What is giving you MOST pain?

@Creamyyy

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The loss of my grandpa is giving me the most pain. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about him and anything reminds me of him. From a sticker of a fish to deers, to elderly in plaid long sleeves to birds with orange chest. I grew up with my grandparents and for my mother as a single parent had to work often and go to school for a better life for my childhood, so I spent most of my time with my grandparents. I grew more alike with my grandpa I shared his interest of plants and working smart not hard. I felt like the only one that was proud of me and happy to see me was my grandpa. Especially when I had moved to Davis to go to college. He’s always been there for me. Showed up to every student of the month and every ceremony and award ceremony. It hurt me to know he wasn’t there to see me graduate from college on stage. He passed the same year 2021 in September and I graduated December 2021. It was so hard to graduate without him. And now with him being gone, no one cares about me. My mom favors my brother my grandma favors the grandkids that did nothing for her and that’s it. I miss being able to call him just to hear his voice. The thing is in his last year my uncle grew with greed and my grandma kicked us out from living with her since she favored her son. This being said during this time my grandpa had cancer and we would drive an hour to him just to take him to his appointments and spend time with him. My uncle made that difficult with not wanting us to see him. At the time my mom suffered from extreme anxiety and was really able to be okay to face my uncle and at the time I couldn’t drive. It was to a point our phone conversations with my grandpa had to be put on speaker so my paranoid uncle could listen to everything, I didn’t care I have nothing to hide all I wanted to know was how he was doing and how his plants were doing (since he always talked about his plants) . Then it came to a day were my uncle changed all his ointment and authorized reps we couldn’t take him to the doctor anymore. And for some petty reason my uncle thought it was a good idea to put my grandpa through chemo when the doctor said it wasn’t a good idea since he was 92 but he did it to prove a point I’ll always believe. Not short after my grandfather had a heart attack on my grandmother birthday. And I carry it all with me everyday. I’m hurt by what happened but nothing hurts me more than losing him. I literally feel the color left my world and this is all that’s left.

@Creamyyy

Never being able to find the middle. I am either very depressed, extremely happy, or totally hollow. I feel much more stable now but in a way I feel utterly broken.

Social awkwardness has brought me the greatest pain ever since I was a kid, and I've given up on any hopes of becoming "cured" somehow. Being painfully uncomfortable around people (and I mean absolutely anyone) is a lifelong condition for me. It's a reality I've had to just accept.

@Creamyyy There are many pains that affect all of us and thank you for sharing what causes you so much pain. I happen to have 24/7 pain in my lower lip and teeth that developed after a dentist elected to pick a larger sized implant during an implant surgery and drilling excessively without my consent into my jaw into the inferior alveolar nerve. This happened almost 6 months ago. Initially I was only numb on the outside of my lip and chin but then after a month passed the numbness reduced slightly and pain settled in…forever. There are burning, searing pins and needles in my lip and sometimes chin, as well as a tight binder clip sensation 24/7 in my lower teeth. He took 10 days to accept that the implant procedure did this before he finally removed the implant and claimed it will go away in 6-8 weeks. However after seeing some specialists, I am told I will most likely have to live with this for the rest of my life. The pain is often severe enough I cannot sleep or eat on that side of my mouth and cannot eat many solid or crunchy foods or even brush teeth on that side it is so painful. I have been tried on 4 meds already and am awaiting test results to see if some other medications could be tried…So for me the most significant pain is this that I am forced to experience in all waking moments 24 hours a day. Every day. I hope no one else has to experience what I went through and feel now. 

When my friends making fun of me and I still stand and just smile but its really hurt from inside. My family members also act rude with me. So I start living alone in other room.🙂😢

@Creamyyy I feel depressed....I am student who passed 10th grade in india..We have a big test for that which goes for the whole country...i passed it with a percentage of 88.4%. I feel so bad.You might think I am not grateful but once you know me...you'll understand what i am going through. I am an above average student who has the caliber to score well but does not put in much efforts. All my other friends got better grades than me...I feel so stressed. Their is even a flex about the toppers in our school..I dont know how i can go back there. How do i face people? Please help..I feel so suffocated

Dealing with the wounds she left me is honestly the hardest part. Especially when you want to continue with your normal life and all you do is bleed out. It affected me more than I want to admit.Dealing with the wounds she left me is honestly the hardest part. Especially when you want to continue with your normal life and all you do is bleed out. It affected me more than I want to admit. Even a simply flirt I receive yesterday and my body, soul and mind freak out. My sheij was right, the problem we young people have is our hearts. I hope your having a comfy day. May peace and blessings be with you.