WEEKLY HEALTHY LIVING CHECK-IN DECEMBER 7th, 2019

**This past week while good, was also rather stressful... I did my usual, Got back on track after the holidays. Got back to workouts and teaching classes, and stayed on track with everything all week.....But the stressors came with one of my Fitness jobs. The manager at the studio I work at is starting to show some "true colors" which aren't very attractive. The studio is having some financial issues according to the manager, and while the classes do quite well, I guess its still not enough for them to actually make a good "Profit". So... the manager has decided to make some changes and while saying its in the (best interest of the Studio)... its really not. And their decisions and basically their "ULTIMATUM" pretty much forced out THREE instructors at the end of the month, and has me questioning myself as to do I really even want to stay either?!...The Ultimatum given to us bascially "blind-sided" us all, and its like I can't believe this person would do "this" to the instructors that have been "Loyal" to them, as well as Bring in the Clientele and keep classes larger?! But the choice given was either to do what they wanted OR... say your goodbyes at the end of the month. That in my book is an ultimatum. And not a very "Fair" one to say the least. And mid-month they are going to make an announcement to the "Members" that there will be a "Membership Increase"!.. In my eyes its already expensive enough and almost "double" what other places charge in our area!... Its crazy... and I fear that this studio will not last long or hold its own with the way this manager is running things and acting.~ And... of course all of this "right before the holidays"~.. How nice is that?!

**Oh well, looks like I will have some choices to make over the next month about what is going to be good for my mental and emotional well-being. Stay with all my clientele that I bring in each week and come "just for me"... (Like they dont' even attend other classes just mine)... Or leave and stick with "just" my other fitness class only. I don't like big corporate gyms (for various reasons)...and rather work at studios. So its not easy to just leave either.~

**On a brighter note... Most other things went well, the weather is remaining on the colder side, but its not keeping me from meeting my goals each day....And its still decent enough to get morning walks in as well.... Been doing ALOT of Holiday shopping, and I'm almost finished with most everyone! All decorations are up, and I really just want to concentrate on "ME and my Family" over this next month.... Saturday morning I will get up to workout in the morning, and do a little more shopping and then decide on whether to attend a Christmas Party in the evening.~

ENJOY THE WEEKEND~

Lost 3lb today at my slimming world class 😊Won the slimmer of the week award 🥇 and I have lost half a stone in 3 weeks . A good start to my weight loss for health reasons and to feel better and gain more energy .. been doing more classes at the gym 2 aqua classes , legs bum tum class , tone class & Zumba class .. my plan is 5 times a week plus eating healthier it's a life style change . I also stopped drinking diet fizzy juice as read a lot on it makes you hungry and does not help promote weight loss long term plus my sleep pattern has been much better . Diet , exercise & rest 😁

I am struggling with depression and anxiety and my chronic spinal pain condition. I am trying not to freak out. I have missed so much work due to my pain that I am now suffering financial crisis. I am not going to be able to afford to pay my bills which has put me into such deep depression I don't want to get out of bed. I can't believe my life feels so F'd up. It doesn't help that I am living with a selfish stepmother that keeps doing things that either hurt my feelings or make me very pissed off. I need to get away from her and out of the freezing cold state I am in it is making my pain condition much harder. I am not sure how to turn my life around without the financial resources needed to pay my phone bill and my storage space and buy food for myself. Right now the only way I can see is to quit my job I have grown to hate and cash in my 4 yrs worth of 401k and pay the 15% penalty for early withdrawal and move 1,300 miles to my brothers house. He has offered to let me move there. I wish my mother was still alive so I could get her wisdom on my decision.

@PoliteOcean

Did you see my post on the last Weekly Check in? I think it was for Nov 30th?

Just when I thought I was having a bad time..

