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So, This Is What Peace Feels Like?? 💝

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AiluraTheCat March 16th

Hi sweetie's 😊💕 

I kindly request y'all to take a few minutes to read this, because I really feel like sharing it with you all 😊💗

I'm feeling way lighter today 🌸 just wanna share it with y'all. n want to thank you for y'all to be with me during my heavy day's 😊💕 I'm so grateful 💗.

So, For a long time I’ve been feeling… heavy inside. i don't even realise I'm slowly eaten up away, i lost myself tbh.

Even though I was active ( on or off the community), cheerful in conversations, laughing and replying like everything was fine… there was still something quietly pulling me down. The strange part was that I couldn’t even figure out what it really was. It was just this constant weight living somewhere in my chest. I felt grumpy with everything 😕 


Recently I decided to step away for a few days, just get out of my harsh environment, even using cups or any other app's. like I took a break from everything from being online, from the noise, from the things that were draining my heart. 

I also made a decision that was honestly very painful. I let go of something that had been aching deep inside me for a while. It wasn’t easy, and part of me worried about hurting someone… but I knew I had to choose peace for my own heart. prioritise me in first place. cus... i don't want to drain myself while prioritising to fill someone's cup. Sounds selfish but I just made a move, I quietly closed that door, even though it hurt to do it ❤️. 

After that, I went to stay with my cousins for a couple of days… which somehow turned into almost a week:) 😊 n I can’t fully explain what those days did for my soul. i cherish every single moment's 😊💗

We laughed so much, i honestly forgot abt all issues I've going through. they kept me lost into craziness xD 😅 

We watched movies and anime together:) it's a horror movie... with lot of jump scares. but we laughed at those ghost in movies 🤣

For once, there were no responsibilities weighing on me, no constant pressure, i heard no harsh words that used to break my heart into pieces all the time but just simple moments of joy. 😊❤️

One of the most beautiful days was yesterday. All my cousins went to our uncle’s house 😊 n we spent the day there together with 'em all. after a long time period We get to together ❤️ We prepared for iftar side by side, had long conversations with our aunts ❤️, n visited our grandparents ❤️. My grandmother blessed me was the best part 😊 The whole day felt warm n wholesome in a way that’s hard to put into words ❤️

The strange thing is… I barely used my phone during these days. And somehow that made everything feel even more real and grounding. 😊💗

For years I think I’ve been quietly craving moments like this, these day's are unexpected... made a huge impact in me in the best way possible 💓😊

N when I was there, laughing and sitting with everyone, it felt like something inside me finally unlocked 💓

When I came back home this morning, I noticed something new. Instead of that heavy feeling in my chest, it felt like a soft calm breeze passing through me ❤️. Not excitement, not noise but just peace, like a calm wind after a storm ❤️. even the silence feels sacred ❤️

I think I finally understood what peace actually feels like 💗.

These past days honestly felt like a gift. Like a broken bird that had been stuck for a long time finally getting the chance to fly again. ❤️

I’m grateful for that feeling… and I hope I can carry this quiet peace with me for a long time. ❤️ 

Stíll unsure of expressing how actually feel 😅💓 img-20260312-114436_1773625968.jpg


Hugs u all closer to my heart 🤗💕

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

This thread is open for everyone to read 🤍

But I just wanted to tag a few people who supported me during my heavy days.

@Amanada84

@Butterfly723389

@SweetSoul771

@curiousSloth

@jesusredeemedme2425

@communicativeJet616

@enthusiasticHouse3272

@RunningMachine

@curiousbookishness

@nzz612

@Paliloveyouself

@fossilefellow

@LexListens2025

Y'all supported me in my hard times intentionally or without even realizing it. But I just want you to know that you truly made an impact on me 🤗 reading all ur replies made me feel lighter 💓

Sending lots Love and blessings ur way ❤️ Hugs 🤗💗 

🐈🐾


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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th
This thread is open for everyone to read n reply** 

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9

Thanks for the tag Ms Demon Lord "A" 😁 

Hey… this was really good to read 😊💕

Feels like you finally got some space to just breathe and be yourself again. And  the days you spent like that… I can imagine how special and happier it might have felt 😊

Also that decision you made… that takes strength, even if it didn’t feel like it at the time.

Glad you’re feeling this kind of calm now 🌸 hope it stays with you for a long time 😊

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Amanda84 March 16th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9

You definitely did the right thing letting go.

