Life feels odd
II'm eating more junk these days and not as much motivated to fitness.
Something feels odd in myself.
Ii recently ended a toxic equation (an online interaction with a guy I was planning to date). And im relieved about it. But there is some withdrawal effects too. Basically a blow on self worth.
I feel really bad in navigating life in such an alone manner. I feel unlucky sometimes. The kind of loneliness ive lived with maybe many few have.
I want to put my mind to work. Got books to read. Got things to write..
I need to trust love around me to give myself a confidence boost. I need to see myself with compassion and not judge my emotions as weakness.
I miss you all..... its so good knowing you all. Fill me in with some updates -- I wish to reconnect to my friends. I love you all.
@cyanessence
@Amanda84
@jesusredeemedme2425
@Torean
@mytwistedsoul
@SparkyGizmo
@IzzyGamer
@peachthinker662
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas
@YourCaringConfidant
@Tinywhisper11
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
@Creamyyy Ohhh Creamyyy, I'm so sorry that you're feeling lonely and going through a difficult rough patch. Of everything you wrote, I just want to say this:
Your self worth is determined by you. Not having something work out with someone just because you may be searching for love should not take a blow to your worth! I know it may feel like it did, but your self worth is yours! You call the shots! ❤️
Right now you're perceiving it this way, but it's not the truth. Perceive yourself worthy of love, capable, and deserving!! Know that you are beautiful, have a big heart, and worthy! Know you deserve to be treated with respect and care and you shouldn't settle just because of loneliness. Again, you determine your self worth! ❤️ I see you as extremely valuable and I hope you look in the mirror today (if you got eyes to see) and see what your friends who care about you see. ❤️
I hope you feel better, Creamyyy.
PS: If you're done with the snacks, then send them my way. As long as it's 😋, then I'll eat them. 😂 Any peanut m&m's?
Ive been having 7up and banana pudding and cakes.
Yes my self worth isnt defined by the kind of partnership love I recieve. Good point you reminded me of.
And yes I remember how friends like you love me and I feel grateful and reconnected to myself in a happy way.
The guy. Ah. He doesnt feel right for me. But maybe the romantic attachment is making me compromise . Its not right - I know that. The need for love can make you blind sometimes. Lets see if I can move on in a good way.
@YourCaringConfidant
@Creamyyy
@YourCaringConfidant
Hi Creamyyyyy! 😊 ❤️
I'm really glad that @Confidant showed up for you and showed up really strong! ❤️ I'm glad that what they said resonated with you and made you feel better. They really are the voice of reason 😇 . It's just, sometimes when we are right in the middle of it all, we need a little help and support from our friends to remind us of how valuable we are!
We will come across others that will be mean, hurtful, have their own agenda (that isn't in alignment with ours) and when that happens, of course, it can feel like a big set back. I hear you and I send you big big *hugs* ❤️
Ultimately, they don't define our value or worth. For some people, they enjoy trying to make you think that they do.
Dating in general seems like a big struggle for many, currently. Seems like no one is really quite happy whether on the male side or the female side. In the dating arena, from all the things I read and see, seems like an all out war 😳
There are many online influencers planting seeds of negativity. A great deal of it is highly manipulative, exploitative, abusive. Perhaps some have so very little true value to others, have nothing real to bring to the table that they have reduced themselves to being mean spirited and enjoy "running a game" on others. It is what it is. It says more about them than it ever will about you.
I imagine many behave this way out of anger and resentment for not getting what it is that they want. Maybe it's a sense of entitlement. I wonder if some of these people feel quite deserving of being with a good person, someone that is smart, funny, kind, attractive while not having to do any inner work on themselves. Resorting to playing mind games isn't the answer and sounds like a waste of time.
Their time would be better spent on learning how to be hygienic...such things as take a bath, brush your teeth, shave that neck beard. Time would be better spent on them writing down on one side of a page what it is that they seek in a partner and then on the other side, writing down if they too hold those same attributes. If the answer is "no", they do not have those qualities, then perhaps they should devote their time in becoming the same type of person they seek to be with. Maybe that way, when that person comes along, they will be ready to engage in a healthy manner, be a fully formed human being that is ready to engage with another and be appreciative of finding a good person.
In the end "don't hate the player, hate the game" and be mindful of them. 💫
I can only hope that everyone will eventually come to their senses and see how it is that what they are learning from ill equipped people is only increasing their long term suffering.
Stay strong sweet Creammmyyyyy! 😊 ❤️ No one defines you, but you!!!
*high fives* 😊 and big big *hugs* ❤️
Great words, as always. Always love listening to you.. youre right about the culture of the dating game. Its gotten odd and toxic often lacking integrity and old school purity. Yet there is gold in the trash. I believe to find my treasure.
Thank you for your wonderful support. I feel blessed to receive it. Miss you <3
@SparkyGizmo
@Creamyyy
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@Creamyyy 💚 Here with a great big ol' hug specially for you! 🫂 🤗 👐
And, hey, what do you know? I like 🎂 and banana 🍌 pudding too (as long as it's homemade). Mmmmmmm. 😋 Lots of vanilla wafers in mine please! Please and thank you! Hehe.
@Creamyyy
I'm sorry that things have been hard for you lately. I know I may not be the most experienced when it comes to this type of stuff but I don't think that anyone should ever get to decide how much your worth. I had someone tell me once that only you can decide how much your worth. if I could decide for you I would make it so that you mattered so sooo much. But I can't and they can't either, only you get to decide that. I'm sorry that someone had made you feel otherwise.
As for me not much has been happening, just got a lot going on with school mostly. We did just get back from traveling though which was really fun. I've also been trying to get back into some of my old hobbies. Other than that though I don't really got a whole lot going on.
You make a really good point. I get to decide my worth. And I will choose people who feed my sense of my self worth
Traveling sounds exciting. Where did you go?
@IzzyGamer
@Creamyyy
we went to Colorado for the weekend. It was amazing, I absolutely love going and being there.
@Creamyyy
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I've been making foods. Experimenting with flavour-profiles. Trying to eat healthy.
@Creamyyy
The pint of ice cream breakup meme exists for a reason. It's not always about losing the person either - but the loneliness aspect.
It sounds like you have some great plans! But they can also be a bit solitary. What about joining a writer's group or book club? Something new to meet some new friends!
@Creamyyy
Hi Creamy! I'm Luminity✨
I'm really sorry to hear you've been feeling this way 🙁. I completely understand the incident took a blow on your self worth; I can relate with you and I'm here to support you, as are all your friends and everyone here. 💖
I'm glad you're trying to retrieve yourself and not completely giving into the dark feelings. Hope it goes well for you. Take care. ❤🩹
Means a lot. Thank you for your support.
@Luminity125
@Creamyyy
I'm here for you 💚
I love you 💚
I've always got your back 😊
Miss you <3
@Amanda84
@Creamyyy I'm really glad you reached out what you're feeling after ending something toxic is understandable, and it doesn't erase your worth. 💛
Be gentle with yourself; healing isn't a straight line, and the fact that you still want to reconnect, read, write, and keep moving forward says a lot about your strength.
We've missed you too, and we're here for you take things one step at a time, and we'd love to hear from you and share some updates.
.thank you for appreciating my strength. Grateful for your kindness :)
@Tadashi25
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