Just trying
trigger warning - abuse, captivity.......ive been finding it hard to deal with my trauma lately, and after a recent attempt I'm trying very hard to get to a stable place again. But I'm struggling to open up, it's so hard to ask for help when you need it the most🙁 but a friend told me to just say it even if it doesn't make sense to other people, so here I go
Cults are bad, people can be evil 😥 did you know there's still millions of slaves in the world today i can't remember the number but it's really shocking. Cage, not allowed to wear clothes, no bed, not allowed to eat human food electric shock collers, whips, sex multiple times a day from the age of 4, beatings, burns, knives, chains, fear, constant fear constant pain. Ok this is the most I've opened up in a while so I'm gonna shut up now
You're stronger than all of us.
@limegreenSugar9416 it doesn't always feel that way 🙁 but thankyou for your kind words 💖💖
@easyScarf7950
@Tinywhisper11 Thank you all so much 💖 I know this shall pass, I just haven't felt this bad in such a long time🙁 and this time it's like I have no words to talk about any of the things I'm feeling. But don't worry I am not gonna give up I'm just gonna try harder🙂💖 I love you all 💖
@Tinywhisper11
Hi Sweet Lola,
You know you have this awesome group of people who really deeply care about you. It's like a giant on-line family and support group all rolled into one. It's true, you don't "really" know who we all are, but so many of these same familiar names have offered unconditional support for you, over and over, you know we really do care about you.
How does that help? I am not sure. In a way, maybe just knowing you aren't totally alone in the world. We are all part of this community. We want to support each other. We want to collectively make the world a better place, each in our own little way.
Anytime you need to release those memories and thoughts into the cosmos, just post them here, and you know there will be a group of us looking out for you. We care. It's the best we can do. We love your presence here with us.
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@DancingSongbird579 @peachThinker662 @jesusredeemedme2425 knowing that you are all here for me means so much to me 💖 I love you all 💖
We love you too <3
❤️ you
@Tinywhisper11
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Words aren’t necessary… Just let us know when you’re struggling so we can love on you <3
Mom said to send you a HUGE hug from her <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 awwww💖💖
@Tinywhisper11 TW!
For the longest time the memories were vague. Bad but vague. I've heard that when our subconscious mind starts to feel safe enough, every memory our minds tucked away starts to show up. Therapy is a little like opening Pandora's box when it comes to trauma and it is unbelievably hard. It's not just the memories our minds hold either, there's the body memories. There's the guilt and the shame and the fear. The self hatred, I know all too well. But there's also this deep ache sadness and loss. The scars. So many scars, both inside and out. I try to ignore the outside ones, keep the worst covered. The inner scars are harder to face. They're the ones that make it so you can't look yourself in the eye in mirrors. Everything has to be acknowledged, processed and integrated. There isn't an easy way to do it. I wish there was.
I know there's so many that still need to be saved , 2 weeks ago 16 were rescued and to some it might seem like such a small number but even 1 child rescued is amazing.
We survive horrible things at the hands of others. Now we need to live. We deserve to live.
Living, is triumphing over the abusers.
@jesusredeemedme2425 Exactly!
@mytwistedsoul hugs my Angel 💖 I'm sorry you have to struggle with all theese things to😥😥 16 rescued, that's amazing💖 I hope they will all be ok. Thanks soul, I love you 💗
@Tinywhisper11 (hugs you tight) I just want you to know you're not alone. I've been there at this spot that you are. I wanted and tried to quit. For what ever reason it didn't work. There's a reason we're still here, maybe it's to help others, maybe it's to spread awareness.
Definitely ditto here too <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 thanks kiara💖
@mytwistedsoul thankyou angel 💖
@Tinywhisper11
we was thinking today wanted to share this with you best thing we can do to our abusers is to live and heal as in the abuse their goal at times trigger warning was to end our life or control us but when we live and heal that just what they did not want us to do at all also when we become free they lose again as they lost control over us
we was wondering today what our abusive brother must think now that we free and living best life we can as with our abusers they still know about us and well they hear how well we doing
^^^This. <3
Love the pfp btw <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
thanks got it online from a site that coply right free so can even change them after downloading them we love it too
@stormieandpaws that's very true 💖 it's like we've both been given a second chance at life, and we should not waste it 💖💖hugs you tightly 💖 thanks for being here💖
@Tinywhisper11
hugs yes so right we been given 2nd chance at life in away we feel us who been given this see life differently then others do as we know the dark side of life and the light side too we know and feel blessed to just be free to live as we want to live not to be abused and controlled by our abusers so now we see the good side of life in very detailed ways even the tiny blessing most just take for granite too
hugs glad you here too
@stormieandpaws 💖 hugs you tightly 💖
@Tinywhisper11
we not been on much partly due to isolating and well we to be strong so when we down we really not a round as much
maybe something we need to change
@stormieandpaws I'm doing the same thing😕 I'm also not around much because I isolate when I'm struggling the most🙁 I think it's something we both need to work on💖
@Tinywhisper11
do agree we need to work on this we use to the one who supports other emotionally and mentally this started very young with having to be the emotionally strong one as in away at least emotionally we had to take care of mom she even when we was very young was like a scared small child so even as young as 2yr we was the one emotionally supporting her telling her it would be ok that we was with her this happened a lot when dad was working out of town only coming home on weekends she put us in bed with her so she not be alone
so for us this a learned habit hard wired within us also we was never allowed to show emotions around parents and when it we got punished too
it kinda hard to not isolated when we feeling emotions offline we can not even cry around others use to be unable to cry at all so ya need to work on this have been some
That breaks my heart too 💔
@Tinywhisper11 I'm so sorry you're going through this. I can't fully understand the pain you've experienced, but I want you to know that your voice matters. You deserve safety, care, and healing. Please keep holding on. You are not alone. If you ever need someone to talk to I’m here. I just got out of an abusive relationship, and haven’t been sleeping much ha so feel free to reach out. Stay strong 🫶
@resourcefulBike hugs you tightly 💖 I'm so glad you were stuck in a abusive relationship😥 thank God your free now 💖 we will both be ok 💖
@resourcefulBike
thanks for sharing we was in abusive married and got out long time ago. but even now can effected our sleep. so glad you free and now can heal from the trauma you went through within the relationship
hold on and be safe
@Tinywhisper11
Thanks for sharing all this with us.
