Trans girl

You're not alone. I'm going through a similar thing. I grew up and still live in a very conservative house hold and I feel very sad. I just started therapy and I'm finally actually talking to someone about my feelings and gender identity. I relapsed recently and a lot of mental health problems have gotten really bad. I really hope you know that there are people out there who will accept you. ❤️ Hope the best for you

@AlyOneDay

First off, I just want to say I'm so proud of you for doing the work! Getting to a place of accepting yourself, and actually taking action to change is a huge step in the right direction!

Second, I think you have two different things happening at once: you want to transition, and you don't like how you think about trans people.

You are absolutely, 100% allowed to transition! You don't need to earn it. We don't have a recruitment program. You know what is best for your body, and you are allowed to pursue any treatments that will help you feel better! You seem like you want to do hormones: great! Go do the dang thing! We will be cheering you on!!

As for beliefs that you have held about trans people, I would suggest enriching your mind. Read about trans people, watch trans creators, or even engage in the community (wherever that might be). Engagement and understanding are the best tools to fix ignorance.

Hi @AlyOneDay, you do deserve it, you do deserve to see YOU in the mirror, you do deserve to live and be happy. Like yo and others here have said, I also grew up in a conservative home, I grew up with people who said awful things about transgender people, I’ve said things myself but mine was to distract or protect myself from my own truth. I’m almost 50 and have been experimenting with women’s clothes since I was in single digits, didn’t know what I was or what it meant back then but it kept up through my entire youth, teenage years wearing my stepsister’s clothes when she wasn’t home, and into my 20’s, 30’s, and 40’s. The internet in my late teens taught me about “***’s” and I never had the courage to be honest with myself although I had always known my truth. I got married, had a child, still kept “her” hidden. Almost 10 years into my marriage the urges and mental burden became too much and one night I broke down and told my wife, she was so incredibly understanding and supportive….at first. After approximately two months her support started to turn into fear, something I may have brought on by moving too fast due to the excitement of not having to completely hide who I was but failing to take into account how my speed was causing her pain and fear of losing the “man” she married. That caused me to put Katie back in the closet. She was concerned that me doing that wouldn’t be healthy but I assured her I was fine and that time I did get to openly experiment and knowing the person I love the most knows my secret, I was fine with locking everything away. I have continued with monthly therapy where my therapist expressed the same concerns as my wife about hiding her away and I know that they are both right but what’s a girl to do but what she has to for the good of herself and family. My wife has been undergoing therapy and recently again expressed her concerns about me not being me and how she spoke with her therapist about it and how she wants me to be able to be me. We still have to talking to do about it, I know this was a long reply but I just want to show you that even when you think all hope may be gone things do happen and people do surprise you for the good. Honey don’t give up and please keep working to crack your egg and be YOU. We’re all here for and rooting for you ❤️