Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in Tuesday 14th August 2018

Morning @rozie :)

My days going poop ahahha, not gone well so far and its only 10 in the morning. Forgot to take my meds ontime last night (knew this would happen) and now I am meant to be working from home but I just want to sleep. Also the doctors said they called yesterday and that I didn't pick up... which is really worrying me because I watched my phone all of yesterday and I don't even have a missed call logged.

Summary: Feeling stressed, tired, and fed up.

Anchor wise? I am just waiting to see my therapist. Right now shes my main anchor because I know shes a voice of reason and a safe place to work everything out. Also my boyfriend, hes been a constant in my life for nearly 5 years now I feel I can trust him and that he will stay.

Hi Rozie

What anchors me is to just remove myself from the stressor to give myself time to regroup.

Soon will be taking my husband to his cardiac rehab appointment and waiting for him to get through.

Also going to try to help a friend to find some help to tie her over after her husband died. She is in a pretty bad situation.

@rozie My anchor is my family. And my cat "Rose". And music so loud I can't hear my thoughts.

My day is going okayish. Didn't sleep well and work was really hard today.

Hey everyone!

My kids and my trauma fam are my strongest anchors.

💖

Hey Everyone :)

I wanted to say a goodbye to all the lovely members I have supported over the past two years. My time here at cups has come to an end but I want to make sure before I deactive my account that the members here know the real reasons that I am deactiving and leaving this site behind.

The trauma team and this community mean the world to me but in recent months the trauma team and its members who have been kicked off site for having a voice have been continually harassed and bullied. The Trauma team raised safety concerns and asked for a meeting with management and were firmly told No. Nine members of the team met for a meeting concerning the safety of our members and jointly put together a document which we submitted to management asking to meet. We thought this would be the most appropriate and professional way forward and would be welcomed but it wasnt.

We have been harassed by support plus and others outside of cups who have brought trauma to its knees and instead of those people being dealt with appropriately, members of this community and its team were subjected to punished by Laura and community management. The team were forced into self care, and conditions were placed upon them. I for example was told I had two weeks to prove myself and to hand over all the documents I had written over two years to support plus. The team decided no, these documents belonged to trauma and because our documents had been previously stolen by support plus, with our community and the listeners name removed, a couple words changed, and then support plus claiming ownership of our sessions, we decided, due to the hard work we had out into writing our sessions, we would be willing to share with those we could help and have done over the past two years but we were not going to just hand over everything for some other team to claim ownership of what we had written. If they really wanted to have sessions, why not write them themselves. We have never refused to help any community or any listeners wanting help and have always done so. But we wont be used either.

Since returning back from self care, those of us who really care about our members have tried to focus on you the members and get back to restablising our team, and focusing on you the members. A lot of damage was caused when community management kicked off our team and our members. Reenactment of peoples trauma histories were reacted by management and this needed dealing with.

But despite us getting our heads down, and despite listeners and members outside of trauma still having digs at certain individuals on this team, trauma has now once again lost valued team members who have done nothing but care for their community and have been sent an email by management full of false inccuracies and untruths. Because we are not doing what they wish. Apparently I am unkind, I am unprofessional. Apparently I do not provide resources to the trauma community. Apparently although I filled in a doodlepoll to meet with management, I have been accused of not being willing to move forward. I am baffled. I mean what am I actually being accused of here if I filled in the poll to meet and yet they claim Im not willing to move forward?? When I came back online after they kicked me into forced self care, hurt my feelings as well as my team and yet I came back here despite what they did, for the members and acted professionally since that for this team. Perhaps they should ask themselves what they really have a problem with here?

So before I depart. I want you all to know the truth of what is happening here. There are listeners on this team and members who are standing up for our members welfare and safety. And for the welfare and safety of this team. Sadly management do not like it because it does not fit their current goals or aims. And the listeners and members on this team, and even some of our members in this community have been penalised because of it.

However, this does not mean we do not care about you because we do. We have always cared about you and always will. But we cannot keep you safe when we are not being able to lead this community any longer. And that saddens us too.

You guys mean the world to us and many of you we know and many of you have come a long way..

Always be strong and always try and believe in yourselves, because we have always believed in you guys, but sadly we are not being allowed to do our roles, or be respected for the work we have done any longer. We cannot be the role models for you either when we ourselves are being used in that process.

Love you guys

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Oh My Goodness

This is not good for me. They have been so helpful to me since Sept of Last year.

Talk about finding our voice? Talk about what this site is supposed to represent. Helping people work through emotional difficulties, then to kick off the people that were doing a great job helping us. That STINKS TO HIGH HEAVEN😖😖. So will I be kicked off if they don't like what I say

??? Why find a voice and why use my brain if it is still going to be controlled?

I realize there are 3 sides to every story

Where were they when I was paying to be Victimized by a Therapist and I told them with nothing more than you need to finish out your month and stay in Therapy. That is why I will not pay again for a Therapist that is not monitored. Why because they hold the credentials??

I am confused by all this. Is this the family and support that we want to partake of? Was that the best solution for the welfare of this community.

Where we go from here really is dependant on what the new foundation they are trying to establish for this community.

Quick to listen and slow to speak. Listen to the inner voice of reason is what I am going to base my future status on.

Not angry but confused about what messages are being sent out

This all is NOT ok!!!!!! I'll am so mad and sad!!!!!

hi, i just joined a few minutes ago and i hope i'm doing this right - i tend to process information kinda slow. i have tourettes, along with severe anxiety, ocd, add, moderate to severe depression, symptoms akin to mild epilepsy, aspergers, and possibly mild schizotypal. my anxiety and grief can be so painful, but the things that happend to me and my family over the past 25 or so years is what's broken me. around 2002/2003 things had built up to where something happened to me. i could only relate that my gestalt and that my periphial functioning were broken/weren't working. around that time i was cooking dinner and had several trains of thought in my mind talking to each other - finally i thought 'i have to do this for my kid' (i believe i meant to face what was wrong and the grief inside), and the instant reply in my mind was 'you're gonna die', then i thought 'i have to'. it's been slowly making sense to me that what happened was i became broken into little peices of myself and could only experience myself 1 peice at a time. ever since i was alittle kid i've know i experience life differently than others i've known, and my emotions have always seemed fake, or like i'm being childish or just putting on a show. i'm in a percarious place right now, and don't know how long i have with what family i have left and how long i'll have a roof over my head - but i'm doing everything i can think of to take care of my family, stay in contact with my kid, and make sure i'll have a good chance at having somewhere to stay and be in contact with kind hearted people. anyway, i tried to keep it short, there's alot more to it, i'm just trying to be ok on a daily basis. thank you for listening, and i hope you all find the relief and comfort you need

I feel confused, sad and hurt. My support base has been disappearing irl and on here. I'm not just talking about my trauma family but in other parts of this site as well. It's so hard to open up to people. I'm just tired. A fort and chocolate sounds good right now. Also to answer today's check in my daughter is my anchor. I am also coming to the conclusion I need more anchors in my life. I don't even know where to begin.