Just trying
trigger warning - abuse, captivity.......ive been finding it hard to deal with my trauma lately, and after a recent attempt I'm trying very hard to get to a stable place again. But I'm struggling to open up, it's so hard to ask for help when you need it the most🙁 but a friend told me to just say it even if it doesn't make sense to other people, so here I go
Cults are bad, people can be evil 😥 did you know there's still millions of slaves in the world today i can't remember the number but it's really shocking. Cage, not allowed to wear clothes, no bed, not allowed to eat human food electric shock collers, whips, sex multiple times a day from the age of 4, beatings, burns, knives, chains, fear, constant fear constant pain. Ok this is the most I've opened up in a while so I'm gonna shut up now
@Tinywhisper11
Oh honey I'm so sorry, of this is what you have experienced in this much life I'm proud that your alive. You being alive beats what they have done to you. I to lived in a cult I know the pain and trauma how the treatment and conditions can completely diminish you. My darling we are more than our trauma *pulls you in a tight hug* There isn't much I can say that was will make it alright but what I can say is all we can do is reach out and be there for one another, we all can learn from one another 💜 if we allow ourselves to. My darling you deserve only the best and I hope that is now what you are receiving 🫂❤️🩹
@crimsonRaspberries1486 thankyou💖 thank God I have friends like you here at cups 💖 I'm working through some things right now so I'm not around much. But I'm getting better slowly🙂 seeing my psychologist more regularly, so I'll get there 🙂 we both will💖 hugs you tightly 💖
Hey @Tinywhisper11, I'm sorry you went through so much pain that an attempt felt like the best or only way out. You're not alone. I've been to that point too. But I hope you hold on to hope, because there is a way through. I'm sorry I can't say it will be easy, or quick, but it is possible to keep healing.
So, if you're willing, let's travel this tough road of healing, or rest as needed, with this good crowd to keep us company. *offers you a cookie to keep energy up*
We're here for you Tiny ❤️ *hugs if okay*
@WriteToHeal42 hugs you back 💖 thank you🙂💖 I'm working through some stuff, but slowly getting better 💖
@Tinywhisper11
Sending you my love 💕💜
@Amanda84 💖thanks sweetie 💖 I love you 💗
@Tinywhisper11
was thinking of you today as was thinking what a tiny whisper in even the darkest times can be heard by them that care. you now have a right to even scream things out and it ok as in healing there all kinds of feelings one needs to get out
when we was in psych ward they had us scream out names and what we was angry about as we throw clay at a wall then was told to throw eggs in the shower and scream words we like to at the abuses but that was when eggs were cheap too lol
hugs hope you having a good day be kind to self as you are loved and cared about
@stormieandpaws Very kind of you to support <3
I'm happy those strategies worked for you paws.
Thank you for being a source of encouragement
@GoldenRuleJG
your welcome everyone needs encouragement every day it can be in many forms kind words a listening' ear were not just listening but there in every way for the person really hearing them so many ways each can encouragement others as we say a lot we can not make world better whole but can change one person life each day by being there for them that make the world world a little better too
@stormieandpaws 💖 you are so sweet 💖
Hey, those are good ideas! Throwing clay and eggs. <3
@stormieandpaws thanks for checking in💖💖 screaming and throwing things sound like fun🙂💖 my therapist did encourage something like that, she told me to just sit outside and roar like a lion or howl at the moon just to relieve some pent up stress😁💖 I've been doing better theese past few days, I think I might be slowly getting my smile back🙂💖 how have you been?