It's not selfish.

When you are in a dark place, no one else's feelings can or should be prioritised because it takes all you have to get out of it and get to a better place.

We have to fight for happiness.

And joy.

And laughter.

Life's too short.

We have to surround ourselves with uplifting people who have our best intentions at heart and who aid us, not hinder us, and who listens, without making it about them.

I'm so proud of you.

You are capable, strong , resilient and beautiful, and you absolutely have the tools within you to let healing in and light 🩵🤗

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@Amanda84

Aww 🤗 those are beautiful words... needed to hear tht ❤️ thank you so much for being there n supporting me ❤️ 

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Amanda84 March 16th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9


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Awww offline time is the BEST! I’m so glad you felt peace. I should do that more often <3

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@jesusredeemedme2425

Yeahh, can't agree more with you 😊💕  we watched a couple of horror movie. (Bring Her Back n Untill Dawn) such a creepy one... with lot of jump scare. n it's so ***... i felt so nauseaous 😅. they aren't censored 🤢

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@Ailuraphilelove8tear9

Reading this fills my heart with so much joy and happiness ailura 🥹💗

im so so proud of u for choosing peace and prioritizing yourself, even when it was hard.. that takes so much courage!

you deserve so much dear and im really happy for youu🤗

hugsiess ❤️✨

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@enthusiasticHouse3272

Aww I'm so glad i brought up some happiness tou ur heart 😊❤️. just want to share it with y'all 😊...!! ty so much being supportive to me 😊 I'm grateful ❤️. 

Hugs u closer to my heart 🤗

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@Ailuraphilelove8tear9

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Butterfly723389 March 16th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 Hiiii, so happy for u 💗☺️ Some time off can really do wonders 😌🍀 And protecting yourself doesn’t mean you’re selfish 🤗✨

And it’s completely understandable that you don’t really know how to put your feelings into words 😅

I’ve got something to share too: yesterday I had really awesome deep talk with a new friend and I felt sooo understood! 😁☺️

Thight Hugsss to uuu, sweetie 🤗🤗🤗💗💗

🦋🐈

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@Butterfly723389

Hiya butterfly 🦋 

Aww ❤️ thank you so much for ur lovely word's to me, sweetie. reading ur reply really brings some joy to me ❤️ ty for that my love 💓 

Heyy...!! you're amazing, I'm so glad you got a friend to talk deep conversation ❤️ I'm so proud n happy for you 😭🤧. 

Hey.. n i also noticed something that we simply resonate eachother in texting 😂 like take a look at our text's... we used thousands of emojis 😅🤣. 

Sending lots of love and happiness ur way 💘 Hugs you closer to my soul 🤗✨. 

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Butterfly723389 March 16th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9

Hii, lovieee 🐈💗

Lovely words for a lovely person 🤗🍀

Hehe, actually, I’ve seen how much emojis u always use and thought this is how you express kindness and love here so I started using them too 😁💓 And now I’m so used to adding some emojis that I accidentally do the same in messenger apps, hope people don’t get confused by that change 😅😂 But I really love it because it just looks so much better and more colourful 😂🤗🌸

Hug you closer to my heart 🤗💓💞

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@Butterfly723389

Lol 😂 you just reflecting me 😂...!! that's so cuteee btw 🤧❤️. you absolutely right, i kinda use tons of emojis. b'cos it looks so lively n *Whisper* to cover up the fact I'm actually creepy 😂💕. btw I'm so glad you take it from me 🤧. 

Hugs u closer to my heart 🤗✨

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Butterfly723389 March 16th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9

Yess 😂😁 *leaning in to hear u* uhhhh, okayyyy 😬😱😂

Tight hugs to u 🤗💞

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@Butterfly723389

Besties share stuff with eachother 😉🤧

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Butterfly723389 March 16th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9

Yes hehe 😁💖✨

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@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
heya dearest🥰

First of all—huge congratulations on finally finding peace. I imagine it like you climbing a mountain of chaos, drama, and questionable life choices… only to reach the top, sit down, and realize the view is actually pretty nice up there. Proud of you for getting to that calm place—it’s not easy, and you earned every quiet moment of it.

Now about the cousin reunion…

From a completely unofficial psychoanalysis standpoint, cousin reunions are basically a live social experiment. Everyone shows up with three things: nostalgia, mild competitiveness, and at least one story they’ve been rehearsing in the mirror since 2009.

