Mood altering medication usually takes, at minimum, 2 years to alter, or "fix" your brain chemistry. If you feel well now, that means it's working! Or it could be a placebo effect. However, either way, it's best to continue taking the medication as prescribed, and keep in touch with your health care provider. I don't know if you've had side effects at the beginning of taking the medication or not, but those are terrible to get time and time again if you're not taking it regularly. Either way, following up with your physician is a good idea. If you think you're fine, but wondering, 'if [you] will ever feel fine again', then you're probably not doing as well as you think you are. Try to be honest with yourself about how you're feeling. Maybe write a journal, or jot notes, or take a voice recording of yourself rambling, to become more in tune with yourself. Writing yourself a letter, or someone else to whom you'd never send it, even a mythical person, can help get down on paper that which you don't know you need to say, or hear. Medication is a tool, in your arsenal, to help you get better. You're not weak or broken, for taking medication or asking for help. You're giving yourself the care you need. Now give yourself the space, and the time. I promise, it will be worth it.