I Feel Like Garbage…
I’ve been making so many bad decisions lately… I just wanna hide. Become invisible… Disappear.
I don’t want to be me anymore.
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The loneliness… it’s so dark. Deep. Screaming into the abyss… Idk how to cope with it anymore. I forgot how to smile…
@jesusredeemedme2425
So what’s the issue?
If you think you are garbage read my post Abandoned. Do you do volunteer work, check in on a neighbour what do you do that’s unselfishly for others? There’s always people who have it worse practicing empathy helps us stop feeling sorry for ourselves. I am quitting life now because everyone is so worried about nothing and have no empathy for people who actually need support. Basically go out and do some good today instead.
@jesusredeemedme2425 I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. its okay to hide , to feel like being invisible is the best thing to happen. But you're not invisible. and you matter ❤️ no matter how many bad decisions you might've made, it doesn't change the good deep within yourself. and you don't always have to act strong. it's completely okay to have times like these. Sending you lots of love to you ❤️❤️
@jesusredeemedme2425 first of all, you are not garbage. You are amazing and we appreciate you for all you do. Second of all, wanna tell us more about the bad decisions you feel like you are making? Maybe we can sort it out or calm you a little
And last but not least
I can’t share details, sorry!
@jesusredeemedme2425 sure 😊 if it helps, i clasify my fuckups by asking if someone died because of something i did. If the answer is no (what it always is as i´m not a criminal), the *** is not a bigone and is a minor inconvenience/detour in the grand scale at worst 😊
Exactly. Mine isn’t like bad bad, just embarrassing lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 ah, no big deal then. Worst thing coming out of it longterm is adding it to the every embarassing memory i have nighttime slideshow, but eh. Not the first and not the last, so put your feet up, have some tea, and shrug it off like a queen you are 😁
Well, they WERE bad, but not like “the world implodes” bad…
@jesusredeemedme2425 well, if the world is not imploding, i promiss it will be okay 💖 You are awesome and you got this 🌻
Thank you <3
I know what all of that's like, at least how you word it... You're truly not a bad person though. You deserve compassion.
@jesusredeemedme2425
Hide if you need to.
Rest if you need to.
But don't let it be long, that you are hiding for.
There's nothing wrong with you at all, I know it's hard to hear that from other people, you need to believe it yourself.
But, you are a kind person with a big heart and it's ok to focus on you.
It's ok to just sit still.
It's ok to not feel good but ask for support, don't struggle alone 💜💕
@jesusredeemedme2425
It is not fair that you feel that way, and I am certain all those here and all who know you would want to take those thoughts and feelings away for you if we could. Maybe something we say might lessen the impact of those thought processes, but if they do not that is still okay (even if it doesn't seem that way). Sometimes we need to feel the feels for a while to make our way out to the other side. It isn't fair nor nice. We shall be here to cheer you on as you run that gauntlet, and ready with a shoulder or hand for you to lean on should you need it.
I am not sure if you find catharsis through music, but just in case I offer a few suggestions of songs that might prove a helpful cushion on your road:
Don't try so hard by Queen
Sunshine after the rain by Elkie Brooks
Don't give up by Peter Gabriel and Kate Bush
Somewhere over the rainbow by "Iz" Kamakawiwo'ole
Wake me up when September ends by Greenday
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@jesusredeemedme2425
I, too, probably haven't made the best decisions lately. I can relate to not wanting to be oneself, to hide away. This life can be cruel sometimes, and as we do not know everything, we can't always make the best decisions.
We have flaws, and that's okay. We're here to help you process how you feel about them. We will also respect if you just want to retreat. That's what I did, and it did help.
Music helped. I stopped listening to it for a while because I couldn't relate to anything, and it grew stale.
Look Up Child, by Lauren Daigle comforted me.
What kind of decisions? Are they small everyday things or big pivotal matters? I hope you're not being too hard on yourself....
Here for you ❤️
@jesusredeemedme2425
Nothing huge, just not great ones lol
Hey it happens.. but trust me every bad decision may be a way you learn what is bad and what s not...seeing that your Christian let me encourage you that God loves you no matter what and he is still welcoming you...we all make mistakes, even I felt really guilty for my bad decisions..that's when I remembered that it is not the end of the world and God is willing to forgive and forget it..so should you
I ve never replied before so I apologise for any mistakes....I hope it helps you
Haaww sometimes I think the same