My insane stepmother who begged me to move in with her after my father died and told me she was not going to charge me rent. Then 2 days ago she tells me she wants me to be responsible for dishes and trash. The things that she herself NEVER lifted a finger to do when my father was alive because she loves making huge messes in the house ang just leaving them. She is probably the laziest full of S@#& person I have ever cohabitated with. Then she allows her granddaughter to come and make a huge mess and make a friggin cake and left the kitchen as she left it. Then my stepmother deshelled a bunch of cooked shrimp and the slob just left the styrofoam tray, plastic wrap and shrimp shells on the counter by the sink. The cake pan her granddaughter used was not buttered or non stick coated properly so the pan she left was a total mess. Instead of using a rubber spatula to scrape it into the trash the dingaling just struck in into the sink and she ran water in it and left the sludge there as a present for me. I swear she has the habits of a 13 yr old that was never taught to properly cook and clean as soon as you finish. The kitchen was spotless yesterday as she pays a woman to come clean bi monthly. I need to gtfo of this insane house.

@PoliteOcean This past Monday my doctor canceled our appointment. It was very upsetting. It's been two months since I've seen him. I'm trying to get things going and then this happens. There is always a 6-8 week back log at the clinic I'm going to, so it's not like I can just go in a few days later. I submitted a blood sample on Tuesday. They drew a lot of blood - 3 small vials and 3 large vials. I'm going to see my kidney specialist on Monday, and then I will learn the results of my blood test. Wednesday I had a massage for my legs. I've been very worried about getting deep vein thrombosis. Friday I went to a new place for a sandwich and it was a very cool place, not a chain shop. The dating app I signed up for produced an avalanche of results. I have very specific standards for what I'm looking for so hopefully a future romantic partner will be adaptable.

Hey there @PoliteOcean !

I like this Christmassy colours themed check-in haha!

The past week has been quite productive! Ive started working on a new project at work, which should give really interesting results (although its a long process before getting them). Weve also gotten back the raw data of a precedent study and Im really looking forward processing them and getting results!

On the downside, Ive been feeling really off, Ive also cut ties with a long time friend yesterday as I have been noticing some manipulation and gaslighting lately. I know I would not have cut ties if I hadnt been feeling that off, so Im not sure yet if it was the right decision or if I overreacted.

About the holidays, Im looking forward getting some rest for sure. I also know it will make my mother happy to have me back home for some time so thats a good thing. I just hope family gathering arent going to be too annoying haha!

Oh and Im planning to get back to drawing/painting later on today, I hope I stick to that plan.

On another note, after reading your own check-in, I want to say Im all heart with you for this tough choice. It doesnt sound like a fair situation at all indeed and doesnt look like its matching your values... Its not much help, but I really hope you figure out and do whats best for you! If it can help, my mother always tells me to do a pros/cons (or yes/no depending on the situation) table when dealing with a tough choice to make, a rate every argument I put on the pro/con column depending on how much they matter to me. And then just do the sum up and see if pros or cons are winning. It can also help you see if your heart goes to one side rather than the other if you disagree with the sum up at the end haha! Anyway, I wish you the best of luck! Take care x

Things have been really hard. I've been feeling fairly unwell since the end of Aug. Now I'm recovering from a liver biopsy and I seem to be doing worse from that than average. Have had a few angioedema attacks.

I have a lot of adenomas - clearly adenomatosis to me, but need to get referred to someone. Haven't even seen a doctor yet.

@PoliteOcean

**This Week was overall okay.

**I'm most looking forward to: spending time writing and working on myself through journaling, building my inner circle friendships, working on setting healthy boundaries, getting out my sewing machine for the first time in a long time.

**This month I hope to sign up for health insurance and get some medical stuff taken care of that I've been putting off. I'm also hoping to reconnect with some friends. Also hoping to pay off my credit card debt

**December is so stressful for me. I love the holiday feels but get SO much anxiety about the holidays themselves. There are always expectations (residual from my childhood) that never feel met and lead to disappointment. It is a time that always highlights my nontypical family relations.

**Something most people don't know about me; I played the trumpet for 4 years

**Highlight this week was catching up with my middleschool/highschool best friend. I haven't been very social lately and was nervous about the interaction but it went really well and was so good for my soul in a way I didn't know I needed. Struggles were getting frustrated at work; I struggle to assert myself and feel walked on a lot in life. Something I'm working on but it still hurts and is frustating in the process.

**Weekend was spent battling a cold. Managed to get out and clean the yoga studio but that was about the only activity I did. Took a sick day today (Monday) so hopefully will be rested enough to get back to life tomorrow.