So, This Is What Peace Feels Like?? 💝
Hi sweetie's 😊💕
I kindly request y'all to take a few minutes to read this, because I really feel like sharing it with you all 😊💗
I'm feeling way lighter today 🌸 just wanna share it with y'all. n want to thank you for y'all to be with me during my heavy day's 😊💕 I'm so grateful 💗.
So, For a long time I’ve been feeling… heavy inside. i don't even realise I'm slowly eaten up away, i lost myself tbh.
Even though I was active ( on or off the community), cheerful in conversations, laughing and replying like everything was fine… there was still something quietly pulling me down. The strange part was that I couldn’t even figure out what it really was. It was just this constant weight living somewhere in my chest. I felt grumpy with everything 😕
Recently I decided to step away for a few days, just get out of my harsh environment, even using cups or any other app's. like I took a break from everything from being online, from the noise, from the things that were draining my heart.
I also made a decision that was honestly very painful. I let go of something that had been aching deep inside me for a while. It wasn’t easy, and part of me worried about hurting someone… but I knew I had to choose peace for my own heart. prioritise me in first place. cus... i don't want to drain myself while prioritising to fill someone's cup. Sounds selfish but I just made a move, I quietly closed that door, even though it hurt to do it ❤️.
After that, I went to stay with my cousins for a couple of days… which somehow turned into almost a week:) 😊 n I can’t fully explain what those days did for my soul. i cherish every single moment's 😊💗
We laughed so much, i honestly forgot abt all issues I've going through. they kept me lost into craziness xD 😅
We watched movies and anime together:) it's a horror movie... with lot of jump scares. but we laughed at those ghost in movies 🤣
For once, there were no responsibilities weighing on me, no constant pressure, i heard no harsh words that used to break my heart into pieces all the time but just simple moments of joy. 😊❤️
One of the most beautiful days was yesterday. All my cousins went to our uncle’s house 😊 n we spent the day there together with 'em all. after a long time period We get to together ❤️ We prepared for iftar side by side, had long conversations with our aunts ❤️, n visited our grandparents ❤️. My grandmother blessed me was the best part 😊 The whole day felt warm n wholesome in a way that’s hard to put into words ❤️
The strange thing is… I barely used my phone during these days. And somehow that made everything feel even more real and grounding. 😊💗
For years I think I’ve been quietly craving moments like this, these day's are unexpected... made a huge impact in me in the best way possible 💓😊
N when I was there, laughing and sitting with everyone, it felt like something inside me finally unlocked 💓
When I came back home this morning, I noticed something new. Instead of that heavy feeling in my chest, it felt like a soft calm breeze passing through me ❤️. Not excitement, not noise but just peace, like a calm wind after a storm ❤️. even the silence feels sacred ❤️
I think I finally understood what peace actually feels like 💗.
These past days honestly felt like a gift. Like a broken bird that had been stuck for a long time finally getting the chance to fly again. ❤️
I’m grateful for that feeling… and I hope I can carry this quiet peace with me for a long time. ❤️
Stíll unsure of expressing how actually feel 😅💓 
Hugs u all closer to my heart 🤗💕
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@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
🎉🌻 :)
@Raahee
Aww 😊, Thank you <3 💓 It honestly one of the best day's i ever had 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 It was such a delight to read this post. Seeing you happy and at peace after carrying so much <3🤧
If you’re doing a check-in, consider this on my gratitude list for today :p. Grateful for seeing you at peace and experiencing joy 🤍^-^
@MeilleureAmie
Aww 😊 that's so sweet of you... Thank you so much for being there for me n it's so delighted to hear that my happiness made u happy 💓 I'm so grateful to Allah for sending Ppl's like u in my Life 🤗✨
Hugs closer to my heart 🤗💓
Hopefully that peace and calm stays with you forever .
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Thank you 😊 I wish n I'll give my best to protect my peace 💓
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I'm delighted to read that time with your family has made you feel so much lighter, you are a shining lightning on Cups for everyone and will be simply amazing as a forum supporter.
