What's going on with me???? 😔
TW: emotional distress, guilt, anxiety
Hey hi, sweet souls 💖
I hope you’re having a gentle day. And if you’re not—hey, I’m really sorry. I hope this phase eases up for you soon 🤗🍀
With January almost here, I genuinely wish every one of you a calm, beautiful year ahead 🌸🌹
This community gave me something precious—hope. Even just enough to stand on my own feet again. For that, I’m deeply grateful. I truly love the beautiful souls here 💝✨
I’m here today because lately I’ve been feeling constantly scared.
There’s a heavy guilt sitting in my chest, deep regret that’s been eating away at me. I feel like I messed up this year badly—some mistakes I can’t brush off or pretend are “fine.” I know I was wrong. I know I can’t rewind time. I know I have to live with the consequences and fix what I can.
I don’t want to run from this. I want to cross it.
But with the new year approaching, instead of excitement, I feel fear. My chest feels heavy, my confidence is low, and the guilt feels overwhelming. Starting over again scares me. I struggle with consistency—one slip, and everything seems to fall apart. Negative thoughts pile up fast and drag me down.
While others are happily waiting for the new year, I feel scared every minute. I try… but I keep feeling like I lose. I don’t want to stay stuck in self-blame, and I refuse to hide behind my mental health as an excuse. I know I play a role in my own downfall—and that realization itself is painful.
I don’t even know if this is anxiety or something else. I just feel lost.
I’m not here just to vent. I genuinely need kindness, support, or even words that help name what I’m feeling. Maybe someone here relates. Maybe someone’s been here and crossed it.
Right now, I feel like I’ve lost my paddle—my faith, self-esteem, confidence, and hope. I want that paddle back so I can keep sailing, even if the water is rough.
I’m not comfortable with one-on-one chats, but I’d truly appreciate support here—kind words, shared experiences, or advice. If you know someone who might help, please tag them.
Sending love and good vibes to you all 🤗💞
hugs ❣️
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
It's so beautifully honest of you.
To own your mistakes.
The beauty of a new year, is not putting things necessarily behind you, but using them as the foundations to do things differently.
You have taught me so much in a few weeks.
Joy.
Honesty.
Emotional intelligence.
And you've added to my 2025 in a blessed way.
And I thank you for that 😊 💚
@Amanda84
Aww 💞 my pleasure, truly 💜💐
Thank you so much for your kind and gentle words. Knowing I’m part of your “blessed list” really means a lot to me—especially coming from you 😊✨
I’m not even sure what you learned from me, but just knowing that something I shared helped you in any way makes me genuinely happy 🤗💝
Thank you for giving me a new perspective too—about using mistakes as foundations and lessons, not as weights to carry forever. That insight will stay with me 😊
Thank you for being there when I needed support. I’m truly grateful for you, Amanda. I really mean that 🌸💗
May the coming year be gentle and kind to you, filled with peace, growth, and many moments of happiness. May it be one of the best years you’ve ever crossed 🤗🍀
Sending a big hug your way 🤗💞
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Thank you 💚😊
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 I am so sorry you're feeling this way right now. I would like to applaud you for taking ownership and accountability of the mistakes you made in 2025. But see, that's the thing friend-- mistakes are normal to make. Mistakes are a part of life and it's what makes us humans. Remember though, your mistakes do not define you as a person. Whatever mistakes you made, you can make amends. Keep trying your best, learn, grow, heal, move on... but most importantly, please forgive yourself! That's so important to do.
From reading your post, it seems you have so much weighing on your chest and in your heart. Please whatever you do, do not carry these feelings and emotions all alone. Do not allow it to consume your being and make you feel trap. I am so proud of you for making this post and sharing how you feel. That's a great step! Identifying your feelings and releasing them. This is 7 Cups. Support is here, friend. I understand 1-1 is not everyone's preference. I can relate even though I am a listener. The forums, for me, are my place to be so I feel you with the whole comfort thing.
I truly hope you receive all the support, kindness, and care you seek. @Ailuraphilelove8tear9 it's been quite a joy seeing you and interacting with you in the rooms and seeing you through the forums. You are such a sweet person... and, of course. a genius! Lol. :) Just adding a little humor in for you. I hope you know how special and valued you are here. I am happy you are here. I hope that the remainder of 2025 is bearable in the meantime and that you are receptive into welcome 2026. I know change, way of thinking, etc do not happen overnight. Just please do what is best for you, your wellbeing, and your mental health! I wish you healing, forgiveness, love, and peace. Please take care. Many hugs your way! Xoxo. <3
@YourCaringConfidant
Hey Confident!!! 😊💞
First of all, thank you so much for your beautiful, comforting words. They truly touched my heart and mean more to me than I can say 💐✨
Let me share honestly—please forgive if it feels a little long and too much here 🙂
I really appreciate your insights. Yes, I’m trying to take responsibility for my mistakes and remind myself to keep going—learning, growing, healing, and moving forward. Thank you for gently reminding me of that 💞
But, here where problem starts with, instead of learning from it, I feel like I’m falling apart. I feel scared, stuck, and unsure how to move even a little forward. I end up feeling guilty for not starting, and when I do try, consistency becomes very hard for me. That’s usually where my confidence and self-esteem start to slip, and self-doubt quietly takes over.
I know forgiving myself is important, and I truly want to… but I’m still learning how. I struggle with self-respect, and admitting that isn’t easy.
