Trying to Hold On When Everything Feels Heavy
There's only so much you can take,
only so many times before you break.
I carry a lot of shame and blame. I never been to school, I'm not educated. I look different, a freak. I put on a smile, live in a little bubble, I want to help everyone, I wish I could have everyones pain of them, or at least help in some sort of way. I want to be braver, I want to have courage, I want to be so many things, but for me they will only ever be a dream.
Just broken
Hugs tiny
@creativeField7705 ❤🙂❤ hugggs field ❤❤❤❤
*hugs* u do help ppl n u always make me laugh with funny comments on posts n stuff
@DarkerPlaces hugs back ❤❤ thanks sweetie ❤
@Tinywhisper11 Hi, I just read your post and I want to say that I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. You are one of the most amazing and inspiring people I know. You always cheer up everyone with your joyful comments and posts. You always spread smiles and joy around various forums. You always try to help others and take their pain away. You are so brave, so courageous, so many things that I admire and respect.
@ThoughtsBubbleExpress ❤❤ thanks sweetie, it's just a bad day, I'll shine again soon ❤❤ I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11 Sending hugs to you 🫂 I'm sorry but I'm so used to seeing you being your happy and cheerful self that seeing you sad hurts me, please don't doubt yourself, you're the best person that I met here and you're the only person with whom I vibed with so well. I'll keep hugging you until you feel better 🫂🫂🫂 you're free to talk to me and share anything that you want to talk about, I'm here for you ❤️
@ThoughtsBubbleExpress awww your the best friend anyone could want ❤❤ I love you ❤ and I don't like seeing sad me either. I like being happy😁 it was just a bad day ❤ I'm doing better today ❤ how are you feeling now? Are you doing any better?
@Tinywhisper11 Thank you and I love you too so so much!! ❤️ I hope you get happy and pleasant days only because that's enough of the character development days for now and I feel relieved, that you're doing better, and it's ok, you don't have to look happy all the time, what matters is you feeling good and happy only which I wish that you genuinely feel happy every day 😊 I'm feeling well too now that you feel better 🫂
@ThoughtsBubbleExpress gives you the giantist tiny hug ever ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11 gives you the biggest hug too 😂
@ThoughtsBubbleExpress not to tight😮😮 I'm fragile😱😲
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
@Tinywhisper11 I'll squish you 😂
@Tinywhisper11
Awww... Please fix yourself. Is saddens me greatly to see anything as beautiful as you, broken. I can't think of you broken, please don't be. Maybe your tiny little battery needs recharging. You transcend physical limitations with your loving wit, humor and endless encouragement. You are such a force of perseverance and joy to so many that you don't even know. You light up so many souls on a daily basis, no wonder your own tiny battery is strained.
I know your feelings are deep and real. Just Rest, and let the loving broken parts heal. 💖
@IsayUncle ❤❤❤ aww that was so sweet of you to say ❤❤ hugs you tightly ❤ hugs recharge my batteries😁
@Tinywhisper11
a hug'a here, a hug'a there ((((Hugs))))((((Hugs))))((((Hugs))))((((Hugs))))(((Hugs))))((((Hugs))))((((Hugs))))((((Hugs))))(((Hugs))))((((Hugs))))((((Hugs))))((((Hugs)))) a hug'a everywhere!
And some chocolate cake too.
Feeling better yet?
@IsayUncle 😁😁😁😁😁😁 yep I think those hugs worked ❤ squeezes you tightly ❤❤ nom nom nom 😋 thanks for the chocolate cake😋 more please 😁
@Tinywhisper11
I hope you are really feeling better.🤗. And you know what they say about too much of a good thing (and that cake really look like a good thing). Going to have to bake some more. 🍰
@Tinywhisper11
OK..... You Win and you deserve it. 
U do help tho :0 and not just when ur being happy and fun. You help people by being ❤️ no matter how broken that being may feel ❤️
@unassumingEyes ❤🙂 thankyou ❤❤ I'm trying my best ❤ I hope it's enough ❤
@Tinywhisper11
lolaa beanie 💜 how’s you feeling today? :o 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers hi lovely ❤ I'm doing much better ❤ thanks for checking in on me ❤❤ I love you
@Tinywhisper11
i’m glad you’re better my sweet friend 💜 although on my side it says that wash 19 hours ago. 🥺 me has been a busy bean :') me hasn’t been able to check cupsies much until now lol. 💜
of course :o of course i needed to check on you 💜 me loves you so much friend and me cares about you. *huggie wuggies if okay* 💜
@Tinywhisper11
I hope things gets better, and kudos for being here ^^ we're here for you as well : )
@daydreammemories ❤❤ thankyou ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
If anyone understands that there is only so much you can handle, it is me. And I know nothing I can say will take away your shame, but what happened was NOT your fault. Not at all. No person deserves that, and the fact that you are still here, helping people, is amazing.
