🌸💗 Let’s Be Honest 🌸💗

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@RunningMachine

You aren't alone in this (: 

@RunningMachine

Thank you for sharing this with us. 💜

It sounds like that coffee and conversation meant a lot. The fact that your friend used one of her better days to make sure you knew how much she values your friendship says so much about how much she cares. It also sounds like talking things through helped bring some understanding to both sides.

At the same time, it's completely understandable that you've been struggling. The anniversaries of both of your parents' passing, alongside memories of such a difficult year, carry a lot of grief and emotion. Sometimes these dates affect us more deeply than we realize.

I'm glad you're feeling a little more positive after speaking with her. It sounds like there was a lot of care, understanding, and reassurance in that meeting. Be gentle with yourself as you move through the rest of this month. 💜

Sending you warmth and support. 🌷

@trueconfidant123

Yaay!! 🤗

@trueconfidant123

oooo love this!

I relate to this a lot—being there for others but wanting to handle everything on my own. Somehow even when I’ve surrounded myself with people, I’ve managed to isolate myself too

@AiluraTheCat

What you're describing sounds incredibly heavy to carry. Sometimes loneliness isn't simply wanting people around it can be wanting connection while also feeling exhausted, guarded, or afraid of being vulnerable. That push-and-pull of "I want someone close, but I also don't want to interact with anyone" is something many people experience when they're overwhelmed or hurting.

I also noticed that you called yourself "the problem." Gently, I wonder if that's being a little too hard on yourself. From what you've shared, it sounds less like you're the problem and more like you've been carrying a lot on your own for a very long time.

And regarding your health struggles pain doesn't become any less real because you're smiling, making jokes, or helping others laugh. People often assume that those who appear strong or positive must be doing okay, but that's simply not true. You can be kind, enthusiastic, hopeful, and still be hurting deeply at the same time.

What stands out to me is that despite everything, your hope is still there. Even in the middle of feeling lonely, exhausted, and overwhelmed, a part of you still believes you'll keep going. That takes a tremendous amount of strength.

For now, please know that your pain matters, your feelings are valid, and you don't have to carry all of this alone here. We're listening. 💜🌷

@BerenTinuviel im also feeling this as well. i am very good at turning away and avoiding that the bad days become so much worse than they should be. 

I would say that I should just be a "meh", but instead it's just a really rough one, because i avoided everything. 

@BerenTinuviel

thank you so much for sharing : ) 

What stood out to me is the self-awareness in your post. It takes a lot of courage to recognize that even healthy distractions can sometimes become ways of avoiding pain rather than processing it.

I can relate to what you're describing about not knowing how to answer these kinds of questions. Sometimes we're doing well in some areas while also carrying hurts that only become noticeable when things get quiet. That can make it difficult to know whether we're genuinely okay or simply very good at keeping ourselves busy.

The fact that you are beginning to notice and acknowledge those feelings doesn't mean you're doing worse it may actually mean you're allowing yourself to see things more honestly. And that honesty can be uncomfortable, especially when it reveals loneliness, sadness, or unmet needs that have been sitting beneath the surface for a long time.

Whatever label you put on it periods of melancholy, buried pain, or something in between it sounds like you're giving yourself permission to look inward instead of immediately pushing those feelings away. That's not easy work.

Thank you for sharing such a thoughtful reflection with us. I hope you continue to show yourself the same compassion and understanding that you've shown others. 🌷💜

@berrycheesecake90

im really sorry to hear that things feel threatening right now. what kind of things?

@berrycheesecake90 I'm here for you ❤️

@GreenLime3141

im really glad to hear you’re doing okay! 💜

@pinkiepie1724

First, I want to acknowledge how much you've been carrying. Finishing a school year is a big transition on its own, but you're also coping with the loss of your father, the complicated feelings that can come with an abusive relationship, tension with your mom, and struggles with self-harm. That's an enormous amount for one person to navigate.

Something that stood out to me is that you're still trying to keep your head up despite everything. That doesn't mean you aren't hurting it means you're continuing forward even while carrying a lot of pain.

I'm also really glad to hear that you have supportive friends and that you're spending time with them. Having people you trust and feel connected to can make such a difference during difficult times. Please continue leaning on those supports when you can.

At the same time, I'm concerned to hear that you've been struggling with self-harm. You don't have to manage that alone. If there is a trusted adult, counselor, therapist, school support person, or crisis resource available to you, I hope you'll consider reaching out. You deserve support with what you're going through. We also have listeners here if you ever need a chat.

For now, please be gentle with yourself. Grief, especially when the relationship was complicated, can bring up many different emotions all at once. Whatever you're feeling right now, you're welcome to share it here. 💜