I'm back to work tonight and am intending to try and make a clean break from the forums and repeatedly checking my phone, be more mindful to restore my own balance as I no longer feel welcome on the forums but rest assured that is not down to you.
@RunningMachine
Thank you so much for ur support, I’m really glad reading that made u feel a little better too 😊 I’m grateful for those moments.
Also… I do want to be honest abt one thing. I was a bit upset by something u said before abt it making sense why I don’t have friends. I know u were hurt at that moment, but it did affect me, especially because u don’t fully know my past, and it felt like something I shared with trust was used against me. I just wanted to let u know how I felt, that’s all. n you did apologised... so I'm kinda fine now. just want to be honest. that's all :)
And thank you for saying that it wasn’t down to me… I really appreciate that. I just want to gently clarify something too, when I mentioned ignoring someone earlier, I wasn’t talking abt u, it was abt someone else close to me. I realised it might’ve sounded confusing after, so I just wanted to make that clear.
Also, I’m really proud of u for choosing to prioritise ur health first. Like I said before, following ur heart n taking care of urself is the strongest thing u can do. Wishing u goodness n strength in ur healing journey 🤍
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@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Thank you, I am ashamed and deeply regret what i said that caused you hurt but there is always to side to any dispute between people. I'm humble enough to admit that I am ashamed and have repeatedly apologised to both yourself and another friend, but hurt that neither of you has openly acknowledged let alone apologised for their own behaviour that triggered my regrettable comments.
I'm regrettably leaving Cups at the end of the month's therapy for that reason alone, I still respect and admire both of you but at least I'm open and honest enough to accept, acknowledge and take ownership for my own shortcomings. A little bit if courtesy and humility would of prevented this saga.
@RunningMachine
I appreciate your apology and the honesty in what you’ve shared ❤️ It takes a lot to reflect on things, and I do respect that. :)
At the same time, I’d like you to understand my side as well. I’ve always been honest and genuine in the way I spoke with you, and I never intended any disrespect.the way I respond or take time isn’t meant to hurt anyone. It’s simply how I manage things on my end. and I’ve also mentioned in my replies before that I can’t always be available or respond constantly, and that I would move at my own pace.
I believe this situation came from misunderstanding rather than intention, and I don’t feel that either side meant harm. ❤️
I genuinely wish you well moving forward, and I hope you find the balance and peace you’re looking for. Take care 🤍🌸
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I wonder why my last response has been deleted, you asked me to continue sending messages and that you would try to respond once or twice a day so I did, so why did you then not respond for over two days?
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
6 days of silence after having previous response deleted,, would it really hurt you that much to apologise for not responding to messages when you had offered to do so.
@RunningMachine
I Apologise Sir ❤️
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Ailura, no need for the Sir, but thank you.
Great for you!!! I suggested we need to keep fulfilling people and things in our life. Im excited that you actually did it. Its easy to say and challenging to do. Keep up the great work. You're doing great!!!
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
@discreetStrings8172
Hey hi strings ヾ(*’Ｏ’*)/ hope u have great ahead 😊
Aww thank you 😊, i really never realised that how much I needed this break... it felt like my soul washed out of chaos xD. I'm so glad you take time to read all this ❤️
Sending lots of love and blessings ur way ❤️
Hugs 🤗
For some reason this made me want to cry not because of sadness but out of happiness for you. You deserve this peace and we hope it comes many times. Loving yourself is never a selfish thing to do, boundaries are good for everyone.
@ConstellationSystem
Aww System *Warm Hugs* I'm glad to hear you feel good reading this 😊...!! i go agree with all u said, i honestly don't realise that I needed this break so far 💞. thank you for taking time to read this n reflect...!! it's just heart warming to hear someone is happy seeing me happy 😊
Sending tons of love and embrace ur way 💞 Hugs 🤗
