you too

@ConureConnor

Hi,

I can relate to what you are ping through. The process of healing is not linear. Sometimes it feels ok, sometimes it feels the worst and sometimes it feels like the end of the world. It's ok. I can suggest you to write your feelings and thoughts and keep an emotional journal. I think it is wrong to think that you make everyone's life worse. Think of the time when you were a baby. You made everyone's life harder and difficult. Your close ones had to sacrifice so much time, efforts and money to take care of you. But you brought so much happiness, joy, meaning and value to their lives. That is the same as this situation too. The things that you may face right now can be hard for those around you, but trust in the process. You are valuable. You are a treasure to them. Your work and job is so important. You are a gem at your office. One bad day or one bad incident don't define you. Don't let your emotions take over you. Feel your emotions completely for a certain time you fix and then analyse the situation from your mind. There is nothing impossible in the world. You deserve all the good things in life. Think positively and the world around you will turn around. I am sure you are not a horrible person. You only define yourself. So, whatever you can say about yourself is the real you. Hope you find this useful. Hope you get the emotional strength you need and conquer your battles with confidence. ✨

I feel like this sometimes too, brother. Hate is a very human emotion, but so is love. Your capacity for anger is so great that you can direct it inward, towards yourself instead of putting it out into the world. This shows that you take responsibility for your actions, not in the healthiest way but the spirit is there.

I don’t know much about you but you’re for sure a person that is reliable and is ready to lay it all down for someone else.

Keep fighting, brother, winter will not last forever.

@ConureConnor I think that voice in your head may not be yours. I used to take disappointment really hard, because I was criticized so much growing up I felt I had to be perfect. My question to you is.. is this really your voice?

I hope that at work that someone reminded you a few times before the writing up. Sometimes people abuse the power they do have to an employee, and they may gaslight you, so I want you to double check the real facts of the matter. 

Sit tight mate. You're not alone. Everyone loves u@ConureConnor

I could be wrong here but I think your letting yourself down by letting some people judge you at work. I sometimes get that too.

Don't let someone else's negative reviews decide who you are. You were not wrong in thinking that you were doing ok.

You could've actually been doing well!!