I had to vent somewhere so.. .
Hi guys I just wanted to announce who i am let's call me sa, so from India i am ant to share about my history idk if it's complex or big trauma but my father is an alcoholic who will never recover I am 25 in like 10 days I have been living with for 23 years he used to curse to makes seanes and hit me my mom and sister for a long time and I was patheticly scared or over tensed about him so i didn't do anything else then hitting him whenever he comes used to beat him up but i was so much scared of him he is huge I am really tiny guy actually so finally 2 years before i found a ay to make money to send him to a de-addiction center now days we don't want hin to recover we have sent him to center many I never recovered now we just want to lock him up somewhere i thought life will be fine once he is gone but it's not for money now I am running i lost my friends my colligs are my friends now once i switch job I will have to switch friends i know this because none of my friends from my last job even call me these even after i call I say i miss they days they never reach i know the same will happen to my current circle ⭕ too so i am scared i will neverfeel real connection to anyone anymore never had any relationship all of my friends are telling how their partner did this and that I feel happy for them but the feelings of why not me get me hard this days i am jealous of my friends which makes me guilty and so on idk am I gonna i sry i thought i should give an intro I want to talk all this somewhere life feels hopeless actually idk see any meaning only think I take pride or feeling meaning full is that i take of my mom and sister but idk how long I can do that i already showing my frustrations in life to them a lot these days i try to control it i unable to do i have been working for like 6 years now unable buy anything i wanted for my self i don't even own a good mobile I just use my dad's phone since be can't use mobile in centers life feels hard man sry of long txt.
@impartialPenny1276
How about joining a support group for friends and family of alcoholics? You don't have to do this alone. Many groups are online now, so you don't even have to go to one in your local area.
@impartialpenny1276 I'm so sorry ur going through this 🙁 My father is same... he used to and still sometimes becomes very abusive and gets angry even though I know he must be frustrated himself I can't help but feel hurt and scared... I've had my childhood and teen age years in constant fear almost every day and wait for the abuse to happen... We've even had to call police and involve them many times because it gets so extreme... Ik how u must've been feeling...
The only thing I feel like doing when this happens is taking care of my own mental health first...
I'd love to be ur friend and wish you have a great time here! It's a very nice community where you can vent or find support u need 🫂❤️ it's okay please be gentle to yourself ❤️ I wish you the best!✨🤍
@impartialPenny1276 hey im so glad you took the initiative of sharing your story here. You are brave. People here are supportive - Theres a lot one can learn about helping oneself on the healing journey.
I come from a toxic home too. And yes the pain of it affects your well being and your faith in relationships and family.
You have responsibility of family as well as meeting your own needs. You definitely need a place to share your emotions - its part of being healthy...
I know it can be hard to see others looking happier and doing better off than you but life's really not a competition. We all were born with different circumstances and we have different tests to go through. They, too, will have some struggles even if they seem to be doing better off. Don't compare as it usually leads one nowhere. Focus on building a better, happier you!
Don't lose hope my friend ... bit by bit , life can get better. Times dont remain the same ... better days will come ✨️