Weekly check in 12.2.23
Use the scale in the graphic ti tell us how you are doing? This week I’m meh.
@Kristynsmama this week is ok ❤ I'm sorry yours is meh. Gives you a giant festive tiny hug ❤❤squeezes you tightly
Glad you are having an ok week and thank you for the gentle hug!
@Kristynsmama not good
I’m sorry to hear you aren’t doing well. I am online today if you want to chat. Just remind me that I commented in the forums. :)
@Kristynsmama Thank you for the offer :)
@mytwistedsoul
*hugs soul if okay* <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers Hugs Moon tight 💙 Thank you 💙
@Kristynsmama
hey kristy <3 thank you for this little check-in.
i’m not doing good tbh (': lol.
I’m sorry to hear that you aren’t doing well. You are also welcome to send me a message. I’m happy to chat and listen if you need someone.
kristy.
@Kristynsmama
thank you <3 i really appreciate that.
I'm in between "meh" and "ok".. It has been a week of mixed emotions.
@Kristynsmama
@Jaeteuk
im sorry you had a week of mixed emotions. I’m glad you are checking in with us. Feel free to reach out if you need to.
kristy
Kristy, sometimes I wish I can have a good cry.
@Kristynsmama
I understand. It’s ok to cry! I had a good cry this morning. :). It’s amazing how much better I feel afterwards.
Kristy
The problem is, my tears don't come out easily. The most I'd get is teary-eyed. I find myself crying most when I'm watching something emotional in tv dramas. But when it comes to reality, and the emotions that are bottled up, just kind of dissipates on its own before it can come out as tears.
@Kristynsmama
@Jaeteuk
That happens to me too. It feels weird and awkward, and even wrong! With time I want to feel more comfortable with my emotions...what about you?
@Jaeteuk
i don’t think you are alone in this. How many people want to cry but the tears won’t flow?
@Kristynsmama
I'm off the scale bad but also meh and kinda flopping around all the others in some passive-agressive life washing machine.
Probably just meh though.
@communicativePond1728
im sorry to hear that you are meh, and off the charts bad. I hope things get better. :)
@Kristynsmama
Meh. I don't! I just want to become more comfortable and effective with how things are, know what I mean?
@communicativePond1728
i do know what you mean!
@communicativePond1728
I think I blame myself for this. As I had always never expressed my emotions on the surface ever since I was young. So, now that I hope for those tears to come out, I think my natural instinct is to hold it, rather than let it flow. It's not so much as whether or not I'd feel vulnerable showing tears, it's more like feeling safe to do so. It might draw unwanted attention, which would make me feel even more cautious and afraid to show it.
But I do hope that one day, I don't have to worry about things like that, and just let my tears flow as they please. Except, I don't know if that day will ever come, and when?
@Jaeteuk
I know how you feel and what you mean.
It's like some kind of invisible gate slams down on me when real emotions are about to be expressed!
That's super insightful about it being about feeling guilty...I literally just posted about how I reject kindness and love because it feels so deeply wrong and uncomfortable to me
Maybe practicing it by watching more movies will help, and I think that's true because I recently read something about how scary movies, or roller coasters changes the brain to be more prepared and to handle scary things, so I bet more practicing will help...what do you think?
Scary movies give me nightmares.. but, maybe I'll try and watch more emotional movies. See if it helps to get used to.
@communicativePond1728
@Jaeteuk
Samesies with scary movies. I'm with you on that one for sure. I did learn a trick where you're supposed to focus your energy before bed on facing whatever is scaring you, asking the thing it's name...that makes the nightmares stop and then go away.
Also watching a Disney movie after a scary movie has helped me. Like a palate cleanser for the mind.
It has worked. But damn they're coming out with some intense movies and I'm kinda lacking. Like I flat refuse to watch Hereditary. And now there's The Nun, and another Exorcist? Nah
Sometimes I think my life is scary enough as it is. I'm a bit of a dare devil...I've done and do extreme sports and live in an apartment.
But yah some sad movies I watched in the last few weeks that broke me tf down weeping are Nausicaa and Little Miss Sunshine.
Any suggestions for me? I'm open!
@communicativePond1728
i don’t like scary movies either!
I actually don't watch a lot of movies.. and don't have the sources, as I'm not the type to go to movie theatre. So, it's just tv dramas that I watch most. Watching them from apps on an Ipad.
There's a very old movie, that I've watched multiple times when it first came out.. and I cried every single time. I believe it was called, Simon Birch.
@communicativePond1728
@Jaeteuk
Simon Birch. Why is that sounding so faintly familiar. I'm going to see if it's on YouTube and watch the *** out of it. Thanks.
Oh, and what dramas do you watch? Maybe they're on YouTube too.
@Jaeteuk
It totally is and I'm totally watching it!
Oh, also sorry about the swear; I'm working on keeping my masculine and feminine energy balanced and it's still a work in progress.
And thanks...I'm pretty glad I found a movie to rent and watch this weekend.
I watch mainly Chinese dramas, I haven't come across any recently that made me cry though. There was one where I watched a few months ago, a particular scene where I cried.. heheh, got my pillow all wet.
Don't worry about the swearing. I don't take them personally.
@communicativePond1728
@Jaeteuk
Chinese dramas!? I didn't really know those existed. What was it called, maybe I'll find it and watch it...oh and how did I forget about Simon Birch *old memory unlocked*
@Jaeteuk @communicativePond1728
@cyanPlatypus6370 hugs cyan ❤ I know being alone and feeling vulnerable can be extremely difficult😞 however thank God we all have a safe place here at cups. I don't watch t.v. But yeah a spoiler alert should be used like trigger alerts. Personally I think you should all watch happy xmas films, and cartoons😁 scary movies should only be watched before 6pm and something funny should be watched after wards. As for crying it is good for you, and feeling safe is important. I hope you all can open up and find safety here ❤❤❤
@cyanPlatypus6370 Platy 😊 Ideas for movies? Adventure movies usually have some comedy in. Like Journey 2 the mysterious island. Or Jumanji. Animated movies like Ice Age are good too. Even quiet activities like word searches or coloring can help keep things low key and relaxing
@Kristynsmama
O.K I guess.
@JollyRacher
glad you are doing ok! Thank you for checking in.
Not good. Got sent home from work because I couldn’t stop crying. Been having panic attacks far too often. Can’t eat. Bad dreams. It’s been horrible
@gazemaze gad! How are you doing now? I've been using apps like finch and voidpets to help me with similar stuff
I’ll check both of those out. I’m feeling a bit better, thank you for asking! I’ve at least not been overwhelmed with emotions as much as I have been. I had a really nice day off today with absolutely no plans so I spent it all at home doing whatever my heart desired. It’s helped raise my spirits and lessen my anxiety. Hopefully that will give me a push for a couple days
I’m doing ok to meh this week