You are really brave and amazing🥹
@specialNatural3801 thankyou💖💖
@Tinywhisper11
Your welcome 🤗
Just thinking of you! Just because., You are..... Here, in my heart, Even if i accidently FART!!!!! 😁🤣
That's just what old uncles do. (make jokes that stink) Oh, please... stop me!
Sending Uncle hugs and love. 💖.Are you feeling any better?
@IsayUncle 😂😂😂 please don't fart.. It's not nice for me having to live at fart level♿😂😂
Thanks for checking in uncle John 💖I really appreciate it 💖 I'm doing better but very slowly. But I'm gonna keep trying 💖 I love you Uncle John 💖
@Tinywhisper11
I'm glad you're feeling better slowly. Can you make it faster please?
I miss you. Are you too tired?
@IsayUncle I'll try speed things up😁😁
Yeah I'm tired both mentally and physically, I can't seem to get the energy to keep on trying 😥 finding something to hold on to is not always easy, but I'm not giving up I bet need time 💖🙂
@Tinywhisper11
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@Amanda84 💖😘
@Tinywhisper11
Repetitive hardships can wear our energy out and sap our genuine love of possibilities.
Remember how it feels .... or felt...., in the past when you overcame despondency and depression. That's the only thing that keeps me going. I get tired of trying. I get tired always doing something to feel better. Your physical condition is 1000% worse than mine but I get tired of my pysical therapy and things always hurting. Unable to move easily...... BUT, You... so much more. I get tired of having no local or physical friends. I get tired of being poor and having to work so hard just to exist. I get so freaking tired sometimes, I just want to give up..... BUT THEN
I Remember how it feels .... or felt...., in the past when I overcame despondency and depression.
You need to remember.
You know me good enough that i'm always coming up with goofy and tough guidelines to pull pull myself up by my bootstraps. We need to come up with some fresh ideas, for you to do the same. Sometimes the old techniques get stale for a while, so we find new ones until the old one refresh themselves and become powerful again.
Where do you want to start? Some new, something fresh.... with accounatability for now.
Note: Pulling oneself up by the bootstrap is an impossible task but it's a reminder that we can pull ourselves up through impossible situations.
Soooo. young lady, it might be time to pull yourself up by the bootstraps! I love you, my favorite Niece! 💖. Let's do this!...... When you're ready, think about it. 😃
@IsayUncle hugs the best uncle in the world 💖 I'm sorry you struggle so much too🙁 thank God for 7 cups💖 something new🤔 I will definitely think about that 💖 I keep pulling myself out, but then slip right back under🙁 but I'm seeing my psychologist more often at the moment, so I'm trying hard💖 Xmas is coming and my birthday in November 😁 so at the moment the joy of Xmas is what's helping me and my little pigs💖😁💖 don't worry Uncle John we will both get better soon 💖💖 I love you 💗
@Tinywhisper11
I know you are trying very hard. 7 Cups is wonderful and helps us go so far, and that is very far. That is wonderful, you seeing the psycologist more often. Is it helping a little bit?
Our repetitive troubles gets corrisive to our goodness if we don't constantly hit the refresh button.
The refresh button needs to be stronger and bolder as time slogs forward but our spirit surges upward.
I am not dismissing your fears. I'm very sensitve about your doubts. But i encourage the seashore. Is that too much. Do you want me "not to encourage" you to the sea shore or at least a shuttle ride. I'd understand..... But still Bigger and Bolder refresh buttons. You Can Do It and your amazing self will shine within your own heart again!
I have another refresh button you can help me with. I need accountability to start my holiday gifts now. Do you want to help me out with that between a specialized thread and messeging?
I know you are fighting as hard as you can. So these are litttle teaser dancers are just to play around with so you can enjoy some rewards too maybe.
I love you 😃💖. Have a good restful evening and a bright start to the day. (((Hugs)))