36 and no idea what to do?
I'm 36, I have fibromyalgia, lupus, PTSD, lost my parents and I've lost my way in life. I'm depressed and isolated. I am awaiting ADHD referral and I'm struggling with living life. I'm not sure where I belong and what to do anymore with myself. I have no one close to me. All I want is to find peace. I don't know where home is anymore. I'm want to find meaning, love and cause. I'm exhausted inside and wish I had motivation to be better for myself but I just don't know anymore. Depression is tough as I just want to happy and relaxed. Stress gives me pain. I get frustrated at myself alot and just want to snap out of it. Family is not something I feel close to share any vulnerability with. Friends I don't want to burden with my depressed self and I'm hardly in contact much. I feel like I'm living in a weird world were I can't feel normal or strong. I'm only existing to hope I have a purpose that gives me new meaning.
@sociableBirch35
Hi,
You are seen. You are heard. You can chat with the Nona feature on here for emotional support.
Sending you hugs, if you're okay with them â¥ï¸
You sound very in between places and though it's an opportunity for finding that purpose again, community, home, and sense of self, it's a tremendous challenge. It's a lot for anyone to rebuild and uncover again. And yet, I hear you fighting to keep going forwards -- to get that diagnosis, to get better, to find answers and peace.
Keep doing what you can. You aren't alone here. And if it's of help/interest, connect with a listener to get support ð§¡
@sociableBirch35 I'm close in age if you want to talk, I'll just listen even if you want. You're not alone. :)
You will find yourself. Your journey has meaning. It will all fall into place. We are here to support you on your path. 💛
@sociableBirch35
You will be fine dear just give some time to yourself.
@sociableBirch35 You have already started your way to amazing change. You already realize that your feeling a particular way a something needs to change. Whats important is to fibd what makes you happy and groubd yourself.
@sociableBirch35 its ok... life does have ups and downs, and i feel you. i was in that state once, but i managed to recover. its all stress or pain, in one form or the other. i actually am a bts army. have you heard of bts? hope you have. either ways, their songs are the ones which made me heal. you can try listening to "Answer: Love myself", "Microcosmos", or Not today. Run is good too. they will help your pain.
Thank you for sharing this story....
I don’t have advice but I feel the same way. It’s not just you. This is hard.
You are not alone. I too feel stuck. I'm 36 I have no girlfriend. Things don't seem to be going how I would have liked them to. I wanted to be a family man. Wife and kids. I like being alone. But I would like someone who I can share my life with