Why do I feel like I go insane when I don't have my journal with me?

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nicolllexadams
January 9th, 2015 5:26pm
You are so used to writing down your thoughts in this journal, and not having it with you bugs you because you know if you wanted to, you couldn't. It has become a coping method for you and it is like your security. You like having it around because it is what you're used to.
stargirl27
June 5th, 2015 4:52am
i wouldn't be able to realize i'm thinking in a negative way, wouldn't be able to be grateful and stay away from my anxiety.
AngelinWonderland
January 12th, 2015 10:40am
Having a journal with you can feel like a safety blanket. It provides a safe place for you to channel your thoughts and express yourself freely. It is perfectly natural to crave that release.
Anonymous
February 20th, 2015 7:29pm
A journal definitely helps to record your thoughts and keep everything in order. If you rely on that journal, it's not surprising that you'd be upset without it!
SocialButterfly31
March 8th, 2015 8:37pm
I feel the same way when I am having a bad day I just need my journal. I feel as it helps take away some of what you are dealing with off your shoulders and you can feel set free from what is making you feel overwhelmed or have a bad day.
Anonymous
April 3rd, 2015 2:46pm
Maybe because you're attached with your journal and you prefer to keep it with you all the time. It's fine to have something so close to you, until it creates some serious trouble.
turkoizdog
April 17th, 2015 6:15am
It depends on if you rely on your journal to output or input thoughts. When you don't have it, it may feel like you have a lot going on and no other way to vent your thoughts or feelings. It may also sometimes help to be able to go back and read things in your journal, either to help you feel better emotionally or to help you remember things. Regardless, it seems like you rely on your journal a lot, and while this can help a lot with tumultuousness within the head and heart, it can make you dependent on it.
gracefulForever57
May 31st, 2015 10:50pm
because your journal it allows you to let everything out without having to explode whenever you journal isn't with you at least make sure you have a piece of paper and than you can transfer it into your journal later on
faintlyglowing
June 5th, 2015 10:24am
Perhaps maybe you're used to writing down your feelings, which isn't a bad thing at all. In fact, most people find it comforting to write down their feelings instead of saying it out loud. However, sometimes we have to get used to verbalizing what we really feel so that the people around us will also understand what we're going through.
NanaAthene
October 27th, 2015 12:55am
If you feel overwhelmed and you usually journal when you don't feel well and you don't have it, and you can't journal how you're feeling could be a reason. Like for me, if I don't have a stress ball with me or when I used to journal all day everyday and I didn't have that with me to help feel a little better or to calm down etc. I would go real crazy and my urges would go up.
fruityflamingo
November 16th, 2015 9:38am
I feel like that quite a lot, because I use my journal to write out my thoughts and feelings! It's ok to feel like that, but I've found that it's been helpful for me to learn other ways to deal with my thoughts and feelings too, because sometimes I get stuck without my journal.
Anonymous
November 27th, 2015 4:29am
Your journal may be the only thing keeping you stable. It is your form of release or expression, and without it you feel lost. You need to find a range of methods to maintain your emotions.
Greatlistener87
May 30th, 2016 9:09am
You might be too clingy to the journal, you might also be paranoid that it might go to the hands of others.
Anonymous
June 20th, 2016 5:22pm
It's very common to feel attached to a physical item, such as a journal, that you may have had travel with you throughout your life. That's normal, and could be why you feel such a strong bond to it.
Serpentine
August 16th, 2016 11:20pm
Journal is a tool for managing your emotions- it helps you reflect, to organize thoughts, to look back at yourself AND your surroundings whenever. Suddenly not having the journal by your side can trigger anxiety- you don't grasp the control anymore, the balance is at risk, WHERE IS MY PEN, WHERE IS MY PAPER!
Anonymous
October 25th, 2016 5:45am
Because it has everything you have ever felt...your dreams your emotions... it is like your best friend, who never judges you.
Anonymous
December 26th, 2016 5:37am
You don't know how to efficiently convey your thoughts and feelings. You're used to writing out your emotion down on paper, but without that method, you are confused as to how to think out your feelings.
Anonymous
June 5th, 2017 10:01am
I can relate to this a lot. Your journal, in a way, becomes an extension of your memory and in turn holds value as a keeper of thought. We use it as a substitute for actual conversations with people. Journals often act as a way of communication in way that is non-judgmental and completely free to be painted in our perspective. With that being said, we develop an emotional and mental bonds with it just as we connect to any other human or animal. That, or the individual could be naturally possessive about what they consider theirs, they could fear someone else having access to it and it's contents. It could also be our own ingrain insecurity of being lonely and needing to vent out our mental and emotional turmoil to someone, or in this case something. When we feel lonely, it's comforting to know that you have something to fall back to when you feel like the things aren't working out for you. I myself feel that way with my journal, I consider it as a dear friend who's been there to listen during my darkest times. It's been a constant in my life. With that said, I've subconsciously assigned value to it beyond normality.
Anonymous
January 8th, 2018 10:27am
Your journal might be your way of expressing your self, withought it you may feel as if you have no way of letting out your feelings.
SteadfastStatue
February 12th, 2018 6:34am
In a way, I feel that this question resonates with me, "Why do I feel like I go Insane when I don't have my journal with me?" For me, when I first started to build my toolkit to self-care, I researched what worked for others, regardless of sex, religion, gender, social standing, economic status, education level or access to resources. Journaling seemed to stand out across blogs, youtubers, motivational speakers, teachers, mentors, etc.. Journaling, I have witnessed and experienced first-hand, is a way to forgive and come to terms with ever, ones unchanging past, ever changing present and an unknown future. However, writing and documenting all goings on inside my head and putting it on paper wasn't mean to signify a forgetting of something, quite the opposite: journaling my thoughts was a way to remember. the way I see it, journaling, writing, documenting, in whatever medium translates for you, is a very personal way of being your own historing. It is susceptible to being highly subjective, but I feel like that is how to learn more about ourselves. To never forget, but to forgive, to write and to not write off, ourselves. Not having that external hard drive, can really throw us for a loop, if we cannot even remember something as visceral as an emotion. Not having a journal within arms reach can be hard at first because it is the one place we can collect self, and see eye-to-eye, with our strife and embrace it, independently of outside scrutiny.
CarissasHereToTalk
February 20th, 2018 5:43pm
Maybe it's a comfort object. Some people carry a special necklace, some kids have things like blankets or stuffed animals, it might be something like that.