Ooh you could be a wolf! <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 😁 yep! I'm more like a warewolf😁 I haven't roared or screamed outside yet, but I couldn't resist howling at the moon after she told me too 😁😁💖
Hehe imagine the poor confused old folks XD
@jesusredeemedme2425 😂😂😂 ooooo! That's a great idea thanks kiara😁 I can start howling closer to halloween😈 mwhahahaaa
Freak them out XD
@jesusredeemedme2425 😂😂😂
@Tinywhisper11I hear how painful and frightening those memories and images are for you, and it took a lot of courage to put even a little of it into words here. What you’ve described sounds like severe abuse and captivity, and it’s completely understandable that your body and mind are still reacting to it. You don’t have to go through this alone
@XXXTt0b1as999 thankyou for your kind words 💖 hugs you tightly 💖
@XXXTt0b1as999
we agree with you as no one should be alone on their healing journey
@Tinywhisper11
Tried this self-report that shows how women see me.
https://l.artics-us.com/mbit
Now I know what I need to do to get a girlfriend.
@Tinywhisper11Hi there 💙
First, I just want to say how incredibly brave you are for sharing this. Opening up about trauma — especially when it’s still so raw — takes an enormous amount of courage. What you’ve gone through sounds absolutely horrific and no one, especially a child, should ever experience anything like that.
It’s completely understandable that you’re struggling to open up and to feel stable right now. Healing after trauma isn’t a straight line, and it’s normal to have days (or even weeks) where it feels impossible. The fact that you’re still here, still reaching out, shows an amazing strength inside you, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
You deserve safety, care, and support as you work through this. If at any point you’re feeling unsafe with your thoughts or overwhelmed, please consider reaching out to a trusted friend. I am happy to talk to you about this. You don’t have to carry this alone.
Sending you gentleness and reminding you: what happened to you was not your fault. You matter. Your voice matters. And you are not alone. 💙
@Peace2199 Lola, from your introduction you seem like a full-of-life fun loving person. I am sorry you had some very difficult time!
@Peace2199 thankyou for your kind words 💖 I've been 44 struggling with the memories lately 🙁 but I'm seeing my psychologist more frequently right now and slowly getting through this 🙂💖 hugs you tightly 💖 thankyou💖
@Tinywhisper11 really* not 44 😂
44 XD
@jesusredeemedme2425 😂😂 😂
@Tinywhisper11
You are a courageous soul for sharing that Lola. Sends hugs if accepted. I wish the nightmares that haunt you go away :( <3 Soldier on!
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You are a delightful presence to the rooms - how you encourage others is beautiful.
I'm a pm away if you want to chat to me <3
@GoldenRuleJG thanks JG 💖 your always so kind to me 💖 hugs accepted and returned💖🙂💖 I love you 💗
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@Tinywhisper11 I feel sorry for anyone who has gone through anything like that. I haven't gone through that eaxact thing, since my life is so complex. And messed up. But when someone goes through something like that or similar, it is awful. And it takes sooo long to heal from. It messes up people for sure. I wish our world was better, and had less evil in this world.
*Hugs to anyone that needs or wants it!!!*
@Pickoff in sorry you've seen so much evil in your life too🙁 thanks for your kind words 💖 remember we are all here for you 💗 gives you a giant tiny hug 💗
Hello 👋 can I first just say wow what a inspiration you are! I am so proud by your courage and bravery to write this post.
Your friend has spoken very true words and the moment I read your post I thought of my own situation although different to yours I kept mine bottled up for alot of years so what a massive step you have done there ❤️
@louise26 thankyou for your kind words 💖 I think there are lots of us who keeps it all in here🙁 it's not easy to open up. I hope one day you'll feet safe enough here to be able to open up 💖 gives you a giant tiny hug 💗
You really are amazing 🫂 opening up is the hardest thing to do in the world and you have smashed that! ❤️ I really appreciate your words and I know this post will help others too and thats because of you ❤️
@louise26 I hope so🙂💖 Thank you so much 💖
@Tinywhisper11 hey again tiny. I'm so sorry your dealing with this. It hurts me to think you had to face that. I'm really proud of you for opening up - I know how hard it is. *hugs* <3 <3 <3
@angelheart2011 hi angel 💖 how have you been?? Thanks for your kind words 💖 hugs you tightly 💖
@Tinywhisper11 not great tbh. i put something on my profile if you wanna check. you don't have to though. i'm happy to support you - you deserve every kind word and more. *hugs back* <3
@angelheart2011 💖💖