angry and resentful
i am always there for my friend - over 100% of the time. And she is never there for me .
And here it is , a DAY before I am supposed to hop a train to go visit her on the ther side of the state....
and I get hardly any text messages , she was unsure of my train time, and has not called me in weeks.
She ONLY calls me to talk about her drama.
when there is her drama : i am expected to listen to her 24-7 : tetxts and calls.
Here, she can't even CALL me for 2 seconds to let me know she will pick me up.
Lonely now because my husband is snoring away. Scared because I left work very early on. I hope I didn't get into trouble
@Lonelykate
I hope you don't get into trouble :)
@KLM3278
thank you klm for caring. My friend who also works there accidentally took another blank certificate to give to me to fill out for that day. I got lucky.
I am so so tired but can't sleep. I read a few members from here who has the same sleep problems as me. I really need to cut down on coffee
how are you?
@Lonelykate
I have a very hard time sleeping. Have you heard of OLLY? Its a gummy!!! Totally drug free and natural. I chew 2 gummys and take 2 Aleve PM and it helps me sleep SO much!!!! My doctor says it is safe!!! I hope this can help you. HUG!!!!
@KLM3278
olly. Thank you! I will look into it
@Lonelykate
I hope it helps :)
@KLM3278
my doctor prescribed gabapentin. I just took 100mg. I feel it
@Lonelykate
Oh thats womderful! Sleep is very important!!! :)
@Lonelykate *hugs*
Dead tired because it is now 7:15 am and I have never been to bed
@SHEAINTGOTNOSHOES
I hope you can get some rest. :)
anxious
@resourcefulPond1641
I understand this struggle! HUG!
This is it. This is life now. I am actually numb and have shut down completely
@WonderlandAli
Why? Can I offer a hug!!!
@Laura
a bit confused but confident
Today I feel very disheartened and disappointed. I am an absolute and complete failure and waste of existence and I only seem to be here to cause others pain. Don't really much see the point anymore. I don't think I am destined to truly be happy, starting to think the existence of happiness is a bit of a lie. Seems life is just about going through the motions and paying the bills. Other people may not be bothered by it and go with the flow, but I am drowning without meaning. Oh well...I tried.
@CaptainHowdy
I wish I could have coffee with you. I get how you're feeling. It feels like a hamster wheel sometimes. But I know its also a lie. We have to fight against it. You're loved! God made you and cares!! Life is hard and I get scared and anxious to. But I promise you life is worth living. And life can change in a instant. Happy is something that i think is a lie. Becaue ot changes with our circumstances. JOY is found inside. :) Like watching snow fall!! Or a sunrise or hearing little kids laughing and playing. Or petting a puppy or kitten. I have 2 cats! I just want you to know you are not alone! I am praying for you. I just want you to know your existence is not a waste or mistake. Praying for you right this second! HUG!!!!
@KLM3278 Thank you, you are very kind
@CaptainHowdy
❤️❤️
Not at all happy about how things turned out, but I have to reach the point of accept or the last third of my life will be as miserable as the first 2/3's. My psychologist told me just last week sometimes when we stop looking for love, friends, happiness, etc, then they come.
@SHEAINTGOTNOSHOES
****acceptance not accept
Steady