March 4, 2014
Anorexia and bulimia are two of the most difficult disorders from which to recover. Recovery has to come from you - it's not simply about gaining weight and being told to eat by your peers. True recovery involves learning to let go of your fears and embracing yourself. It means learning to love yourself the way you are.
That said, recovery is incredibly difficult without a support network. It's easy for your motivation to be drowned out by the voices and compulsions prompting you to lose weight. Enlisting the help of family members, friends, and professionals is the best way to combat this. They can be there for you on rough days and they can remind you that you're worth much more than you think.
Professional help is the best place to turn when recovering from any eating disorder. Therapists and counselors have special training and will know how to assist you in ways that family members might not. You can also visit a nutritionist to figure out what foods will keep you healthy, which can take some of the anxiety out of recovery. If you don't have access to healthcare or you need immediate assistance, you can also phone the National Eating Disorders hotline at 1-800-931-2237.
Oftentimes, anorexia and bulimia develop as a desire to have control over external situations. They're coping mechanisms to deal with fear of failure and worries about inadequacy. But like other unhealthy coping mechanisms, they come with addictive qualities. Though on the surface, it may seem as though anorexia and bulimia allow you to have control, the truth is that anorexia and bulimia are controlling you. The voices and fears aren't bettering your life, they're hurting you - classic wolves in sheep's clothing. And they can be fought.
There is always hope for your recovery, no matter your age or gender or circumstances. There are people willing to support you even if you're having trouble finding them right now. And you deserve to have help and safe spaces. You deserve to live a happy and healthy life. You deserve to make the most out of your life and become the person you want to be.
And all of these are things that anorexia and bulimia can't give you. Temporary satisfaction in weight loss will always be overrided by the voices. You deserve more than that, and you can have so much more than that. Recovery is difficult and messy and even painful at times, and this can make giving up seem like the easiest option. But the hardest road is the most rewarding. You deserve the world, and you deserve to love yourself. You deserve a bright future and happiness.
I wish you all the best.
By, Katie MacEachern
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