Transformation

 This post is my reflection on me going  from a shy , timed and lost member on cups to a powerful and well respected member on cups.

It’s  like a seed Growing to a tree or a🐛to a butterfly, it been a journey of a lot of ups and downs. I been a member since 11/22/2022 but only was in to sc and other small thing,

 I  do not want to go into detail  of what brought me here but I will say a couple a things. On 5/29 my life was turn upside down and part of my life that meant a lot  from me was took away for 12 weeks. I  was not handling change very well and I ended up up hurting people when I thought I was helping them. That’s all I am going to say.

 On May 29 I came lost , confused and sraced. The first  month was super  hard for me. At first  I stayed in shell and wanted to nothing to do with member side and I was also very skeptical of it, Over time I spend time in 50+ , mindfulness , sc , eg and support rooms and found  them very helpful. I found the community in each of those rooms very supportive and helpful.  Over time I went to other rooms  that thought I would  never went to  but it me trying new things.  I also felt the forums have been very useful to write down all the hard stuff during this journey.  Some people know I track books I read in book section. The first   Month filled with me finding place , accepting my big mistake , moved  forward from it and took total responsibility of this mistake.  I also  took time to write sorry. Letters to people i felt I need to. When I first started I felt so bad not being able to say sorry but now I see it as it  will mean  more to these people since I changed so much.

Second month was  even more impactful. The birthday events was a big test for me to really reflect on how much I came, doing high 5 and doing paper plate things was fun. The birthday event shown me that I could be  big group with out being over whelmed.   The others thing that. Helping me get though is hosting the sc and doing all. 4 Academy  courses that I am  now done with.

 For  while there I was think I am not ready or I am going to messed up agagin. Now with it been under 4 and shock on  that it be here before I know it I am becoming more willing o  accept it, I am to see this fear as chance good things happening,

The people who really made a lasting impact on me during this time is

1 members who acepted me and helped me grow. 

@Lou73 https @amiablePeace77  @ASilentObserver Lou  for making really good place that help me during hard time.  Peace for making sessions  that made  really  made me think and grow during this time.

@GlenM thanks for making a place that helped me grow so much.

@Heather225 for Al, the support.

 Please if any one knows the username of. This  listener please tag.  Kayla

 Just  hearing your story on utube video really left impact on me and helped me not give up when time got rough.