In my experience the grieving process is a very personal and depends on the person experiencing the loss of a loved one. With that said, their are many stages to the grieving process that are, in my understanding, fairly well accepted by most of the mental health care professionals that work with people who are in their grieving process. So you might want to look at this information online, or at a library, to have a better understanding of that. With this said, how you deal with the process will therefore be very personal to you, in my opinion. Some people want to reach out to others to grieve, cry, share memories with others...some people prefer to grieve, cry in private...however, I would ask that you please consider not isolating yourself during this, expecially in the first 6 months or so, in my personal experience. And of course you may have days or hours that you want more contact with other people that are supportive of you, and other days or hours when you might want more privacy. Please know that it is never, in my opinion, a sign of weakness to reach out to others and ask for the support you deserve during this process, and please I would encourage you to be mindful to take good care of yourself, and treat yourself with great care and gentleness. IN my personal experience the grieving process really never ends, it will continue as you grow and learn, and time passes. However, in my experience, the pain and shock will lessen as time goes by, and personally I have found that memories that see to make me sad and cause me pain I ma now able to reelect upon with joy and acceptance. I am so sorry for your loss, and you can reach out to resources that you feel are best for you, or any combination of those resources that you are comfortable with, such as a mental health care professional, supportive friends and family, 7 Cups of Tea, a Doctor you work well with, and more. Take care.