Where's the light inside the darkness...
**TW**
Everything has been so hard lately. It just hurts so much idk what to do anymore, the pain is so overwhelming and unbearable. I want it to stop. Sometimes I can't believe this is my life, that all of this pain and hurt is really happening. It's hard to wrap my mind around the fact that I've resorted to hurting myself to cope with this mess I call my life.
I suppress how I feel knowing it will only make everything worse. Saying that i'm fine has become the normal for me. I want to get better, I really do but I'm scared of what my life will be like without this pain.
I've never been good at asking for help... It's hard for me to admit that I need help because it makes me feel like I'm weak and useless. Talking about how I feel, or just talking in general has never been something that's easy for me. I've always been a really shy person so talking has always been something I've struggled with.
I sometimes think that everyone would be better off without me. I feel like I was a mistake. I don't belong anywhere, I never have. No one understands, or even really bothers to try. I'm always judged, or made to feel like I don't matter. And then people wonder why I don't talk about how I feel.
I feel so alone, idk what else to do. There's no one who really cares. I'm tired of trying.
@IzzyGamer I'm really sorry you're feeling this way 🙁 The act of pretending "I'm fine" all the time is exhausting and you deserve the space to express yourself freely.
I can relate, It's hard to ask for help, we're scared of being judged for being vulnerable and showing our real side. But the fact that you're still here, still trying, and showing up says a lot about your courage ❤️ and just because talking feels hard doesn't mean you're not capable, it just means that you haven't found the right people with whom you feel safe enough to open up yet 🤍
You're not alone in this, we're all here for you whenever you need a space to feel heard. You truly matter ❤️ Sending you lots of love and *hugs* 🐾💕
@fossilfellow
Thanks, I appreciate it. 🫂
You do matter. I don't know you but I care. I'm here if you need to talk.
@IzzyGamer
I care and I love you <3
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You definitely do matter. I can understand why you might be feeling this way. I agree that asking for help is not easy, but I am very proud that you did. We are here to listen
@IzzyGamer
I hope it gets better
@easyTortoise1304
Thanks, I hope so too.
@IzzyGamer
Reaching out is a brave thing to do, all I can suggest is d you do connect with anyone through your post, keep talking, in my experience at least it helps yourself and others feeling the same,. I hope you find the support you're craving.
@IzzyGamer
Izzy 🥺 I missed you so much, it feels like ages since we talked, I hope you remember me.
Regardless,
Im really sorry to hear that you're struggling so much ❤️🩹 your feels are very valid.
But there's something I feel I need to say, I got also happy reading your words, not because of your pains, because you opened up and talked about it in a great way.
You did an awesome job talking about it.
I'm really proud of you for reaching out for help, that requires courage and bravely.
I really care about humans, especially teens. Because I know a bit how though teenager years could be and how much lonly a person could be at the same time sadly.
We are here for you, thank you for reaching out. It doesn't mean you're weak, it means you're growing.
Even the trees needs some help from the sun to grow and live.
I'm sorry for talking so much, best wishes for you,
Warm regards, seeker 😊✨💙
@NobleSeeker
Ofc I remember you. (:
I've missed you too hope you're doing alright.
Ty for the kindness I appreciate it.
This sounds a lot like how I get. I'm a recovering self-harm addict and I've often felt like things would be better if I was just erased.
It's huge that you reached out here. I think it can be hard to imagine someone actually understanding and handling what you're going through, but truthfully, you're the one doing most of the work, even if you have a really good therapist helping you. I'm not saying that's what you should do, but the most important thing is that you don't try to suffer all of it alone.
