Disgusted With Myself ****TW****

I completely understand what you feel. I used to not like my body either, I thought I was fat and ugly. I compared myself to my friends. But then I gained the strength to try to change. I had the motivation to exercise every day, I started eating normally. Even though sometimes it's not perfect, I highly suggest you gain strength! It'll be fine. When it comes to food, eat as much as you want. Sometimes a person doesn't feel like eating and that's normal. You shouldn't force yourself to eat. However... specifically rejecting food is still quite unhealthy. It's worth contacting a doctor, maybe he'll give you some medication for it and it will be better. Remember not to overdo it with the amount of food or water.

@jesusredeemedme2425 you're not alone 🤍 I've always been overweight, last year I realised how bad it has gotten... my eating habits i was obsese for my age... I joined gym and lost 10kgs in a month but my motivation again dropped.. I changed gyms but didn't felt okay, I was going to one with my friends but didn't saw any changes bcus of diet... and soon left due to exams... This year I can't join one either but I'm slowly reducing the amount I eat... To keep it if not better, just under control, I'm still pretty fat and don't like how i look... but I realise it's not always about looks and appearance... 🤍 don't be too hard on urself ❤️ it's hard to find motivation... I realise diet is very important.

you can maybe go for small walks/cardio while listening to songs nearby and slowly reduce the amount ur consuming, drink more water... Even if it's at home just 30 mins of simple workouts can make huge difference.🤍

You're Loved as you are ❤️ don't do it for others but for yourself 🤍 it's your body and it needs to be treated with care and gentleness, no one is perfect ❤️ everyone has their Insecurities, You're trying and even thinking of a change and that matters. 🤍

You're Awesome ❤️

Sending lots of love towards you!🐾❤️

@jesusredeemedme2425 Hey Kiara, I can feel how much you’re struggling, how loud those thoughts are right now . But food is not  the enemy here. Neither is your body. You’re trying to cope and food became one of the few things that felt safe — that doesn’t make you weak... it makes you human. That part of you that’s reaching for comfort is not  bad — it’s trying to help you survive something bigger.

And your body? I know it feels like the problem right now but it’s not betraying you — it’s holding all this pain and it’s still getting you through each day. That’s not disgusting. That’s resilience.
It might help to start small — like pausing before eating.... just to ask “what am I actually feeling?” or write down what you want to eat....not to stop yourself, but to understand. Sometimes naming the emotion takes the edge off the urge. 

@jesusredeemedme2425 I've been there, lost 100 lbs but still hate my body. Yet this same body has kept me alive, carried children, nursed children, sustained scars from dumb things and scary things, sometimes glorified God by providing hands-on help to others, and more. You're not alone. One day at a time, my friend. Today, let's choose to be thankful for whatever parts of our body are working today.

@jesusredeemedme2425 You might try light exercise, I over eat all the time, especially tacos, but I do weight lifting so I've kept fitter than most my age. I think of it as working out so I can eat everything I want lol. 

Would you still feel bad if everyone in the world was fat? Some cultures in the world don't see being overweight as an ugly thing.

Maybe try to avoid watching movies, series, and scrolling social media less. Also keep up eating healthy and exercising even though it's easier said than done.

@jesusredeemedme2425

I know I'm a guy but I'm going through body issues as well...

Remember what I told you once before that when you spiraling to pause and wait until you're thinking clearly?

Now is the time!

If food is comforting what are some healthy choices of it that can provide satisfaction as well?

How can you incorporate physical exercise into your do. People do realize it but exercise can be really simple,

A standing pose that releases energy and allows exertion or a squatting pose of the same nature.

You're actually in a good position to improve, it's just about capitalizing on it so the next time you feel that way pause and think about next steps.

Don't read Cosmopolitan and try to put yourself into the shoes of the person you want to be.

Last but not least, pray...try to see yourself as God sees you which is one of his beloved daughters. 

God sees your whole story and knows everything that led to those circumstances.

Don't feel ashamed because he loves you despite what the world tries to project onto us.

Love you!

It’s going to be okay and it’s completely fine to be chubby I promise and ur not a whale and it’s not pathetic on how ur coping with food I usually do it and like I said ur not a fat hippo at all and you aren’t disgusting okay ur doing amazing❤️❤️