I Am So Incredibly Lonely…

@jesusredeemedme2425 I'm sorry you're feeling this way. You're not someone to be taken for granted. You are so cherished. Your feelings truly matter 🤍 You're not alone in this. Sending lots of love to you 🐾💕

@jesusredeemedme2425 I'm sorry you feel this way, friend. I think a lot of us feel that way at different times in our lives. Life is an illusion. I think we sometimes use delusion to trick ourselves which for many lead to addiction. God has such a bigger and wider plan for us. I wish more people understood that instead of living within the matrix. Life is special and we all can shine brighter together.

I dont know what to tell you

Every day of my life ive been feeling in my heart god will give me comfort of my heart and not leave me without that blessing... its a sort of faith.

But.. reality doesn't change either. Years and years keep going by.

Dont know whats to come for any of us. ... we can just take pride in the beauty of our own emotions I guess. We show ourselves compassion. We dream. We love. We know our worthiness.

Idk.. sometimes i feel maybe if I make it to heaven... ill get my partner ... god doesnt say No in heaven.... we get everything we want.... there are no doubts as we have in this life .....

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Once I stumbled across a YT channel made by a priest and I liked very much what he said about loneliness:

We are never _lonely_ but we are _longing_ for Home, for something bigger.

Feeling lonely can be humilating and painful.

But being able to feel lonely is a gift: it's like a remembrance of what we have seen before we were born.

Sadly, there is no shortcut to get back there before our earthly "mission accomplished" is ticked off.

But still, there are some things on earth which bring some striking resemblance 😊 

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i feel that. I hope this moment passes for you my love. You are deserving 🥰

@jesusredeemedme2425 I understand how you feel, sometimes I feel this way too. But then I remind myself to not feel so down about it because at the end of the day as long as I feel happy then that's all what matters.. I still believe one day love will be for me. So don't be so hard on yourself🌻⛅🫂 Sending love and hugs your way, I hope you'll feel better. 🧡🧡

Aww man. I’m sorry you are hurting, friend. People can really do damage on our belief in the truth. When someone sins against us and causes to feel less than them or worthless, that is the enemy speaking to us. The harm they have done is the evidence he uses for his lies. But your heart did not deserve that. You have impeccable precious value that has been given to you. And even if you doubt it, that does not mean for a second that it is diminished. God wants you to revel in the joy of knowing His love and that His love is enough. He has good things for you! You can trust Him. Don’t be distracted by the evil one’s lies. He comes only to steal, kill, and destroy but Jesus comes that you may have life abundantly. Don’t let go of the truth. Do the hard thing, ask God to help you let it in when you are down. He is more than willing, in fact He is delighted. Because loving you brings Him joy, and you believing that in the midst of trials and evil is where your joy is found. 💜 He died for you, you can trust Him.

Real love is indeed hard to find. Not everyone is lucky enough to receive it. But we can learn to love ourselves to the point that external validations don’t matter to us anymore. I know it’s not easy, but this will make you strong

Be in nature 🌄 💛🌠🌙

@jesusredeemedme2425 sending a lot of hugs your way

I promise there is love out there for you ❤️

If you have bad previous experiences, it would help a lot to book a therapy appointment or have a little journaling challenge. I know this sounds extremely cliché. But I had a prior horrible relationship experience. And as sad as it is, bad relationships often happen for a reason and discovering why it happened can help you protect yourself better in the future.

Most common reasons:

- being a people pleaser with little to no boundaries

- not knowing how to spot manipulation, toxic people and subtle red flags, as people won't be a jerk right away, will trap you with a false sense of safety and love first

- repeating a dynamic your parents had in some way (for example mom always stays silent when she doesn't like something, so you do too). If your parents didn't model healthy love, you have no reference to compare to

- telling yourself their current bad behaviour is not who they are because they were so nice yesterday

- low self esteem and self worth 

My case was a little mix of all. For the first time, it seemed like I just didn't have boundaries in love. Being too giving to someone who didn't deserve it at all when I should have walked away. But then we digged deeper with every therapy session and came to realise it all came from a life long chain of things that are seemingly random but actually all tied up into why things happened the way they did.

What I recommend as possible steps for next action:

- book a therapy appointment with someone who specialises in toxic relationships if you can

- read up on healthy and unhealthy relationships (it doesn't matter if it is books, watching YouTube videos or checking ***, but always find licensed professional accounts)

- check out healthy Vs unhealthy communication

- you can also listen in on your own specific struggle related stuff. Maybe it's depression, anxiety, unresolved trauma etc. That's a good start too. I got to digging through remembering how my friend said she thinks I'm an ENFP by MBTI and impulse checked it. Started to follow meme accounts that were type specific and they often touched on mental health challenges through the memes what got me to dig deeper.

- Thisone is a very specific thing and I will die on this hill. Don't jump straight to dating, become friends first without any side intentions. That will allow you to get to know the person in a safe low pressure way.

- Make sure to focus on the toxic things when researching. You can even check narcissist stuff, because as much as not everyone who is a bad person is a narcissist, learning about this type of people is an awesome lecture on subtle red flags and hidden manipulation tactics that you can then apply to pretty much everyone.

- and last but not least, look into confidence, self love, self worth and making peace with yourself. Having a solid understanding on why do you have negative feelings about yourself will allow you to heal things from the root up. And having a strong core of self respect will drastically improve your chances of not putting up with ***. People won't change. They may fine tune details, but a major change takes a lot of time and intentional work from them. There is a difference between a depressed and anxious boy you can actually love back to health and one with anger issues who is an actual danger to you. Leveling up your sense of self respect will help you decide who is worth the time and effort and who isn't. I know you have a very gentle heart and believe in the good of humanity. But the thing is, you are a human too. And you deserve to be loved, supported and cared for just as much as you would do for your partner. Love is not supposed to be painful, difficult or dramatic. It's not easy, sure, but the challenges should come from the outside world, not inside your own home.

You got this. I believe there is a huge love story waiting for you out there ❤️