My Grandma died of liver cancer 😭💔

My Grandma passed away only 10 weeks after being diagnosed with cancer. It's been almost a year since April 1 2023, the day that she died. What's most painful is the fact that she was with me every day of my life and is now gone forever. My grandma and I had such a strong relationship. She called me "Potatoes" ever since I was little. I asked her why she called me that once, and she said "because I love potatoes and I love you". My grandma has done so much for me and sacrificed so much just to make my life better. When I was suicidal, she saved my life with a phone call and she brought me a whole bag filled with my favourite snacks and goodies. She was a very amazing and selfless woman who loved me and understood me at times where I felt that no one else did. I still haven't processed the fact that she is no longer here, it's like my brain doesn't want me to believe that she's gone forever. Sometimes I look out the window, just hoping to see her pull up in our driveway and walk through the door to give me a nice warm, long, comforting hug and tell me that it was all a nightmare and everything will be ok.