I don't want anyone to know :(
I don't think ill ever be able to tell anyone. It was disgusting and so am I. Ivecprobably already said too much.
@MissyAmerica Hey Missy thanks for posting and sharing with us how you feel about yourself. I don't know you or what your experiences are, but anyone who has suffered trauma of any kind, I personally do not consider disgusting and I dont think many people would either. Infact most people feel only compassion, empathy and warmth towards someone who has suffered. I know some kinds of trauma can make people feel incredibly bad about themselves, and its really sad when that happens because trauma doesnt define who a person is. It can affect them, it can make people really hate themselves and see themselves as bad when they are not but I hope in time you can come to realise, that no matter what happened to you, it doesnt make you disgusting or any of the other negative things you may feel about yourself. Its just sad that for you right now, this is how your feeling and I am sorry that you are left feeling like this, because it must sux 
@dancingRainbow45 thank you.
@MissyAmerica
If you do not want to tell anyone in your life for fear of judgement, that is your call. But, with that in mind, 7cups is a place where we do not judge eachother. Here no one thinks you are disgusting or wrong, we only want to help bring you up. You should not have to feel like this is something you have to keep all to yourself. There are many listeners here who I am sure would be more than happy to talk with you without judgement. Reaching out can be scarry but it does help you heal.
@UntilThen I don't know if it will trigger someone if I try... I don't want to.do that to anyone. Idk I am scared.
@MissyAmerica if the only thing you are scared about is triggering someone else, you can put a trigger warning in the title of your post! But if you
@MissyAmerica If your worried about triggering someone, take a quick look at our guidelines on posting in the trauma community on our sub community page. We encourage people to always put a trigger warning if they believe their post could trigger others, and we ask people not to make graphic, indepth or explicit posts/images particularly around abuse issue etc to avoid triggering others.