Losing faith in people
Hey…just a vent post. Talking about my thoughts and feelings. Maybe wanting some comfort. Or just…to know that I’m not alone in this.
But…I feel so anxious right now. To the point where I feel like I need to throw up. I had a fine day, a pretty good day actually, and all it took was me seeing a YouTube short of my favorite artist and reading the comments on it to make me into an anxious mess. For context, my favorite band is made up of two Christians. They’ve openly supported LGBTQ+ rights in the past. The comment thread on that short was about that. Someone was confused as to how they can still be Christian when they support that. Some replies to that comment consisted of people saying that they just have to say that they’re not against it because they’re in the public eye, that their faith would not actually allow it and that they were just forced into showing that support so they don’t get “canceled,” whatever on Earth that word is even supposed to mean anymore as it had been beaten into the ground for the past decade.
This has left me in a place where…everything I find comfort in, everything I have faith in within my day to day life, is just no longer stable in my mind. Yeah, people can say whatever, but what if those comments are right? What if they were lying and they didn’t mean any of it? What if it’s all performative? What if the one band that inspired me and made me feel like life was worth it for so much of my upbringing is just comprised of two guys that would just…lie because their public reputation matters more to them than their own, actual morals? What if they’d hate the person I am? What if the people in my life are the same way too? What if all of the support I have from my friends and coworkers…what if it’s all fake? What if they’re lying too? What if they’re just waiting for the “phase” to be over? Or just…doing what they have to as to not get in trouble with HR…or to just have a person to hang out with and just call a “ friend” for whatever. How can you believe anything anyone says or does? How can you really have faith in anyone or anything? You can’t know for sure. That’s just…terrifying, isn’t it? I feel sick.
@ConureConnor
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That must have come as a shock to you.
I'm sorry you had to face that.
But don't lose faith in the people that see you, love, you, unders
tand you, support you.
The majority of people are genuine and kind and honest.
Trust in that.
Be yourself 💜💕
@ConureConnor Oh gosh. I'm so sorry that this happened to you. I guess you can't really know whether people are lying or not, but I (in my personal opinion) don't think that they would say that just to keep up reputations. (Especially with where we are right now, that might demote their reputation frankly.) I totally get where you're coming from - i'm LGBTQ also, and I always have to wonder if someone really supports me or if they are just saying that. I'd like to try to think the best of people however. And just know there are lots of us on here who support you and other. *hugs if you want them* 💛
Hi~!
I want to be encouraging, but it is hard for me to summon the strength to when I feel deeply the same way too.
Perhaps knowing that someone is walking alongside you can be comforting. Or perhaps it makes you despair further even knowing that neither of us have the ability to change certain things. Regardless, I hope we will survive. Please do not forget to take care of yourself too, we need to if we are to survive 💛.
Hi~!
I want to be encouraging, but it is hard for me to summon the strength to when I feel deeply the same way too.
Perhaps knowing that someone is walking alongside you can be comforting. Or perhaps it makes you despair further even knowing that neither of us have the ability to change certain things. Regardless, I hope we will survive. Please do not forget to take care of yourself too, we need to if we are to survive 💛.