In a way, I feel that this question resonates with me, "Why do I feel like I go Insane when I don't have my journal with me?"
For me, when I first started to build my toolkit to self-care, I researched what worked for others, regardless of sex, religion, gender, social standing, economic status, education level or access to resources. Journaling seemed to stand out across blogs, youtubers, motivational speakers, teachers, mentors, etc..
Journaling, I have witnessed and experienced first-hand, is a way to forgive and come to terms with ever, ones unchanging past, ever changing present and an unknown future. However, writing and documenting all goings on inside my head and putting it on paper wasn't mean to signify a forgetting of something, quite the opposite: journaling my thoughts was a way to remember.
the way I see it, journaling, writing, documenting, in whatever medium translates for you, is a very personal way of being your own historing. It is susceptible to being highly subjective, but I feel like that is how to learn more about ourselves. To never forget, but to forgive, to write and to not write off, ourselves.
Not having that external hard drive, can really throw us for a loop, if we cannot even remember something as visceral as an emotion.
Not having a journal within arms reach can be hard at first because it is the one place we can collect self, and see eye-to-eye, with our strife and embrace it, independently of outside scrutiny.