If you’re comfortable sharing, I’d really love to hear your thoughts🙏
How can I gently build consistency without overwhelming myself?
How do I stop feeling disgusted with myself for being distracted or unmotivated?
What’s the smallest, realistic way to start when even starting feels heavy?
You’re absolutely right about one thing—I’ve been carrying a lot inside for years. I’m someone who hides things and handles pain quietly. Finding 7 Cups has been a blessing for me. Here, I finally feel safe enough to express myself, to be heard, seen, and understood. I truly feel better compared to before, and I’m so grateful—to this community and to myself—for taking that step 😊💞
I’ve received more love and support here than I ever expected. And hearing that my presence brings something positive to others made me smile so much. Knowing I’m valued here—and yes, being called a genius too 😂—really warmed my heart.
Your message brought tears of joy. You genuinely made my day, Confident. Thank you for your kindness, care, and encouragement 💝💐
Wishing you a calm, gentle, and peaceful year ahead. I’m truly grateful for you 😊💞
Sending lots of love and blessings your way 💗🌸
Big hugs 🤗💞✨
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 sits beside you and hugs you tightly 💖 the choices we make in life were right in our minds at that time, even if it had consequences, at that time is was the best thing you could do. So don't be to hard on yourself💖 although I completely understand the self blame and guilt feelings, it's like it eats you up from the inside😥 I'm really sorry your struggling with all theese thoughts/feelings/memories 🙁 thank God we have this site, a place where people understand and a safe place to be ourselves💖 I'm really proud that your able to open up and ask for help with all this💖 just one day at a time that's all we can do 💖 in the end everything is gonna be ok 💖
@Tinywhisper11 This couldn't have been said any better. Absolutely beautiful and from the heart. You are soooo extremely loving, Tiny. May God always bless you! <3 I love you sooo much.
@YourCaringConfidant awww thanks 💖 merry Christmas sweetie 💖 I love you 💖
@Tinywhisper11 Hii Lola!!!! 😊💝
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 💖💖💖💖
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
aww sweet heart ❤️ we all make mistakes. Don’t feel as if you have to have all the answers and life figured out in a couple days because the new year is upon. Go with the intention you are still growing. Ease up on the pressure. 💜💜 You do have hope. And that’s wonderful. To know things are going to get better. You may have “lost your paddle” but we are all right here beside you!! Thanks for being you. 🥰🥰🥰
@peachThinker662 😇
hiii peach!!!! 😊💞
Reading this really made me feel at ease… I love how gently and simply you put everything 💝 it truly comforted my heart. Thank you so much for your lovely and supportive words 🤧💗
I’m still working on my mindset and learning along the way. You’re right—I’m still growing, and I need to be kinder and gentler with myself. Thank you for reminding me of that, love 😊💞
My heart feels so full after reading this. I’m truly grateful to you ❤️✨
Sending lots of love and blessings your way 💞
hugs*🤗 💞
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
we got this…together
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Hyy hi 👋 I'm also kind of lost and everything feels like falling apart. You are not alone in life sometimes some wrong choice some dicition take us in the *** of guilty but instead of feel guilty we can get lessons from them ,,
Please message me or drop a hi wanted to have some meaningful conversation with you 🐾❤️🩹
@creativeBlossom4962
Hey hii Blossom 😊💞
How are you doing???
Thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful words ❤️
I’m really sorry that you’re going through a similar phase 🤧 I truly hope things start feeling lighter and better for you very soon 💗
I agree with what you said—sometimes wrong choices turn into heavy guilt, and even though we know we should learn from them, being human makes it hard to always act the way we think 😅 I’ll keep your words close to my heart and try my best to turn the guilt into lessons and gentle amends instead 😊💞
And yes, sure—we can have a conversation 😊 I’m just not able to give time to chats right now, but I’ll definitely reach out once things feel clearer for me. Please don’t mind—this is just a pause, not ignoring 🤧💞
Sending lots of love, warmth, and happiness your way ❤️💐
Big hugs 💗🤗
Hi:
I find meditation helpful when I feel anxious and . It helps me also to look in a mirror and say things like, “I love you Bob. I am safe and secure.” It helps me to realize that I am not my thoughts and thoughts lie and deceive us and make us believe there is danger when there is no concrete danger. Understanding we have a negativity bias that goes back to when we were cavemen and cavewomen and needed to make quick decisions to save our lives when wild animals approached our cave is helpful. Realizing it is normal to have anxious thoughts takes the danger out of them. Naming the feelings as anxiety can help because it grounds you to the reality that these are just thoughts and feelings are are temporary and will pass. Socializing with supportive people brings a sense of common humanity and healing. Finally, exercise and vagal nerve stimulation exercises are helpful.
I hope these ideas are helpful. 😊❤️
@azureAcres1605
Hey Azure 😊💞!!
Sorry for the late reply 🙈
I really wanted to tell you this—I’ve seen your replies on other threads too, and I genuinely admire the way you support and explain things to others so thoughtfully 😊❤️ Much respect to you 🙌✨
Thank you so much for taking the time to share such a deep and clear explanation. I honestly didn’t expect something so insightful, and it truly gave me a new way to look at my thoughts and anxiety. I’ll definitely try to reflect on what you shared and slowly put it into practice 🌸
I truly appreciate your kindness and effort. Sending you lots of good wishes and blessings 💞
Big hugs 🤗💜