Not going to school, while disappointing, isn't a horrible thing. I don't go to school, I educate myself. And trust me you are so smart school would just be boring for you 🤭 and heyyyyyy don't call my Lola fried a freak, she is beautiful and gorgeous and who cares if she's missing her legs and some fingers? I sure don't. Sorry I just try and help make you smile. But seriously you are so pretty 🥺
It's okay to not be happy sometimes. It's okay to be mad and angry. Lola you have been through ***. Just thinking about what you went through makes me so angry, I'm very protective over my friends. I can't change your past but I can remind you of this. You are so full of life. Some days talking to you is the only thing that brings a smile to my face, and I know I'm not the only one.
You really truly are one of the greatest souls to ever have graced this planet. And I know this is hard but sometimes we just gotta trust God. Everything will work out, and if in the meantime you need to lay in bed and cry, then lay in bed and cry. You deserve it. Go outside and cry. Be in nature. Be angry, throw crap. Break something. Scream. Whatever *you* need to feel better. And no one is expecting you to be okay right now.
Healing is a long long long journey, but luckily you aren't alone. So many people are here for you (:
*gives you big big hugs* if you ever just need to cry to me you can okay? You can tell me anything you need to ❤❤❤ I love you ❤
Also drink lots of water 🥺 I always forget to hydrate when sad.
And by throw crap i meant like rocks or stuffed animals or sticks. I mean you can throw 💩 if you want to, but thats gross
@AvyIsKing oh you meant rocks 😕 oops! Wipes poop of hands😁😂😂 you did make me smile, you always do ❤ and don't worry I'm ok now ❤ it was just a bad day ❤ I get lots of those😥 huggggs you tightly ❤❤ I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Bad days are okay ❤ I'm glad you allowed yourself to just say I'm sad ❤❤ I love you
@Tinywhisper11 I'm not sure what all to say, but I know you have been through enough and you are still so strong. You will get through this rough patch. You have a vvv bright light that shines through you and we can all see it. Bad days happen and it's okay to let your emotions out as much as you need them. Just pick yourself back up when you fall and God will take the wheel always and forever. Life isn't easy, but I'm proud of you for still being here and not all masks stay on. There are days where we just have to let ourselves breathe and put ourselves first. You help so many people with your humorous comments and the light that shines through you. You are so so so strong and I am so proud of you. *hugs* there will be brighter days ahead, I know there will. Don't give up, you got this. I am always always here for you when you need it, don't be afraid to reach out, because life is not a thing we can conquer on our own. I barely know you but I love you to death. Stay strong 💛💛💛💛
@AdrienLovesYou23 ❤🙂 thankyou ❤ I was just having a bad day, I'm doing ok again now ❤❤ thanks for this sweet message ❤ hugs you tightly ❤ I love you too ❤
Hi, Lola!
I lost internet for like ten days, and now I am reconnecting.
I just saw your post, and it worried me that you were feeling shame and regret. On the other hand, it is wonderful how people around here know you well, appreciate so much you for who you really are, and love you so so much.
And they are all right, you are awesome by any standard!
I have known many, many people in my life. I have known presidents, scientists, philosophers, athletes, many journalists and writers, also many musicians and a few dancers, many hugely rich businesspeople and very poor people too. I have known wise spiritual souls, real saints, and also many bad folks, unfortunately. People of all walks of life, from many countries, and of all kinds.
So please trust me on this one: you are absolutely outstanding, amazing person. One of the very very best I have known in my life. You are worth a thousand times more than 99.99% of the people I have ever known.
You are pure good and caring, brilliant, witty, you are so strong and resilient, and I could keep coming up with virtues and you have them all.
You have a million reasons to be very very proud of yourself. Genuinely proud.
I am super happy that you are feeling okie today.
Much love!
Marcelo.
@Tinywhisper11
@HealingTalk awwww you always put a smile on my face ❤❤ thankyou ❤ I'm ok now 😁 and wow! You know many cool people, except eskimos, you didn't mention any eskimos🤔🤔 hugs you tightly ❤❤ thanks marcelo, I love you ❤
I am glad I made you smile, Lola!
And very happy that you feel well!
I hope you can see your greatness, that we all around here can see, and you feel very proud of yourself.
I was always intrigued by Eskimos, why they live in such an extremely hostile place, and how they do it. But I don’t know any in person. The closest I know is a biologist who spent a year in Antarctica and told me about life there. He had a clear purpose to be there so he didn't care much about the very harsh living conditions. "He who has a why, can bear almost any how" - Friedrich Nietzsche.
Sending you much love! 💜 💜 💜
Marcelo
@Tinywhisper11
@HealingTalk ❤❤❤ yep! For a long time I thought Eskimos were a myth😂😂😂😂😂 ❤❤❤
There are still Eskimos (they call themselves Inuit) living in the traditional way, but more and more of them now live in towns, have jobs and buy food in stores instead of hunting, and use motorized snowmobiles instead of dog sleds.
As time passes, the traditional way of living in igloos in the middle of nowhere and hunting seals making holes in the ice might disappear.
At some point, those might become legendary heroes of the past, and their descendants will live typical town lives I guess, in freezing northern Canada and other arctic areas.
@Tinywhisper11