I had a bad day yesterday and the stress hasn't left.
because I am not as knowledgeable as some people I know
I keep on reliving the same depressing thoughts about some personal matters and it ruins my days entirely. As well as makes me want to end days faster by going go sleep early.
I got cat called twice yesterday and it made me feel scared and anxious, to a point that I had trouble sleeping that night.
Hi. Today I am feeling vulnerable because ...
I have been instructed, ok well highly encouraged, to tell family, friends, just more people in general perhaps, that I have an eating disorder. This is a highly intimidating and scary thing to do. Especially when in first telling my doctor, I'm not even sure if she believed me 
She does now - good or bad, I'm not sure; but at least we are closer to 'on the same page.'
Telling people this IRL is very scary because I have zero control over their reaction or what questions they'll ask.
Me? I think being vulnerable requires a lot of trust. And so when I think I trust someone enough to tell them, "Yeah, so I have an eating disorder," and they state aloud their disbelief or ask a ton of questions that basically show their disbelief ... it makes me never want to tell anyone again. I know that is extreme, but it makes it very difficult to tell the next person - professional or friend/family. Sometimes a big part of me wants to just run and hide under a rock, curl myself into a ball, and cry, and then cry more.
@Laura @lovelyllama13 @anomalia @pinkfluffyunicorns8706 @ michelle-who is not on 7cups :(
I went to a poetry night tonight by myself and felt super socially anxious. I also encountered some people there that I have had troubled relationships with, and was reminded of how I've struggle to have friends here. I am glad that I went though, and I'm grateful for my friend Joyce being there and being nice to me.
no one likes me.
i can't get the courage to talk to my parents.
Im feeling all the feels because of what i have done in my relationship
...of all the damn voices in my head that won't shut up for just a moment!