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this is an extremely hard message to put on but I have questions and I need help
I am finally getting over one problem that occured early in childhood and for whatever reason, I found something else to bother me.
I randomly got self conscious about my thighs stomach, ect. Mostly thighs though. Right away, I started counting calories and checking my weight when ever I would get the chance.I can't ever understand what is happening as I have been underweight my whole life and never had a problem with the way I looked. I knew it was wrong but I wanted to do it for some reason. I felt guilty and regretful when I ate and I hated sitting in certain ways. I would count calories for a week, feeling great but try and push myself out of it since I knew this was something I shouldn't be doing. I would constantly remind myself:
I dont need this
Im already underweight
What am I doing
Don't go his way
Im fine, Im happy
After pushing myself out of it, pushing my feelings back and forcing myself to eat, I would still check my weight. When I would think the scale was going "to high" I would count again for a week and push myself out of it again. I wouldn't stop thinking about food, and instead of counting calories I would completely skip breakfast and lunch, won't eat till dinner at somedays.I would be so happy about that. Thinking
I did it'
that wasn't hard
One of my friends is obviously worrying about me and forcing me to eat which makes me happy they are worried. WTF ITS WRONG!!! I dont understand what I am doing and I hate that I feel like I am knowingly walking into anerexia when I know I don't want to. I even tried throwing up at one point, being unsuccessful. But what I am going through is pissing me off and I dont understand why I am feeling the way I am. I havn't really mentioned this to any of my friends or family, who I know are safe and protecting.
If anyone knows what is going on with me and why I am feeling the way I am, please message me, it would be so helpful and I really need some answers. Thanks so much
Hi, just want to let you know, I have suffered with anorexia also, and I still am. Text me back, and we can talk.
@Provii
@MorgiePositive
Hey! Im so glad you can help me out, especially when I got really nervous because I put this on the wrong thread
Anyway, I am still getting use to the format at 7cups so I am not really sure how to find someone to message :') If you could message me, it would be perfect but otherwise, I am going to keep trying to find out how to do this
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Hey, so I found out how to chat with u but I can't chat with an adult listener unless they are a teen mentor
@Provii thank you for taking the time to share your story and trusting us. What your sharing has me nodding my head, as these thoughts creep into my mind about my stomach area often. You made me feel not alone, thank you.
I am new here - day one - so I have not yet gotten the lay of the community land. If anyone has a link to share where we can continue our chat on this topic that would be greatly appreciated. If I find one, I will navigate back and share it on this thread with you.
@Passionateideas
Hey! Thank you for taking the time in reading all of the stuff that I wrote and I am really glad people are listening, if you go to the communities tab, there is a bunch of communities on certain topics. I hope that is somewhat helpful as there are time I am still trying to find my way on the site ;)
I'm here for you. Messege me and we can talk!! :) @Provii
Would love to talk! For some reason I cant access your prof tho :(
You may be feeling out of control in other facets of your life and this is a way to gain control I had a dear friend tell me (she also suffered from an eating disorder) that anorexia is about control maybe something to consider@Provii
@lovingLychee115
I agree with that, I feel like I try not to eat to focus on that rather than things that happened to me in the past, trying to push it away, I have been trying to cope with something for a long time and it has taken over most of my life
I am not sure if thats the way I feel because i am constantly thinking of excuses to be happy by not eating which is making me determind to do it but at the same time I don't want to do it because its not healthy but for some reason I keep pushing myself in the same direction
@Provii Hi! I'm so sorry you're feeling that way. I don't have a lot of advice as I haven't gone through what you're going through. But I do know that sometimes we do things and think things that we don't want to. We all do. So I guess my advice would be being a little gentler to yourself if you can. We are just people doing our best. And we've all been influenced by society, our upbringing, and our genetic makeup. Sometimes when I'm feeling angry at a part of myself I do this thing that sounds a little weird... but I imagine that it's a baby that's crying. And I comfort it. And I think for example "I'm sorry depression that you're so upset and confused. I love you, and we're going to work through this together". I get that that toooootallly might not be your jam. Either way. It's not just you that feels this way. And if you met a friend that felt how you do I'm sure you would comfort them, and tell them that you loved them. And that it's okay that they're a human. So that's what I'm telling you. I don't know if there will be a time when you or I will be all the way better. But I do think the best way forward is to love ourselves, and find joy either way. You're strong for being here and for reaching out. I promise. As I said I can't comment too much on weighing yourself or body image issues. I went through a tiny bit of that but not enough to be any kind of authorty. But I do think it's important to say you (and I) are sooooo much more than the way our bodies look. Maybe a helpful start would be making a list of all the things you other than the way you look? I do that sometimes and it ends up being a nice exercise. And if you are having a hard time being kind to yourself in that way too maybe ask a friend to help, or imagine you are talking to yourself as a friend.
@neatLychee7091
Thanks so much for the advice! I think that would be an interesting idea and it definitley makes sense to me :)
@Provii
Hi there! I have never suffered from anorexia, but I looked like I did half my life till I got into my late 20's and had my first child. I feel like I can relate a lot to what or how you feel about your body, I hated the way I looked in pictures. I always covered up my body when I was thin and now I cover up even more that i am a little heavier. I hope this society can improve the way it portrays the way people 'should or should not' look so we all can just get on with our lives, stop worrying about our looks and focus on more important things like enhancing our relationships and loving ourselves for who we really are....God bless...
@Darwin14
Thank you for giving me your support and sharing the way you feel, I really appreciate that and for taking the time to read what I say. I love it when people are able to support others and talk about the way they feel at the same time so we could all support eachother. I really agree that it is important to stay healthy so now I can't understand why I am having problems with the way I look and feeling dirty and undeserving while always wanting to help others, its almost like I have wanted to neglect myself. but now I am trying to do something about it and push things into the past so I am glad there are people like you in this amazing community in 7 cups :3
@Darwin14
I feel like I do feel simular to you but I feel about this in several different ways and there are several different things that are compelling me to do what I am trying to do, its concerning me but I don't want to stop for some reason
anyways thank you for the support and for taking the time to read what I had to say!
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