There’s always:

  • The cousin who suddenly became very successful and casually mentions it every 7 minutes.😑

  • The one who asks deep life questions after two Coke glasses👻

  • The mysterious cousin who appears once every five years like a rare Pokémon.😂

  • And the aunt who gathers emotional data like she’s running family intelligence operations.😭

The real reason cousin reunions exist, scientifically speaking, is to remind everyone that despite the chaos of the family tree, we all somehow grew into semi-functional humans… which is honestly impressive.🙃

But the best part? Watching you there—calm, centered, peaceful—while the rest of the family chaos swirls around like a sitcom episode. That’s growth. That’s character development. That’s the season finale energy right there.🤧

Anyway, I’m genuinely happy for you. Keep that peace protected like it’s a rare artifact. The world (and the cousins) will try to steal it, but you’ve clearly leveled up.😜

Proud of you, always🥰
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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@curiousbookishness 

Hey mr. Big brain 😅. 

Thank you so much for understanding 💕 those really a warm word's... n yeah, i completely agree with what u mentioned. it's like i were just imagining how peace is to be felt n finally i reached out the place I were craving it felt 😊💗. 

Lmao 🤣🤣 you're absolutely right abt cousin's 😂...

N I'm that type of cousin who ask deep life questions when everyone is off to bed 😅💕 

n that Pokemon is my brother... he returned home after 7 year's. finally we spend time together 😁💕 but he's way deep n wise person... so, we all glue our mouth when he's around. 😅 

Lol, it's true 😂. even between the Chaos in Elder's... me n my cousin's vibe along 😂. 

I'm safe guarding my peace from everything n everyone 😅 especially from shaitan 🤣💕 

Anyways, you're msg brought up a beautiful smile in my face... honest means a lot 💗 Tysm ❤️ 

Hugs u closer to my heart 🤗💕

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fossilfellow March 16th

@Ailuraphile Offline time's best indeed. I'm very happy for you 💖 and no, you're not being selfish for prioritising your peace, it's okay to step back and give yourself some space and time to heal, you can't give from an empty cup ❤️ thank you to sharing your experience with us 🤗 we're all here for you ❤️ Sending you tons of love and *hugs* 🐾💕

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fossilfellow March 16th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9* ❤️

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@fossilfellow

Aww ❤️ Thank you so much for ur Supportive n lovely words 💗... sending lots of love and blessings ur way 🤗. 

Hugs 🤗 

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fossilfellow March 17th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 ❤️❤️

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BlueDarkAurora March 16th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@BlueDarkAurora


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SweetSoul771 March 16th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9

Wohoooooo I'm SOOOO happy to read that you are feeling much lighter :)
even more happy for the fact that you prioritized your own peace XD (self love) ✌️

Filling your own cup!!!!!! 

oh my gosh, Girl I'm so impressed 😭 

your decision to take a break proved to be fruitful; honestly when there is too much noise inside and out, it's better to take a break to save our energy and to regain the lost power (even superheroes need time to recharge hehe)

And those cousin days sound like pure chaos therapy ... movies, jump scares, laughter, iftar together, grandma’s blessings… so wholesome 🤍

but wait ... not you guys laughing at the ghosts ... poor ghost 😂
I'm imagining the ghost crying in the corner now
The grandma blessing part is so sweet ... Ailura since I'm the first cousin in my whole family, I'm super close with my grandma - I mean she loves me the most and everybody knows this 😁
And guess what I don't have many cousins and the ones that I have are kids so those fun moments with cousins don't exist in my life but I'm blessed with something even crazier - my lil sisters (why does it sound like my little pony) *lmao
our home shows Netflix's never-ending reality shows, chaos and stand-up comedy 24/7.
We vibe with each other more than we vibe with our friends (okay it isn't true I vibe with my friends too but my sisters vibe more with me ... this is what I think lmao)

On a serious but not serious note XD
Ailura, I'm so proud of you for listening to your heart and choosing peace
May that calm breeze you’re feeling stay with you for a long time 🌸
Also… now that you’re back lighter and happier, the forums better prepare themselves 😛

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@SweetSoul771

Hiya girliee 😊💕

It's actually unexpected break... i really don't expect it to be this much. but it does grounded me in the best way possible 😊. 

