Domestic Violence Support Community - how do you feel today?
I feel like crap since Sunday. In a nut shell I feel depressed. My boyfriend, who has been emotionally abusive, made me feel like I was lower than dirt after a great 3 day weekend. He took me to Vegas for my bday. Mind you for my actual bday I barely got a happy birthday from my loved ones. I know we lead busy lives and I feel stupid for this but it sucks when year after year you don't get a present or even a cake. I went to get my cake this year because I felt it's only fair to have cake on my day too and not kid everyone else's birthday. This was actually the first time he decided to do something nice for me and I was happy but overly cautious. I had a great time for the most part until it was time to come home. We got into a silly argument (I was accused of losing his boarding pass although I didn't recall ever even seeing it) and he left me alone where I was eating in the food court. He got up and grabbed a bag he was helping me carry and took off. I sat there feeling hurt and like an idiot and just kept taking small bites of food while I tried to make sense of what had happened. I was left without my purse which he took. Of course my phone was there and I had no boarding pass. I started walking towards the information centers where you find out which gate your flight is leaving from when I realized I was on the opposite side of where I needed to be. I ran to the correct gate and by then I heard my name being called. Realizing I really don't matter sucks.
@MutedRainbow
Oh no you poor dear that's horrible and totally not okay yeah family may be busy but it doesn't hurt to ring or text message you saying happy birthday that's so sad I'm 23 and my parents still buy me presents and cake and same with both of my brother's there both 27 yes old and still get cake and girts and a call saying happy birthday I feel so sorry for you and your boyfriend you can do way better than him you don't need someone like that its not good for your health and having a relationship like that sorry to say but it won't last you deserve to be treated a lot better you have to start thinking about yourself do what makes you happy do what feels right for you you don't need his BS your a strong person follow your heart and soul all the best :)
Really struggling today. So confused lost and lonely.
Depressed, lonely, numb
@braveKitten8218
Sometimes being lonely is between good and bad on the good side you get to do things that you enjoy doing on your own and you get things done without worrying about anything but also being lonely is sad cause you want to enjoy things with other people that you like to do as well what they like but sometimes it's hard to find those people that have time try to do the best you can if your down or having a bad day and if you can go for a walk or sit in your garden if you have one and just enjoy the sunshine with a cup of coffee or tea and relax close your eyes let your worried be taken away by the wind and do what makes you happy and smile all the best 👍👍
Lonely sad drained
@discreetFig4569
Hang in there just be yourself being you is the best thing find things that you enjoy doing to cheer your self up all the best be strong be you be unique 👍👍
I'm struggling to differentiate between trauma from abuse and feeling a our current situations. Firs anyone else feel that way?
A month ago I realized how abusive my 4.5 year relationship is. I started to make a plan for my daughter (7, not his) & I to leave in early Jan (give me time to save). A fuse was lit Friday & my plan exploded Saturday.
His mom wants me to put a car in my name/insure it for him because he doesn't have a license. His car broke down, so naturally he needed my car for work & told me he would get his car fixed soon, it's been 3 months. Having me stuck at home is a great control tactic.
I said no & stuck to my guns. He told me that if I don't do it & he loses his job then our relationship won't survive. Saturday I said I can't communicate with him ever & he said it's because I always yell at him (which is true because he will not let me get a word in edgewise and then I get frustrated and my voice gets a little higher), but his voice gets low instead & his facial expression makes me shrink back. I told him he keeps trying to guilt me and he yelled at me to get the F out of his room and slammed the door.
I went to my mom's until bedtime then slept with my daughter in the basement. We had plans with my family to go to the beach for my birthday so we decided it would be best for us to take a few days apart. However he keeps messaging me how he misses me and loves me so much and it's God's plan for me to be in his life. Eventually I ignored the messages and his 14 year old daughter reached out begging me to reply.
I'll be living there for the time being. But I'm calling a DV place hopefully today.
Full of anxiety, anticipating my return home. My birthday beach trip away from my abuser have been nice (aside from all the messgaes he sent me).
I never realized how much I shiver and shake. I always thought I was super cold, but I think it's anxiety coursing through my body. I feel sick to my stomach that I'm (even temporarily) going back.