Prompt of The Week: "If I knew this would happen, I would have talked to you sooner."

@Clarisse29

Lost forever

If I knew this would happen,

I would have talked to you sooner.

If I knew you were gone forever,

I would have made your life somewhat better.

But if I knew you were gone so soon,

I would have become a loner.

I know you took so much pain to make me happier.

The reason why I'm standing on your grave,

not shading my tears.

I am so sorry for my trembling hands and for not fighting all my fears.

@Clarisse29,

The Selfish Lover of a Broken Soul

You told me every night

"I need to talk with you".

You were quite the sight.

I had no idea what you got through

Cause then again, every day,

Your smile outshined my worry

And as late as it may,

"I am truly sorry".

If only I knew this would happen

What would I've done

but take refuge in foreign words?

Would I've caressed your skin

with passion never spoken?

I should've lent you a helpful ear.

Instead, I let you rotten.

I loved you every night

Questioned you every day

All you needed was for me to listen

All I wanted was for you to stay.

@Clarisse29

If I knew this would happen, I would have talked to you sooner.

"I think this is the latest you've ever stayed up with me."

Is what she said the last time we'd been together,

A sunrise had never seemed so beautiful when I was in her arms.

Living our own lives in different cities,

I wish we'd have stayed close on a daily basis,

Thinking of you was my only calm place.

I don't think you knew what you meant to me,

It was my awkwardness more than anything,

Even though you were always happy when I did reach out.

I thought it was a joke at first when I saw the post,

I'd never cried so freely,

You were like the celebrity that autographed my life.

I'd never wanted to stop exploring your infinite, lush, and interesting world,

Now I was just wandering by the abandoned riverside buildings,

And I started sprinting all the way down with a possessed adrenaline I never knew,

Screaming so loud and hard that I tasted blood.

I'll always have one foot in the beyond now,

Ready to follow you anywhere,

And everything here will be partly be training towards that eventual future with you.

Now my message to you,

"I wish you could've stayed up a bit later with me",

I never said it enough before,

But now I do every day,

"I love you".

@Clarisse29

Consequence of forgetting

if I knew this would happen,

i would have talked to you sooner,

i didn’t see the signs,

i didn’t see the hurt,

i was caught up in fantasy,

i was caught up in forgetting,

if I knew you were in pain,

i would have dropped everything,

but I didn't notice,

and now it’s too late,

i hope you’re happy up there,

i hope you’ve found peace,

Because it hurts to remember,

the bad things we pushed through,

(I wish to be tagged)

@Clarisse29

If I knew this would happen, I would have talked with you sooner.

I would have told you

it's a part of me

that awaits me ahead.

I would have the past re-live itself

for me to surrender

again and again in an undying rhythm.

I would have showed you

I'm netiher ashamed of my past,

nor my future.

I want to be tagged for more prompts

If I knew this would happen, I would've talked to you sooner,

Now it's too late and I'm already too far into this,

I should have said we done right then and there,

But I waited-I let you emotionally and physically damage me for a year.....

Now I can't go back to my old self....this I'm too far into this emotional state and mind set.....

(.....bye....)

@Clarisse29

If I knew this would happen,

I would have talked to you sooner.

I would have opened up to you,

told you about everything that was

messing with my head.

And you would've helped me.

If I knew.

If I knew this would happen,

I would have stayed longer on those cold nights,

even though I wasn't supposed to.

I would've lied to my parents,

saying that it takes long to close the restaurant

so that I could sit and talk with you on the porch.

If I knew.

Now I know that this happened,

and I still feel the pain.

You were my reason to keep going,

you were like a brother.

Now you're off to college,

and I'm left behind.

Now I know.

@Clarisse29

Dear me,

If I knew this would happen,

I would have talked to you sooner

About how other's happiness

isn't your responsibility.

I would've told you

to put yourself first,

Take care of yourself,

Validate your feelings,

Because no one else will.

If I knew you this would happen

I would've talked to you sooner

About how your sacrifices

fall into blind eyes.

I would've asked you

to take a step back,

Re-evaluate your choices,

Rethink your priorities,

Because you're alone in this journey.

If I knew this would happen

I would have talked to you sooner,

held you and comfort you

when the world crushed around you

and you blamed yourself.

My Inner Child

If I knew this would happen, I would have talked to you sooner.

I never would have left you confused and wondering how to get through life.

I would have invited you in to tell me what was really bothering you,

And given you reassurances for all the things you do so well.

I would not have let you believe what others said that was not true.

I would have stood up and said how right you were, though no one heard.

I would have just kept calling out to you, until you answered

And just kept talking to you until your every fear disappeared.

If I knew that you would suffer so long, feeling unloved and uncared for,

I would have dropped everything, just to reassure you that someone's here.

I would have ... if I could have ... I would have always been here for you.

But now that I found out you are here, come be with me, no need to be alone anymore.

by soulsings