Lol, yeah... we're actually laughing at Ghost 🤣 end up laughing insanely for no reason. it went unstoppable 😂... honestly the ghost in our place might be crying now for lack of self-esteem 😂. she might lost her confidence that she carrying it for her whole carrier 🤣

wow, hearing abt ur family is amazing n beautiful 🤗... just filled up my heart ❤️. my family wasn't really upbeating Ppl's but my maternal cousins are just crazy 🤣... we laugh non stop for no proper reason 😅 make fun of eachother... vibe in middle of the night n wake up everyone in house 😂.  

Lol, You're really warned forum's 😂 that Ailura is back 😅❤️...!! Hey, anyways... I'm so glad to u being there for me in my Heavy days n now on lighter day's ❤️... I'm so happy to be ur friend sweetie 😊 

Love u infinite 😊❤️

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SweetSoul771 March 16th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 Poor ghost 🥺
now he or she'd work harder to gain the lost self esteem *lol
but glad to know that you have people like your cousins and even us to vibe with, you ain't alone :) 

I had to warn the forums that Ailura is back bcz this version is willing to prioritize her own peace which means there is no room for energy draining people anymore ✨
and ofc you'd bring that saved energy with you in forums so I was trying to warn earlier lol
 (but Ailura u started prioritizing your peace - believe me it's the first step of self love ) *fingers crossed for one more person with self love syndrome yayyy 💕
and ehh me being there for u through and thin isn't a big deal 
it simply means I consider ya as my real good friend (I don't think it's something to be thanked  for lol ... friends have to do that if they really are friends) 

I really wanna see ya happy, Kitty Buddy 🤍

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AiluraTheCat OP March 17th

@SweetSoul771

Lol it's definitely "She" cuz no men's are allowed in our room 😂 no matter it's a human or ghost/jinn 😂✨ halah haris ✨. 

Wow, like u have u own way to set my heart high with ur words 🤗 you got me emotional btw 😭. I'm so glad to know I stood out for u as a friend 😊💕. 

N hey, I'm sry... that i left the room last night. idk what has happened:( suddenly it shows an error 😭 i think it's a server issue or something 🤔. I also dunno that msgs are visible 😅... i just blindly sending msgs n suddenly server lost 😣😤.

Hug u closer to my heart 🤗✨

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SweetSoul771 March 18th

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
omg .. a she ghost 😂
and it's okay I didn't mind ya leaving the room bcz we all deal with network errors so it's fine 

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I gotcha.I also have 2 sisters one 2 years younger,thus we are very close.the other is about to turn 9 this april.she is my princess👻why does it feel like i have told you before😅😭🤧

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SweetSoul771 March 17th

@curiousbookishness
woahhhh ... I also have two, they look like twins but they aren't 😛
and lemme tell you why you feel like you've shared it before, I remember you sharing about your siblings when we were talking about driving license in a forum post 😄

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Ah that one😭 the one about my lil brother🤧

I miss that lil guy now that i am back in my uni👻

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SweetSoul771 March 18th

@curiousbookishness yeah that one 
aww, lil cutie 
dw, Booky you gotta meet him soon (on eid) 😁

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@SweetSoul771
thanks sensie🥰

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User Profile: Fatimaishere
Fatimaishere March 16th

Just reading all this sounds so peaceful and...nice..🥹🌸

I'm so happy to know that you finally felt lighter and happier and calm, tbh it's not the sort of feeling once can really describe, (although you did a very good job of conveying the feeling..i guess you just have a way with words 😅) but i can relate to this feeling of yours, it's a strangely good feeling like you can finally fly... And finally breathe, easily..🕊️❤️‍🩹

I can understand closing of some doors is a painful process, but just know that once you close such doors, then nothing unwanted can come through them 🌷

I pray that this blessed month heals you and your sweet soul completely before it departs, and that the tranquility is a lasting one 🌙 ✨

Sending lots of hugs and prayers your way 🫂💐

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AiluraTheCat OP March 16th

@Fatimaishere

Aww 😊 thank you so much... those are  beautiful words to read ❤️ It felt like i were locked up somewhere that even can't feel air n this break just felt like a calm breeze that embrace me 😊. 

Yeah, i just closed some of the door that drowing me. even it hurts somewhere in me... but worth it. I'm way thankful for the specific person who gave me a beat life advice 😊❤️.

Thank you so much for being there for me here n supporting 😊 mean's a lot... ❤️. n i feel special when u mentioned you'll add me in ur dua ❤️ ty for that ❤️

Hug u closer to my heart 🤗💕

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